Studying studying studying....
Final test for the week...
Friday marks the end of week 6 of this semester... and very soon...
it's the entry to killing grounds.
In the midst of reading up for the test later...
I also did up my Adobe artwork video portfolio....sounds good eh....hahaha....anyway... it's something to
start off in the whole graphics biz....
The more I look at it...the cooler it is...
Anyway....3 more hrs to test time...
Going for a morning RUN!...my usual. =)
At least it's a few mins of self...
the only I'd think about is to move forward...nothing else disturbs me...
Giving my mind a 15min break....so that means....about a 3km+ run?....sounds good to me!
Then comes a good breakfast!...
Self-made...cheese and ham omelette with Toast and Oats...
and an apple with some grapes....
Moving off!
Friday, February 16, 2007
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Think I'll start going through things in another circle...
But I know I need some time off....
everything...
Get my head back in whack...
undo some triggering thoughts...
[m] will be someone I'm around for...
sometimes... to like is not to have
yet for some,
to have may not be for likes...
someday....
we'll see where I go...
when the time comes... I will know what to do...
I believe I would.
But first...we'll see how tomorrow comes.
=)
Had this lyrics resonating in my head the whole time...
Meant very much...
Said very much...
And embedded in with my thoughts...soo much...
How what's the use?...
couldn't catch it...
was just a goodnight song...
anyway....here it goes....
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I feel like I never measure up to who you see
Sometimes I think I can't give you all the love you need
You keep changing everyday
Amazing me in everyway.
If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have
I never dreamed I could ever feel the way I do
I hope and pray I will always be enough for you
I can only do my best
I have to trust you with the rest
If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have
I promise I will hold you through the changes and fears
When life seems unclear
And when I can't be right there with you
I know there's angels by your side
If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything
If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything... I have
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The beach...
2 Tests in a row...
Screwing up my head big time early in the morning...
Ain't thinking all too well...
Got another set tomorrow and the head ain't too good for such pounding...
For once after so long I'm losing my mind...
Just for alittle while...
Just for this while...
I think I long for the times when I lay on the soft white sands
the brush of the gentle breeze...
The Beach...
And I close my eyes... I picture myself just there...
But I ...alone...only a rooted tree...
"I saw you coming from a mile away
Trying to hide behind that pretty face
Bet my last dollar baby you been bruised
Poor little heart all black 'n' blue
Last thing you need's another pickup line
You must have heard them all a thousand times
God only knows what you been through
Believe me I've been broken too
It aches, it breaks, it made me wanna fade away
I've been around that block a time or two
Baby, I don't want to fall in love with you
I try, but I can't get around the truth
Please don't say my name, give this heart a break
I don't want to make the same mistake but it's too late
I'll leave on the light
These arms are open all night
I got your face in the back of my mind
I want to reach in and pull it out
And I'd be lying if I didn't say
When you're this close I'm afraid
Of the way I'll feel if I touch your hair
The way I'll miss you when you're not there
And that I'll see you when I close my eyes
It's too late, I've crossed that line
It aches, it breaks, it takes your breath away
I'll still be around come closing time
Just for you..."
Trying to hide behind that pretty face
Bet my last dollar baby you been bruised
Poor little heart all black 'n' blue
Last thing you need's another pickup line
You must have heard them all a thousand times
God only knows what you been through
Believe me I've been broken too
It aches, it breaks, it made me wanna fade away
I've been around that block a time or two
Baby, I don't want to fall in love with you
I try, but I can't get around the truth
Please don't say my name, give this heart a break
I don't want to make the same mistake but it's too late
I'll leave on the light
These arms are open all night
I got your face in the back of my mind
I want to reach in and pull it out
And I'd be lying if I didn't say
When you're this close I'm afraid
Of the way I'll feel if I touch your hair
The way I'll miss you when you're not there
And that I'll see you when I close my eyes
It's too late, I've crossed that line
It aches, it breaks, it takes your breath away
I'll still be around come closing time
Just for you..."
If I had to describe the very picture in my mind
I'd say it's a scene with stormy weather...
and I stranded in the midst of nowhere
visuals blinded and can go no further...
There I am in the blistering cold...
hoping for warmth
I find none...
Shivering in my bones...
like I a fallen angel...
losing all graces and brightness...
where my pillar is
where my fire is
where my strength is...
Grasp hold of none I can...
And there I reach out for a fading figure...
but to hold I can't...
to touch seemingly impossible...
Oh you....yes you...
don't you know you're...
Just like a star...
My star...
but diminishing to afar....
My painted picture of my mind...
And here I'm left falling awake...
Just blue....
I'd say it's a scene with stormy weather...
and I stranded in the midst of nowhere
visuals blinded and can go no further...
There I am in the blistering cold...
hoping for warmth
I find none...
Shivering in my bones...
like I a fallen angel...
losing all graces and brightness...
where my pillar is
where my fire is
where my strength is...
Grasp hold of none I can...
And there I reach out for a fading figure...
but to hold I can't...
to touch seemingly impossible...
Oh you....yes you...
don't you know you're...
Just like a star...
My star...
but diminishing to afar....
My painted picture of my mind...
And here I'm left falling awake...
Just blue....
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
I lay motionless...
weakened
staring into the blank of my ceiling...
a burning feeling arises...
an emptiness I felt as I travelled in the last ending week
I missed...
and I realised only being away
Away from everything
and there an apparition
or was it an image stuck at the back of my mind...
appeared right before me...
as I flowed myself into a short eyes close...
I reached out and it was gone...
Then a text beeped out of my pocket...
my delighted eyes brightened...
You are missed...
I told you so.
And the picture clip was merged with a beautiful song...
selected with you in mind...
all with a meaning behind...
But maybe all I am
is the invisible man...
weakened
staring into the blank of my ceiling...
a burning feeling arises...
an emptiness I felt as I travelled in the last ending week
I missed...
and I realised only being away
Away from everything
and there an apparition
or was it an image stuck at the back of my mind...
appeared right before me...
as I flowed myself into a short eyes close...
I reached out and it was gone...
Then a text beeped out of my pocket...
my delighted eyes brightened...
You are missed...
I told you so.
And the picture clip was merged with a beautiful song...
selected with you in mind...
all with a meaning behind...
But maybe all I am
is the invisible man...
Eagle in the dark
feathers in the pages...
Monkeys in my heart
Rattling in their cages
I walked a way that's blue
like I'm another ghost to follow...
It's only up to you...
Now my head is swell and hollow...
Romancing people are...
Forget it I'm no Romeo...
I've lost it through and through...
Don't know how to get it...
it's like
One foot in the grave
Other in the shower...
It's so hard to say...
And it's painful by the hour...
2 hours more to go
and today's yesterday it follows...
And there you see...
a lonesome man a broken down me...
But it's life...
My life.....
feathers in the pages...
Monkeys in my heart
Rattling in their cages
I walked a way that's blue
like I'm another ghost to follow...
It's only up to you...
Now my head is swell and hollow...
Romancing people are...
Forget it I'm no Romeo...
I've lost it through and through...
Don't know how to get it...
it's like
One foot in the grave
Other in the shower...
It's so hard to say...
And it's painful by the hour...
2 hours more to go
and today's yesterday it follows...
And there you see...
a lonesome man a broken down me...
But it's life...
My life.....
"It's late at night, and all gone home.
So finaly, we are all alone.
The waitor says, we're closing very soon...
Still remind so long, don't want to say goodbye to you.
I've got plans for us tonight. Baby that's right.
We share the last glass of wine.
Our hearts are beating in perfect time.
Wondering who, would be the first to say.
You know it feels allright,
why don't you hold me tight?
And that's tomorrow comes a day.
Don't think about what they will say,
just close your eyes and dream away.
In my way."
So finaly, we are all alone.
The waitor says, we're closing very soon...
Still remind so long, don't want to say goodbye to you.
I've got plans for us tonight. Baby that's right.
We share the last glass of wine.
Our hearts are beating in perfect time.
Wondering who, would be the first to say.
You know it feels allright,
why don't you hold me tight?
And that's tomorrow comes a day.
Don't think about what they will say,
just close your eyes and dream away.
In my way."
Argh.....for this moment....
this very moment....
I can't damn it focus!!!!
I head is just wondering everywhere!!!!
crazy!!!!
OMG....cannot take it....
totally madness....
There must be something disturbing my concentration.....hmmm ....now what could it be?.....
=/
feeling very restless....
from fatigue to restlessness...
I think the next step would be hyperactiveness....
Oh no....siao liao!
my Biological battery is having a surge!
freaking went for a run round the school...and did weights 'til my arms and legs shivered....but then...
after a nice shower...instead of getting relaxed and slack down....my body re-energized!!
MAdness! lol....
this very moment....
I can't damn it focus!!!!
I head is just wondering everywhere!!!!
crazy!!!!
OMG....cannot take it....
totally madness....
There must be something disturbing my concentration.....hmmm ....now what could it be?.....
=/
feeling very restless....
from fatigue to restlessness...
I think the next step would be hyperactiveness....
Oh no....siao liao!
my Biological battery is having a surge!
freaking went for a run round the school...and did weights 'til my arms and legs shivered....but then...
after a nice shower...instead of getting relaxed and slack down....my body re-energized!!
MAdness! lol....
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Funcione a mí
FATIGUE!!!!
OH NO!!!!....my battery running out at the wrong time!!!
Anywayz... Day was still alright so far...
Test was ok....ability to at least 75% with speed study...hahaa...
3 more tests to go for the week and 2 reports!!!...argh! OMG.
V-day...at the strike of midnight....hmmm...
Kenneth....doing anything at all?....
I'm sorry, seems like you're very much farked with the big load of work to get done!....
Can't deal much with doing anything for anyone... unless maybe it's for something that could change the entire course of
my life....then maybe only...
"No , usted no tuvo que excepto mi No.
de la vida,
usted no es listo yo puede sentirse que él afuera que está lloviendo,
pero apenas iré su corazón lo dejaré a casa algún día ir.
Tan pronto como usted consiga que la sensación de usted pueda comenzar a vivir otra vez tan pronto como el peor encima usted puede tenerle todo el sentido Rigt de la marca ahora que no puedo darle qué usted necesita tan pronto como usted consiga la sensación... Funcione A Mí.
Hush, usted no tienen que decir una palabra. Confíe en, yo no van a odiarle para ella. Se siente como mi tacto trae solamente detrás el dolor que esas memorias quieren algún día se descoloran funcionamiento ausente a mí."
If only it's such...
OH NO!!!!....my battery running out at the wrong time!!!
Anywayz... Day was still alright so far...
Test was ok....ability to at least 75% with speed study...hahaa...
3 more tests to go for the week and 2 reports!!!...argh! OMG.
V-day...at the strike of midnight....hmmm...
Kenneth....doing anything at all?....
I'm sorry, seems like you're very much farked with the big load of work to get done!....
Can't deal much with doing anything for anyone... unless maybe it's for something that could change the entire course of
my life....then maybe only...
"No , usted no tuvo que excepto mi No.
de la vida,
usted no es listo yo puede sentirse que él afuera que está lloviendo,
pero apenas iré su corazón lo dejaré a casa algún día ir.
Tan pronto como usted consiga que la sensación de usted pueda comenzar a vivir otra vez tan pronto como el peor encima usted puede tenerle todo el sentido Rigt de la marca ahora que no puedo darle qué usted necesita tan pronto como usted consiga la sensación... Funcione A Mí.
Hush, usted no tienen que decir una palabra. Confíe en, yo no van a odiarle para ella. Se siente como mi tacto trae solamente detrás el dolor que esas memorias quieren algún día se descoloran funcionamiento ausente a mí."
If only it's such...
Sometimes life strikes you by your ass
without you knowing why...
At times everytime catches you by the sudden blow of the wind...
And you're caught...
It takes courage and get to the next step of deciding what to do...
If it's all worth it...
then it's always worth taking the risk for it...
even when many things are put on the line...
3 more days to go to the end of the week...
It's about done....it's about done Kenneth...
without you knowing why...
At times everytime catches you by the sudden blow of the wind...
And you're caught...
It takes courage and get to the next step of deciding what to do...
If it's all worth it...
then it's always worth taking the risk for it...
even when many things are put on the line...
3 more days to go to the end of the week...
It's about done....it's about done Kenneth...
Monday, February 12, 2007
A day I'd throw all comms media out of my life
To remain the person that's just me...
untouched...
God where are you?...
My dear father...
How can I better deal with this?
How much then is too close...
How much then is just right
What is enough...
What is the max I'd go?...
I guess for now...
Gone with my speech...
to write I will...
Kenneth...your focus must come back...
Full and hard...
like how you pushed yourself out of the whirlpool...
like how you survived raging storms...
like how you'd fight off the fierce by being fiercer...
like how anything comes your way and fear is a pure element you'd just kick it off....
I guess I need time out in reaching out for others...
Mis intenciones no fueron llevadas el curso derecho. Así un lío propulsó. Dar comodidad y golpe de la idea incorrecta una vez más o apenas hacer una pausa el excedente del lado y del reloj sería buenos? El... lo que el padre desea, él me dirá.
To remain the person that's just me...
untouched...
God where are you?...
My dear father...
How can I better deal with this?
How much then is too close...
How much then is just right
What is enough...
What is the max I'd go?...
I guess for now...
Gone with my speech...
to write I will...
Kenneth...your focus must come back...
Full and hard...
like how you pushed yourself out of the whirlpool...
like how you survived raging storms...
like how you'd fight off the fierce by being fiercer...
like how anything comes your way and fear is a pure element you'd just kick it off....
I guess I need time out in reaching out for others...
Mis intenciones no fueron llevadas el curso derecho. Así un lío propulsó. Dar comodidad y golpe de la idea incorrecta una vez más o apenas hacer una pausa el excedente del lado y del reloj sería buenos? El... lo que el padre desea, él me dirá.
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