Ok...sorry for the delay for the BBQ compilation pics...
have been busy and stuff...
lack of ideas on how the background should be....but now...
it's done boyz and girlz...
but these are the toned down ones... can't load too big files on the net...
Hope you like these.
Cheers!

My project of a computer magazine cover is done...
ready for handing in!...
all put into an actual magazine product... here's how it's supposed to look like
for the front and the back...

Emptiness...
A void left inside...
Of a day so normal
there's nothing much inside.
Vexed...

~A world challenged
limits we are bound
take a step beyond
breathe the difference
that the countless
unending we find
an arena uncontrolled
benefits we reap
the quickness of reaction
brings the impact escalation
that life ain't that simple afterall.
Take a walk down the road
today's steps are tomorrow's old
what can't you see is what you want to clear
what you can see you already know
but yet not hearing or fear
The moment's safety is yet the second's danger
where there is vastness
there is multitude or variations
thus comes the infinity of results.
We never know what's tomorrow like
yet tomorrow will come
sit and hope with actions unacted
we stand at a point where we become dails
things changes around us
but position is a ritual til eternal dust...~

well of coz...not forgetting
this little one....swimming in the open
that caught my sight as a little dot from afar
and then....as it drew nearer...
the cute little thing.

Imagine yourself in a spanish arena
not in the midst of concrete again...
with me, you always get near to waters...
There you see the beauty of every simple thing.
How backward things may look
but yet to many it could just be paradise.
all at the back of where you reside for the few days...
And then next to mexico...a walk amongst ruins
yet so beautiful....
so eye catching...seated at Quintana Roo

And for the once I face a decline
for such issues in my life...
That somehow I see no energy in me to pursue further.
Drained...
Today I smile and the next moment faint
A face of courage and endurance of pain
physical energy but mental zonked
...
Whatever...
Just ...
Drained...

Staring blankly
with strums of slow spanish romance
racing runs after runs
but reality bites
and reality scars
feelings of yesterday just watered
and what doors were left
turned stone cold...
shivers returns with the emptiness
what realisation I held inside
forced to fade into nothingness
yet it can't be instant
it's process can't be quicken
oh Lord how I wished things were otherwise
but as it's not...
I'm still around for
and be standing by
But now...I'm here...
just right here...
for you...

lacerated and down I am

~|Cold cool air
heal my wounds
and every deep cuts'n tear

Heal scrapes of mine
my bruises
and harness focus of my mind

Heal me and make me whole
heal my heart
and heal my soul

Heal me from the grind I tried
heal my body
and heal my pride that's left of me...|~

~A return of a gift
brings pain to the heart...
What does that mean?
or is it that ne'er can it start?
I'd rather it's being kept...
away from me
even if it's negative you see.
At least spare me...
please...
To see things given returned to me
is like taking what I've offered
and slapping me with it.
The pain...
Oh damn I'm in pain...
like a wall just placed before me
with no knowing why...
I'm returning to black hole all with a sigh~

I came upon a pic I once edited...
the place I worked for a short while...very nice...
relaxed...
Well as the Bartender...
A totally spanish Bar setting serving Tapas...
Well actually Tapas are small quantities of food...
aka. appetizers in Spanish cuisine.
It's something that is given to accompany a drink before
a main meal...well that's in Spain...not in Singapore.
Here, you just gotta pay to sit in there with a drink.

In the past, this place was called 'The Tapas' with
an octopus in the logo...now it's called
'La Viva'

"I've nothing, but an empty space...
To be filled and warmth will sip in
And love flows in the blood"

I close my eyes...
wondering what I could see beyond the physical world...
Like I've been able to see those things they say aren't human
I only heard voices surrounding me...
filling my ears through and through...
I only saw myself taking on challenges after challenges...
one after another...
had a whole lot of comments rushing in today...
Went to a house where there was a fortune teller from thailand...
Just there to look at the group of people at cost already dealt with...
And he saw me as he person who goes from challenges after challenges...
With people, against people, against myself...
Very much like I had in mind earlier...
darn shocking...
And that there will be a point soon where I will hit growing point in career
ain't just that...
Someone whom I'd stay with will soon come my way...
lol...damn....this is madness....
Think about it....
Don't know if it's actually true....hahaaa

~|I ought to be workin' but I can't concentrate
I ought to be sleeping but I stayed up real late
When I ought to be doing the things I should do...
I think about you....
I ought to be writing, but I can't find a song...
Stand her drifting, drifting along...
When I ought to be doing the things I should do...
I think about you....
I could go crusin' but I've had enough
I could go drinkin' but I can't stand the stuff
Just don't do it like it used to do
I'd rather think about you...|~

~You come and go like the wind...
Everytime I think about you, baby I see something new...
That takes me higher than before
And makes me want you more...
I wish I don't have to go...
don't wanna leave alone...
Coz' leaving means being further from you.
oh and I'd be missing you so...~

Day's ending...
felt my age already...
with one by one my young little cousins grow up....
all big...and having the experience of their own.

one by one handling BGR issues...still hangin' in the teenage stage...
yet childish 'political' issues.

and small ones that are at least 20yrs my junior...
running about and looking up to me as like some towering monster
able to carry the whole lot of them at one sweep...

hahaaa...

Played with them like mad.
All very cute...
some still at their shy stage...some so young yet already so vocal.

Oh the adorable little things all of them.
Feels like just yesterday they were just either babies or toddlers running around giving me the blur face.

2nd day of the lunar new year...
drained....tired. HohOHo... all the helping out and stuff...
did some reading til almost 7am this morning... and redid my resume assignment...
Well hope that works well enough for me to score somewhere.

After working was good...burning all the CNY poison...cuttlefish, cookies and other junk food
that came along the way.

Guess all's good...all's just good...relax the day away and evening the entire group of relatives are flooding my house and
I'll be getting real busy. Actually thought of getting friends over but with the crowd...It's gona be hard for me to even
be a good host to them. I'm gona be kitchen man...and Mum's runner.

On another mini part of me for the day... the words "Let money work hard for you, work too hard for money and you'll die" just rings in my head for no reason at all...lol...
A sign?...well Don't know....don't really know if I should even bother about such signs...hahahaaa

And now... For the new year...
A Blue Lagoon...
No no No....not the freaking show
idiot!
not even the place!
The drink!

- 1 part of blue curacao
- 1 part of gin
- 1 part of lemon juice
- ice cubes

Put the whole lot in the shaker...
shake some booty and strain the mix
into a tall glass...
garnish with a slice of lime, lemon and a cherry..
Pop the goodie down for cool and refreshing feeling!

Ladies and Gentlemen....
Anyone care for a new shot of
Flaming Lamborghini?

- 1 part of coffee liqueur
- 1 part of cointreau
- 1 part of white sambucca
- 1 dash of cream

Add the first 3 in a shot
light the freakin' booze...
Whack in the cream on top and
down it goes!

In the midst of postal code
139212...
we find beauty and comfort
for total relaxation...
for chilling out...
free your mind away on glasses of martinis
and seated in repose
out of the rat race and quick pace of life...

Would you have ever believed me if I told you that
these are taken in our local lands, Singapore?...
Well, you can be damn sure it is in Singapore!
hahahaaa....

Today I chanced upon a Business model to make money big time!!!
Imagine with a initial capital of USD$1000, in the 7th month of investment,
you would have gained 95% of your intial capital and the rest of the remainding 8 months
period towards full muturity is plainly Dividend...aka. Profits!
OMG! and the total profit from what I calculated would be about 200%!

Damn shit...madness but...gona go more into this and whack for a test drive!
feeling like some risk these days...
erhmm...since when I wasn't....? hmmm...

~I have not shine, shivering
not opened my mind, clearly seeing
I have ignored every blessing
But now this time is for confessing...
That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can’t hide
Here's my confession
I have been strong without you
Away from you now, I miss you
For so long
Nothing could move me
But I realised
Now you could change me
Now I feel myself in shivers
Each time I miss your face
I am captured by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
Girl, I can’t hide
Here's my confession~

~You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this~

Oh yes the wonderful you...
Just as I managed to sleep...
that there you were in my dreams...
holding on to my hands asking me for a walk with you...
Delighted and I wished I didn't wake up...
but I'd say then...this sleep was a gift...
so wonderful feeling it gave ...felt so real...
that I didn't wanna wake to reality
to where I'm standing.
Anyway,
In appreciation I thank God for that still...
It was heart warming enough...
just for those moments...

Friday...
Some asked me which are the most
beautiful beaches I've been...
well I'd say Grand Cayman island or
The island of Tahiti...
Well Heard of Bora Bora?...
It's in French Polynesia though...
I couldn't really find my photos
of Cayman so... let me show you
Tahiti...Bora Bora (First born)...
The language there pronounce it as
'Pora Pora'...
You'll often find yourself directly over
waters...even during your stay in
luxury accomodations...
and sometimes you may even find the
only mode of transport to get stuff
would be a row boat...hahaa...
Of the pictures...you'll see just one
not of tahiti but of hawaii...
its just some addition to bring you
Waimea canyon. Inspite of the sign...
We climbed...hahaa....well those days...
Daredevils.. Death defying creature I was.

And then off to Japan I went! Fukuoka!
Many places I went...the wind was so strong
I could hardly open my eyes...Cold!!
Especially going to Asia's Biggest Ferris Wheel!

Funny how time flies...
just when fun was around the corner...

Went to Korea in 2003.
Climbed mountains, skii and of course
the shopping area along the streets
of Seoul. But erhmm...frankly... boring place.

Well of course not forgetting
those days in army...
hmm...here's some from
The australia trip!

Was looking around in my CDs...some collection of digital photos taken over past
few years... well there are some striking ones that really was good...
like the days when I was in windsurfing and sailing...my glorious days...
but oh well...then came to NTU...having fun and stuff...
going to Vill Bali with my Buddy felix...

Well here's some...

The reunion dinner...
finally we stop the face moving pace of our lives
sit down together and chat the evening through at dinner.
Was good...really good.
My mum's preparation was great for some hot plate BBQ and steam boat altogether.
My Dad and us all are lucky to have her.
Homemaker and a Chef...
Well...time for me to pick the whole lot up from where she is.

Then the annual big clean up will take place after dinner...
my younger brothers were activated...
how they were so small last time now,
getting older... they have to get moving too...but of course, blur at everything
well they've gotta start somewhere.
Aiding my mum with the backyard while she teaches the new maid... my sis dealing with the inside of the house...
While I saw to the pavillion, car porch and the car.
Tiring but it was good to see all working together and getting the whole clean up done fast.
When all's done...it's been always good to sit at the pavilion and enjoying the cool night breeze for awhile...
sigh...what a week has passed.

Today I came upon a thought...
for this new year...
I'll braving even more or should I say...
I'd wanna bring up this guts even stronger to brave challenges
to be where I wanna be...to have what I feel is right...
give myself a chance to the things I feel worth taking the risk for.
I'm worth it and whatever it may be..whoever it may be...
after giving it all some thought....they're all worth it...
"Cannot then cannot lor"..."Can then can lor..."

=)

It's like walking through a lonely path...
Quiet...
Empty...
and everything's dim.
The end of the road is darkened.
Light at the end of the road there isn't
'Cause you don't know where the end is...
it's like bring on a splitting road...
Going back and forth is yet darken roads
I hope standing at this point...
two lamp posts,
like gardian angels...
will keep me lighted 'til the time to move...
'til I see some light at either paths...

I've been starin' at the page for what seems like days
I guess I'm tryin' to put this one off for awhile
Did I just feel a tear fall off from my eyes?
Or have I been happy, laughed so hard that I cried?
I'm flow my secrets to you like a flowin' river
I guess the day's just bringing me down...
Only love, there's no hate
Leavin' it here for you to take...
Please know that every word is a piece of my heart...
The smiles on my face,
They came easy 'cause of you
Sometimes I think,
I love you, but I hate you
'Cause I know I can never escape you...
Through my days and through my dreams...
Some how you image and smiles are just always there.
Only love, there's no hate
Leavin' it here for you to take...
Please know that every word is a piece of my heart...
Have I said too much?
Maybe I haven't said enough...
But I know that every word is a piece of my heart...

A nice moment I felt I needed by myself...
after the dryness and boredom of school...
I left my fav class of weeks early having nothing to do at all...
Got back, dropped my stuff and headed down to the place they call...
Cafe at the Sea....
For some good food...
like once in awhile I'd just treat myself after a hard week.
Joined by a sweet lady whom I met in the evening at the very place...
Alone... hmmm....
well anyway, we had a good chat on dinner...
apparently she isn't from Singapore... and so I found her to be coz of her accent...
In fact she seems like a rather good mix!...
From Canada she says... Mum a korean and Dad a spanish...
Didn't ask how they landed in Canada but I must say that they made up a fine 25 year cocktail mix!...
Yup Everyone I admit...she's fine.
Here on holiday... parents were busy with some stuff and she was just having a 2 nights stay at the Shangrila Rasa Sentosa.
So that explains her being alone here...having dinner...
Well...I'm not complaining. =)
Good Company!...
The music was good...the food wasn't too bad... the presentation was somewhat nice to look at.
Taste was...actually just like any other kinda fusion cuisine you find outside...but hey, good company good chilling out place.
Again...I'm not complaining!
Anyway...I had my fill...stay alittle for chats...and decided I'd be on my way home.
Fatigue was sitting in... And no no....I didn't do anything to her if any one of you reading this are thinking of me
making a move...Sorry...
Good company doesn't mean I gotta take the dive...
Got someone in mind.

Anyway... the day ended off from school well... Spent the entire journey out of campus chattering with 2 girls from my Adobe class... Somehow fascinated by my travelling adventures... and my portfolio I was building with animations and still imaging.
Hahahaaa...a very nice pair... somehow conversation kept flowing... and it made the journey out less trying besides the fact that I've got my ipod for company...but I reckon it'd be better with people. lol...

The Start of the Chinese New year Season....
But somehow feeling too drained to think of the visitation...
probably be stay put at home to rest... getting myself energized for the enxt week ahead...
got alot more to deal with...
Think about and sort out.

Studying studying studying....
Final test for the week...
Friday marks the end of week 6 of this semester... and very soon...
it's the entry to killing grounds.
In the midst of reading up for the test later...
I also did up my Adobe artwork video portfolio....sounds good eh....hahaha....anyway... it's something to
start off in the whole graphics biz....
The more I look at it...the cooler it is...

Anyway....3 more hrs to test time...
Going for a morning RUN!...my usual. =)
At least it's a few mins of self...
the only I'd think about is to move forward...nothing else disturbs me...
Giving my mind a 15min break....so that means....about a 3km+ run?....sounds good to me!
Then comes a good breakfast!...
Self-made...cheese and ham omelette with Toast and Oats...
and an apple with some grapes....

Moving off!

Like once again...
inside me I hold raging fire...
It will take time to cool...
and soothe the burning flames...
But for now it burns...

Think I'll start going through things in another circle...
But I know I need some time off....
everything...
Get my head back in whack...
undo some triggering thoughts...
[m] will be someone I'm around for...
sometimes... to like is not to have
yet for some,
to have may not be for likes...
someday....
we'll see where I go...
when the time comes... I will know what to do...
I believe I would.
But first...we'll see how tomorrow comes.

=)

Had this lyrics resonating in my head the whole time...
Meant very much...
Said very much...
And embedded in with my thoughts...soo much...
How what's the use?...
couldn't catch it...
was just a goodnight song...

anyway....here it goes....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I feel like I never measure up to who you see
Sometimes I think I can't give you all the love you need
You keep changing everyday
Amazing me in everyway.

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I never dreamed I could ever feel the way I do
I hope and pray I will always be enough for you
I can only do my best
I have to trust you with the rest

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I promise I will hold you through the changes and fears
When life seems unclear
And when I can't be right there with you
I know there's angels by your side

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything... I have
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The beach...

2 Tests in a row...
Screwing up my head big time early in the morning...
Ain't thinking all too well...
Got another set tomorrow and the head ain't too good for such pounding...
For once after so long I'm losing my mind...
Just for alittle while...
Just for this while...

I think I long for the times when I lay on the soft white sands
the brush of the gentle breeze...
The Beach...
And I close my eyes... I picture myself just there...

But I ...alone...only a rooted tree...

"I saw you coming from a mile away
Trying to hide behind that pretty face
Bet my last dollar baby you been bruised
Poor little heart all black 'n' blue
Last thing you need's another pickup line
You must have heard them all a thousand times
God only knows what you been through
Believe me I've been broken too
It aches, it breaks, it made me wanna fade away
I've been around that block a time or two
Baby, I don't want to fall in love with you
I try, but I can't get around the truth
Please don't say my name, give this heart a break
I don't want to make the same mistake but it's too late
I'll leave on the light
These arms are open all night
I got your face in the back of my mind
I want to reach in and pull it out
And I'd be lying if I didn't say
When you're this close I'm afraid
Of the way I'll feel if I touch your hair
The way I'll miss you when you're not there
And that I'll see you when I close my eyes
It's too late, I've crossed that line
It aches, it breaks, it takes your breath away
I'll still be around come closing time
Just for you..."

I would promise the world but it's out of my hands...
But I can only give you everything....
That I am...and I have....