There is nothing lousier than cursing about something one moment and saying you don't care the next...
Whatever the odd perceptions maybe... It all doesn't matter anyway...
So much for the care of the well-being on you
So much for the helping you in the things you need help for...
So much for even loving... when the difficulty in dropping it off was only one sided...
So much for the giving when the appreciation wasn't much and yet was deemed too little...
So much that for all that I felt for...
Friendship hits a point of
talking to water and pouring it away...
memories like the wind blow of lang lang seeds
but like i said...beyond all these...
it was yet an experience...
An eye opener...
life is good...life is purely good...
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
Hmmm...no matter how a good weekend it was with great people in my life...
good buds around and time with my family....
There is yet some spiking feeling that someone is misunderstanding something about me...
well maybe....or so I start to feel by the tone of words that come through.
What I've said in my troubled times...were basically the feelings i felt, but nothing bad on your part...
I place no fault in you and yet in time I've even asked myself if I was truely inside out at fault for it all...
but I realised it's nobody's and it's very much on the differences of perception.
Even now I feel I haven't loved in vain and do feel it was still worthwhile through all the time spent.
When being asked, I can only express how much I've loved, but yet having the inability to handle time and commitments
that led to much difficulties between... thus leading to the end.
Trust me, if it was horrible and bad to the imagery people you think have in mind, I wouldn't be even standing by ever willing to be of any aid as a friend and bothered to care. I'd just say, however much I loved, we weren't matched to the point of jigsaw pieces, but rather a frame to a picture.
I guess in every connection, there is often a question of compatibility just like links to every system. Fault lies with neither just wrong fitting though in physical it may all be in sets.
I'm sorry if you had such impression, but be assured that there hasn't been anything interesting or untrue said even in my downest times, coz to people I've once loved will always remain as one before in me... the fact can't be changed...
If you think I'm a hypocrite no matter what I say... well that's your view... I've said what I wanted to say and have been true to my heart about it all. It's been always how you perceive things to be and I can't stop that.
good buds around and time with my family....
There is yet some spiking feeling that someone is misunderstanding something about me...
well maybe....or so I start to feel by the tone of words that come through.
What I've said in my troubled times...were basically the feelings i felt, but nothing bad on your part...
I place no fault in you and yet in time I've even asked myself if I was truely inside out at fault for it all...
but I realised it's nobody's and it's very much on the differences of perception.
Even now I feel I haven't loved in vain and do feel it was still worthwhile through all the time spent.
When being asked, I can only express how much I've loved, but yet having the inability to handle time and commitments
that led to much difficulties between... thus leading to the end.
Trust me, if it was horrible and bad to the imagery people you think have in mind, I wouldn't be even standing by ever willing to be of any aid as a friend and bothered to care. I'd just say, however much I loved, we weren't matched to the point of jigsaw pieces, but rather a frame to a picture.
I guess in every connection, there is often a question of compatibility just like links to every system. Fault lies with neither just wrong fitting though in physical it may all be in sets.
I'm sorry if you had such impression, but be assured that there hasn't been anything interesting or untrue said even in my downest times, coz to people I've once loved will always remain as one before in me... the fact can't be changed...
If you think I'm a hypocrite no matter what I say... well that's your view... I've said what I wanted to say and have been true to my heart about it all. It's been always how you perceive things to be and I can't stop that.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Spent the whole of last nite working on my artwork...
"This is the Chivas Dream"...it states....hahaha...some advert that I had to form up to make it personalized as my own.
funny project.
I've still yet to make my scary face....with eyes that sparkle like laser is just about to emit from it.... hahahaa...
Still thinking about how my Mexican double peppers hot wings is gona be...
It's yet another new creation to add in my 4 on the list of food recipe in these 2 months of december and january...hahaa...
well people.....9th of Feb, is gona be a many guinea pigs day! all are going to be my
testers!
Not nice don't blame me! hahahaa.... OOooops...
don't worry it will be good, just that make sure there is enough water to go around for everyone!...
The sleepy people be awaken, the active will be sent rushing to the pool for extra water! Yucks!...
Anyway, we'll see how it goes....
hmmm....what else should we be adding on the menu for the day?.....hmmmmm....
baby back ribs?.... pepper crab?...lol....
"This is the Chivas Dream"...it states....hahaha...some advert that I had to form up to make it personalized as my own.
funny project.
I've still yet to make my scary face....with eyes that sparkle like laser is just about to emit from it.... hahahaa...
Still thinking about how my Mexican double peppers hot wings is gona be...
It's yet another new creation to add in my 4 on the list of food recipe in these 2 months of december and january...hahaa...
well people.....9th of Feb, is gona be a many guinea pigs day! all are going to be my
testers!
Not nice don't blame me! hahahaa.... OOooops...
don't worry it will be good, just that make sure there is enough water to go around for everyone!...
The sleepy people be awaken, the active will be sent rushing to the pool for extra water! Yucks!...
Anyway, we'll see how it goes....
hmmm....what else should we be adding on the menu for the day?.....hmmmmm....
baby back ribs?.... pepper crab?...lol....
Friday, January 26, 2007
"You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand babe, united we fallGot the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know, I can't fight this way
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide
I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between in the eyes
There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide"
Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand babe, united we fallGot the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know, I can't fight this way
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide
I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between in the eyes
There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide"
Hmm....weird...
I'm starting to appreciate white chocolate now...
Though I still love the bitter dark chocos...
Gotten very into the mexican cuisine...
And as my tummy is slowly recovering...
I'm busting it with all the protein once again....and hitting hard on the metal...
not as usual...but on alternate days...
strengthening in the process...
but I'm really not too sure about the agility to come back to me...
on scaling walls and rocks as good...hahaha....will try somehow.
=)
Adobe class tomorrow!!!....
Rocks!
I guess that's the only class in the week I look forward to...every fridays...
hahaaa....
Well the end of the hard week is arriving...and everything will be relaxed and well for alittle while...
before the start of a horror next week. lol... so many deadlines! OMG!
I'm starting to appreciate white chocolate now...
Though I still love the bitter dark chocos...
Gotten very into the mexican cuisine...
And as my tummy is slowly recovering...
I'm busting it with all the protein once again....and hitting hard on the metal...
not as usual...but on alternate days...
strengthening in the process...
but I'm really not too sure about the agility to come back to me...
on scaling walls and rocks as good...hahaha....will try somehow.
=)
Adobe class tomorrow!!!....
Rocks!
I guess that's the only class in the week I look forward to...every fridays...
hahaaa....
Well the end of the hard week is arriving...and everything will be relaxed and well for alittle while...
before the start of a horror next week. lol... so many deadlines! OMG!
Monday, January 22, 2007
As the start of a new third week for me arrives...
I lay with beads in hand...
I pray for the 2 other sickly dudes back from their trip...
and the one binkz who is in need of supernatural aid to get through the madness week... (well if I see I'll call on for their help...how about that?...lol)
And for me?...
the already recovered, but weakened Ken. weakened to a point where I'd be shivering while opening a packaging for those mini mart mango pudding.
But all will be good....
like I always say...
" Toutefois le demain difficile est, demain immobile venu...
tellement advienne que pourra,
il traversera également dans une brise. "....
So bring it on!!!
I lay with beads in hand...
I pray for the 2 other sickly dudes back from their trip...
and the one binkz who is in need of supernatural aid to get through the madness week... (well if I see I'll call on for their help...how about that?...lol)
And for me?...
the already recovered, but weakened Ken. weakened to a point where I'd be shivering while opening a packaging for those mini mart mango pudding.
But all will be good....
like I always say...
" Toutefois le demain difficile est, demain immobile venu...
tellement advienne que pourra,
il traversera également dans une brise. "....
So bring it on!!!
Sunday, January 21, 2007
my this walk in life...
Dur il était a laissé aller, vous aiment tellement que je ,
mais oeil pour nous observer certains comment ne pourrait pas assortir...
avec vous être malheureux avec moi,
l'undure de la douleur I est pourtant en valeur comme longtemps en vous regardant loin souriez et soyez joyeux.
Même la pensée de la prise en bas des images de nous et de l'art d'humeur du soleil faisait mal. Vous juste n'avez jamais su. Elle n'est jamais étée car facile comme elle est à vous.
mais oeil pour nous observer certains comment ne pourrait pas assortir...
avec vous être malheureux avec moi,
l'undure de la douleur I est pourtant en valeur comme longtemps en vous regardant loin souriez et soyez joyeux.
Même la pensée de la prise en bas des images de nous et de l'art d'humeur du soleil faisait mal. Vous juste n'avez jamais su. Elle n'est jamais étée car facile comme elle est à vous.
wao wao wao....what a day...
an experience...
Social work with IMH patients...
now that....that whole deal truly is something that tests my patience with crowds and get me to think that
I'm yet a person of reasons....besides having that shotgun temper. Esp when it comes to crowded places...and the inability to take care of people whom I totally can't communicate with.
Have done, orphans, down syndrome, old age... now IMH patients....think the next feat would be the deaf...lol....
But for now...i have to take care of myself....deal with my broken down body....from the many weeks of no sleep... it's giving way and acting against me now....
high power loss and over heating...thus a combo sickness....
argh...
Anyway...whatever...the day was still good and worth it.
I've done a gd deed at the start of the year...and also...gotten 3 of the things i wanted...and of which one i have been looking out for....i.e climbing shoes, chalk bag....just today...the MIGHTY MOUSE!!! BLUETOOTH!....lol....
hahahaaa
the week rocks!...well besides this stupid physical illness....
but the mind still thrives to have things seen as darn freaking great week!
And also....Thanks to Binks for the belated treat. enjoyed it too...
but that...u saw another magic trick....lol....hahahaaaa
funny how ur face gave the 'huh' look....
tricks are cool for entertainment....maybe...alittle more to me than to others....lol
Cheers to the ending 2nd week of the academic semester.... it's about weeks more to go towards 2nd of May...and I'm getting out of this freak place!
an experience...
Social work with IMH patients...
now that....that whole deal truly is something that tests my patience with crowds and get me to think that
I'm yet a person of reasons....besides having that shotgun temper. Esp when it comes to crowded places...and the inability to take care of people whom I totally can't communicate with.
Have done, orphans, down syndrome, old age... now IMH patients....think the next feat would be the deaf...lol....
But for now...i have to take care of myself....deal with my broken down body....from the many weeks of no sleep... it's giving way and acting against me now....
high power loss and over heating...thus a combo sickness....
argh...
Anyway...whatever...the day was still good and worth it.
I've done a gd deed at the start of the year...and also...gotten 3 of the things i wanted...and of which one i have been looking out for....i.e climbing shoes, chalk bag....just today...the MIGHTY MOUSE!!! BLUETOOTH!....lol....
hahahaaa
the week rocks!...well besides this stupid physical illness....
but the mind still thrives to have things seen as darn freaking great week!
And also....Thanks to Binks for the belated treat. enjoyed it too...
but that...u saw another magic trick....lol....hahahaaaa
funny how ur face gave the 'huh' look....
tricks are cool for entertainment....maybe...alittle more to me than to others....lol
Cheers to the ending 2nd week of the academic semester.... it's about weeks more to go towards 2nd of May...and I'm getting out of this freak place!
Friday, January 19, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
A day of 3 Ex and 1 roomie...
my birthday...the eve of it...visitations by 3 ex-gfs and my ex-roomie...THE FELIX!
lol...
well at least people remembered...
but it's just another day I guess...
just getting older...
The best thing yet, I got myself my own birthday present....lol
A new pair of climbing shoes! a Chalk bag and chalk ball!....Woohoo!
Yamakasi I'm gona be soon....lol....ahahahaha...
God granted me with the wonderful elective that I always wanted... a great gift from him...
and a mind that has been strong enough to go through the things I have gone through...
Wonderful parents who've supported me through my 26yrs of existance...
with the rebel I am...and risk taker I am... and the oh so much problems and worries I've caused them in my sporting days...
At the end of the day...respected my decisions always and ever encouraging.
2 good brothers... one a social expert in the making and the other a self risen guitarist...both learning about life in their own special way that I've to help deal and guide them through...
and not forgetting my always baby sis... grown up to a decent banker...with a bf I will wanna make sure she is taken care of... else....nothing lah just see the tip of my knuckles by his eyeballs...lol...
26yrs have passed...
so much to think about,
so much have been done
so much has been gone through...
so much lost
so much gained...
yet...the real life of survival and building a place of my own is just about to start in a few months time...
10years ago...was the beginning of the great experience...
the times of travelling...the days of challenges and champions... the moments of fights and self determination... and the pains in life that one learns the hard ways... the aches of burnt emotions with the average of 1 each year that makes me totally sound that I'm really bad at handling those stuff... the rain of wealth and success and yet the letting go of such materials for the passion of sports even as I walk away from them with injuries...
And the first 16years were the years of plays and freedom... needless of worries...the wonders of carefree nature...
the life of a kid to a budding young man before hitting the next 10 into a man that I am today...
26years... just went by like that... with the blink of the eye...
For those I love will hold my love... the loved will be always cared for... and the cared for will remain...
whatever it is...all are still in my heart...but a big space is yet left for one... only one...
where those 10 have come and gone... they lay in comfort and left again... a decade of repetitions like this.
but the space is ever ready still to receive... still willing... though sometimes feelings of giving up were strong...
I still yearn the embrace of the special one.
Even now, the touch of those who've passed... brings tears to me... the feelings of sorrow in failure...
thought the past is left in history...there it will stay.
The future is the every second that I'm journeying through...looking forward to...
making 26years and beyond...
To those who've shared my life, being a part of it... be it ups and downs...
Thanks... it was an experience...
To those who've shared my passion in what I fought for...
I'm grateful... it was ecstatic...
To those, my dearest friends...
I wanna say, please stay around... there are more to come...and I thank you so much for bringing meaning to my life all these while...
My Dad, My mum... above all, you gave me the beginning to everything said above... all my love for you.
=)
funny things I'd say on my birthday.
my birthday...the eve of it...visitations by 3 ex-gfs and my ex-roomie...THE FELIX!
lol...
well at least people remembered...
but it's just another day I guess...
just getting older...
The best thing yet, I got myself my own birthday present....lol
A new pair of climbing shoes! a Chalk bag and chalk ball!....Woohoo!
Yamakasi I'm gona be soon....lol....ahahahaha...
God granted me with the wonderful elective that I always wanted... a great gift from him...
and a mind that has been strong enough to go through the things I have gone through...
Wonderful parents who've supported me through my 26yrs of existance...
with the rebel I am...and risk taker I am... and the oh so much problems and worries I've caused them in my sporting days...
At the end of the day...respected my decisions always and ever encouraging.
2 good brothers... one a social expert in the making and the other a self risen guitarist...both learning about life in their own special way that I've to help deal and guide them through...
and not forgetting my always baby sis... grown up to a decent banker...with a bf I will wanna make sure she is taken care of... else....nothing lah just see the tip of my knuckles by his eyeballs...lol...
26yrs have passed...
so much to think about,
so much have been done
so much has been gone through...
so much lost
so much gained...
yet...the real life of survival and building a place of my own is just about to start in a few months time...
10years ago...was the beginning of the great experience...
the times of travelling...the days of challenges and champions... the moments of fights and self determination... and the pains in life that one learns the hard ways... the aches of burnt emotions with the average of 1 each year that makes me totally sound that I'm really bad at handling those stuff... the rain of wealth and success and yet the letting go of such materials for the passion of sports even as I walk away from them with injuries...
And the first 16years were the years of plays and freedom... needless of worries...the wonders of carefree nature...
the life of a kid to a budding young man before hitting the next 10 into a man that I am today...
26years... just went by like that... with the blink of the eye...
For those I love will hold my love... the loved will be always cared for... and the cared for will remain...
whatever it is...all are still in my heart...but a big space is yet left for one... only one...
where those 10 have come and gone... they lay in comfort and left again... a decade of repetitions like this.
but the space is ever ready still to receive... still willing... though sometimes feelings of giving up were strong...
I still yearn the embrace of the special one.
Even now, the touch of those who've passed... brings tears to me... the feelings of sorrow in failure...
thought the past is left in history...there it will stay.
The future is the every second that I'm journeying through...looking forward to...
making 26years and beyond...
To those who've shared my life, being a part of it... be it ups and downs...
Thanks... it was an experience...
To those who've shared my passion in what I fought for...
I'm grateful... it was ecstatic...
To those, my dearest friends...
I wanna say, please stay around... there are more to come...and I thank you so much for bringing meaning to my life all these while...
My Dad, My mum... above all, you gave me the beginning to everything said above... all my love for you.
=)
funny things I'd say on my birthday.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
I guess today is the day
where a bright spark shines over me
for the split second...
Given me the boost...
it's time...
release the sand
and let it go...
unvalve the waters
and let it flow
rekindle the light
and the warmth that spreads
all over to the finger tips...
that others may feel...
and yet another time...
a suction comes...
and away I go...
sweeps me away...
where a bright spark shines over me
for the split second...
Given me the boost...
it's time...
release the sand
and let it go...
unvalve the waters
and let it flow
rekindle the light
and the warmth that spreads
all over to the finger tips...
that others may feel...
and yet another time...
a suction comes...
and away I go...
sweeps me away...
Wah can u imagine words spread super fast!
Entered a tutorial room today and everyone under the power elective were looking at me and asking me about my final year project....
they were all from different labs...and some were from the same lab but my set of equipments and station was way at the other end of the lab...with them in an enclosed glass room...
They all heard that I've finished the base of my project, gotten the design done and the circuit confirmed with it's required results....
all were astonished.... coz most of the time they never really hear from me and before they know it....I'm done with the main part of the shit work....lol...
Asked this guy called Alvin...he said..."oh the network and rumours fly super fast...in fact the day that the professor came down to look at your project, everyone were already talking about it...didn't you know?"
Son of a......sounds like i spoiled their market...
damn....feel bad.
but anyhow, I've got no time...unlike some of them...the luxury of spending time in the lab from morning til night...as if they need not eat...
I've got freakin' classes damn it!
now what's left is to wait for the other professor who used to be NTU's pHd student to answer my questions on his designs so that I can link mine to his and complete the entire loop....voila...the full blasting circuitary is ready for pantent....lol
cool eh...sounds ground breaking eh....
bullshit... actually it's just a load of crap.
I did my part with less than 20 bucks in hand though the wonderous thing was stepping down a high 220V input to produce a low 3V control pulse wave...
it was really nothing....just a few simple stuff....not complicated as what people all think...
the norm resistors and transistors did the job....poking things here and there....and it's done. Great work? actually it's shit lah... it's a innovation of putting few available things together and changing some variables.
And everyone is taking it like some big thing....alamak...what's with the world mama...?
all blinded by the wires and complicated looking circuit....and I mean LOOKING...coz it just looks complicated, actually it's not. even the second year polytechnic student can do such kinda shit...hahahaaa....uni students?....dun waste ur time studying in a university... what's most important is hands-on experience and you can see things further.
What's the use of all the theory when you can't apply crap to the real world?
The thing is, if you can't, you a waste of space.
Oh well...anyway enough of the school stuff...
I've headed myself into some retail therapy thingy....
all of a sudden, my wanting to get rock climbing stuff has risen again....
to replace my climbing shoes...probably look into that this wed...
and a new chalk bag...also see to that this wed if possible...
And I guess a gd nice jacket will complete this season's list of wants....lol....
probably a birthday gift to myself and suffer the rest of the days with lesser finances to deal with?....
whatever, but it will feel great just having those and carrying on with my climbing activities...cheap, gd and gives and great workout.
While the rest of the time....it's back to hitting the reports and my other stuff to urgently get done. as for tonite....
Give me a break! hahahaa...
Oh please I need to sleep....damn I miss sleeping... this sounds horrible, but true...
funny how the remedy to my last hit can't be helping anymore... and this time it comes stronger... imagine the endless alertness....and shit last nite i was supposed to snooze....almost....but a call just broke it and that was it...the chance...the doziing window was gone....sadz.... =/
Entered a tutorial room today and everyone under the power elective were looking at me and asking me about my final year project....
they were all from different labs...and some were from the same lab but my set of equipments and station was way at the other end of the lab...with them in an enclosed glass room...
They all heard that I've finished the base of my project, gotten the design done and the circuit confirmed with it's required results....
all were astonished.... coz most of the time they never really hear from me and before they know it....I'm done with the main part of the shit work....lol...
Asked this guy called Alvin...he said..."oh the network and rumours fly super fast...in fact the day that the professor came down to look at your project, everyone were already talking about it...didn't you know?"
Son of a......sounds like i spoiled their market...
damn....feel bad.
but anyhow, I've got no time...unlike some of them...the luxury of spending time in the lab from morning til night...as if they need not eat...
I've got freakin' classes damn it!
now what's left is to wait for the other professor who used to be NTU's pHd student to answer my questions on his designs so that I can link mine to his and complete the entire loop....voila...the full blasting circuitary is ready for pantent....lol
cool eh...sounds ground breaking eh....
bullshit... actually it's just a load of crap.
I did my part with less than 20 bucks in hand though the wonderous thing was stepping down a high 220V input to produce a low 3V control pulse wave...
it was really nothing....just a few simple stuff....not complicated as what people all think...
the norm resistors and transistors did the job....poking things here and there....and it's done. Great work? actually it's shit lah... it's a innovation of putting few available things together and changing some variables.
And everyone is taking it like some big thing....alamak...what's with the world mama...?
all blinded by the wires and complicated looking circuit....and I mean LOOKING...coz it just looks complicated, actually it's not. even the second year polytechnic student can do such kinda shit...hahahaaa....uni students?....dun waste ur time studying in a university... what's most important is hands-on experience and you can see things further.
What's the use of all the theory when you can't apply crap to the real world?
The thing is, if you can't, you a waste of space.
Oh well...anyway enough of the school stuff...
I've headed myself into some retail therapy thingy....
all of a sudden, my wanting to get rock climbing stuff has risen again....
to replace my climbing shoes...probably look into that this wed...
and a new chalk bag...also see to that this wed if possible...
And I guess a gd nice jacket will complete this season's list of wants....lol....
probably a birthday gift to myself and suffer the rest of the days with lesser finances to deal with?....
whatever, but it will feel great just having those and carrying on with my climbing activities...cheap, gd and gives and great workout.
While the rest of the time....it's back to hitting the reports and my other stuff to urgently get done. as for tonite....
Give me a break! hahahaa...
Oh please I need to sleep....damn I miss sleeping... this sounds horrible, but true...
funny how the remedy to my last hit can't be helping anymore... and this time it comes stronger... imagine the endless alertness....and shit last nite i was supposed to snooze....almost....but a call just broke it and that was it...the chance...the doziing window was gone....sadz.... =/
Monday, January 15, 2007
I truely wonder if there is such thing as fully letting go...
maybe it's just for myself
that I can't stop caring, being concerned for somebody
whom I've been caring for
for a long time...
enough to have the feeling buit deep inside of me.
Like it's a daily thing
that I wonder how are things going
How was breakfast, lunch, dinner
and everything at home for you...
Has the world been able to place the smile on your face these days...
or have you been kept in warmth and comfy in these cold chilling days...
such questions I ponder upon...
How is it then that I ever turn away...
that I can even one day look you in the eye and say you mean nothing to me...
well the thing is that I can't...
it's my inability...
argh...my handicap...
nature made me this way...
or probably fate brought me to such a point
to bring some teachings across to my head...
I don't know...
do you?
oh well...you probably don't care...
maybe it's just for myself
that I can't stop caring, being concerned for somebody
whom I've been caring for
for a long time...
enough to have the feeling buit deep inside of me.
Like it's a daily thing
that I wonder how are things going
How was breakfast, lunch, dinner
and everything at home for you...
Has the world been able to place the smile on your face these days...
or have you been kept in warmth and comfy in these cold chilling days...
such questions I ponder upon...
How is it then that I ever turn away...
that I can even one day look you in the eye and say you mean nothing to me...
well the thing is that I can't...
it's my inability...
argh...my handicap...
nature made me this way...
or probably fate brought me to such a point
to bring some teachings across to my head...
I don't know...
do you?
oh well...you probably don't care...
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Thursday, January 11, 2007
"Oooh mimi dancin' out on me
Oooh...she not wearin' any panties
I like it when she calls me dada
and she pop it like she from Jamaica..."
hahaaa...some song I came across while I was doing hip hop mixes...spinning some music in my room
with my trusty Altec THX 90Watt speakers!....WhoooHooooooo!
Guess wat!!!
My design work is a good to go!!!
I say again people!!! GOOOOOD to GO!!!
loves it!
riding on a highway now to project progress!
Wooooooohoooooooo!!!!!!
But I'm freaking freaking tired....
exhausted....
well hope that will knock off y insomnia...
Oooh...she not wearin' any panties
I like it when she calls me dada
and she pop it like she from Jamaica..."
hahaaa...some song I came across while I was doing hip hop mixes...spinning some music in my room
with my trusty Altec THX 90Watt speakers!....WhoooHooooooo!
Guess wat!!!
My design work is a good to go!!!
I say again people!!! GOOOOOD to GO!!!
loves it!
riding on a highway now to project progress!
Wooooooohoooooooo!!!!!!
But I'm freaking freaking tired....
exhausted....
well hope that will knock off y insomnia...
A free day today...
A slow moving day...
a continuation of the previous...reading up on lecture notes and books...
and awaiting time to dinner at Waraku... to meet up my ex-room mate...buddy....Felix
and the gang...
supposed to be a gathering...and to my surprise they put up an early birthday arrangment for me!
OMG...I was so shocked....totally lost for words...didn't know wat to say...
like even the thank you could be forced out of the mouth...
just stare blankly...
WoooHooo...
And a nice cool Nautica polo-T...
Thanks everyone!
Appreciate it...really!
Just made my day...
A slow moving day...
a continuation of the previous...reading up on lecture notes and books...
and awaiting time to dinner at Waraku... to meet up my ex-room mate...buddy....Felix
and the gang...
supposed to be a gathering...and to my surprise they put up an early birthday arrangment for me!
OMG...I was so shocked....totally lost for words...didn't know wat to say...
like even the thank you could be forced out of the mouth...
just stare blankly...
WoooHooo...
And a nice cool Nautica polo-T...
Thanks everyone!
Appreciate it...really!
Just made my day...
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
In realisation of how easy for some
to put away values that once were...
For me it was yet roses and kisses between,
the fragile sun and moon,
A special message a gift...
most of all a little chalice
with a word from the land of the rising sun.
So much for all that was said...
Ain't sure what I mean at all.
to put away values that once were...
For me it was yet roses and kisses between,
the fragile sun and moon,
A special message a gift...
most of all a little chalice
with a word from the land of the rising sun.
So much for all that was said...
Ain't sure what I mean at all.
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