Walk with me this trying road
Walk with me through hills with load
Walk with me the storms beyond
Walk with me through brightness and torn
Walk with me this life...
Journey with me as my sweet darling ****...
:p
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Sense & Sensitivity
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The motion of senses arises
issues of sensitivity hovers in notion
where and how would it be the crossing line of
being understanding and being a possessive jerk...
sometimes it can come to a point of wonder...
To bother or not to bother?
Probably the point of not bothering is what they call
"no go zone" where in windsurfing, once you've crossed
the line, you tend to be stranded and not being able to get back to motion.
I was once asked "Am I just being too nonchalant about how others feel?"
Well I was left unable to really answer that to the point.
Basically, it's very much based on a variety of perspectives.
Well most of the time it's very much about how 2 parties view the issues to be.
But in any case, understanding is the main header to solve the problems of both worlds.
And yet, to finally attain that position, at least some assistance from across to help see the reasons
would be most helpful to show some care in making ends meet and to have a tie down.
Well of course I do get questions on "why are you so insensitive?"
Sometimes it's a speech that I'd deliberately make to hit my point in something, and only the lease of times
if things happened to be not very much in proper place, my mind is messed up for the moments and having
a wave of glitches.
I just live by the saying that "To lay your heart and mind with one who can hurt you most, is trusting that one won't"
Keeping that in view...
I guess, I'm much happier.
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Day started in some gloom, I don't know what but yes there are dark clouds hovering the 3rd floor of my office building.
With this person get scolding and that person get shouted at...
And I walked in with a very stern and firm look, after some initial calling blast for my name, silence set in.
They were anticipating on what I was about to say...
But I just left a folio on the table and walked off, now that moment is simple being nonchalant about who thinks what...
I just glided off the owner table without more than 5 words "I've nothing to report" even though I actually do, but I was just
not interested somehow.
That is especially after knowing, in my return to office this morning, there were many things that I've done and have been overwritten. Decisions that I've set and plannings that I've scheduled for the day retimed and to only be informed as I'm thinking of setting off....
What kinda shit practice is this?
I'm seriously raging today...my mood really isn't good...really....
Some body cool me down...please...?
Think for the moment I need some soothing... :p
To take me away from this sense of feeling crappy for the day....
The motion of senses arises
issues of sensitivity hovers in notion
where and how would it be the crossing line of
being understanding and being a possessive jerk...
sometimes it can come to a point of wonder...
To bother or not to bother?
Probably the point of not bothering is what they call
"no go zone" where in windsurfing, once you've crossed
the line, you tend to be stranded and not being able to get back to motion.
I was once asked "Am I just being too nonchalant about how others feel?"
Well I was left unable to really answer that to the point.
Basically, it's very much based on a variety of perspectives.
Well most of the time it's very much about how 2 parties view the issues to be.
But in any case, understanding is the main header to solve the problems of both worlds.
And yet, to finally attain that position, at least some assistance from across to help see the reasons
would be most helpful to show some care in making ends meet and to have a tie down.
Well of course I do get questions on "why are you so insensitive?"
Sometimes it's a speech that I'd deliberately make to hit my point in something, and only the lease of times
if things happened to be not very much in proper place, my mind is messed up for the moments and having
a wave of glitches.
I just live by the saying that "To lay your heart and mind with one who can hurt you most, is trusting that one won't"
Keeping that in view...
I guess, I'm much happier.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Day started in some gloom, I don't know what but yes there are dark clouds hovering the 3rd floor of my office building.
With this person get scolding and that person get shouted at...
And I walked in with a very stern and firm look, after some initial calling blast for my name, silence set in.
They were anticipating on what I was about to say...
But I just left a folio on the table and walked off, now that moment is simple being nonchalant about who thinks what...
I just glided off the owner table without more than 5 words "I've nothing to report" even though I actually do, but I was just
not interested somehow.
That is especially after knowing, in my return to office this morning, there were many things that I've done and have been overwritten. Decisions that I've set and plannings that I've scheduled for the day retimed and to only be informed as I'm thinking of setting off....
What kinda shit practice is this?
I'm seriously raging today...my mood really isn't good...really....
Some body cool me down...please...?
Think for the moment I need some soothing... :p
To take me away from this sense of feeling crappy for the day....
Monday, June 23, 2008
As I spent the moments lying down...
having a horrid back pain....I was thinking..
If I may start of a viable business that doesn't require much capital...and yet makes off hand extra cash...
hmmm....sounds good right?
coz I think for now...
my words may not say...
but slowly my mood tells of slight depressed feelings here and there...
somehow... I need a good change.
For my future and for the future of the love of my life...
I need to change to reach for more...
I need more.
Seriously...
The little quietness...
my mind goes into thought....
the plan of 5 years down the road is beginning once again...
I've gotten this far, I want to go further...
so far...I think, I'll hit my mark...I still see it...and I will want it.
Hmmmm....
but for the while...I'll just flow down into a comforting confidence 'sofa' to just ease myself alittle...
and release the frustration and depression....
and then I'll spring back up....
I'm just tired.
having a horrid back pain....I was thinking..
If I may start of a viable business that doesn't require much capital...and yet makes off hand extra cash...
hmmm....sounds good right?
coz I think for now...
my words may not say...
but slowly my mood tells of slight depressed feelings here and there...
somehow... I need a good change.
For my future and for the future of the love of my life...
I need to change to reach for more...
I need more.
Seriously...
The little quietness...
my mind goes into thought....
the plan of 5 years down the road is beginning once again...
I've gotten this far, I want to go further...
so far...I think, I'll hit my mark...I still see it...and I will want it.
Hmmmm....
but for the while...I'll just flow down into a comforting confidence 'sofa' to just ease myself alittle...
and release the frustration and depression....
and then I'll spring back up....
I'm just tired.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Ok now...alittle update for the while...
Just came back from my so so nice holiday, but obviously not enough...
It was simply fabulous. Even left my soul there when I returned to Narita, Tokyo and then Singapore.
I think everyday Jacelyn and I was like eating and eating non-stop!
Ice-cream almost everyday, from the normal creamy hokkaido ice-cream to the one with
lavender fragrance and then to the 5 level ice-cream.... putting on the extra in case anyone puncture a tire already...
:p
Every stop over I was bringing in food and more food into the bus....totally loaded with food, snacks and puffs....cream puffs...
Basically every meal there was sashimi and raw goodies...but of course, the premium stuff....
I freaking paid through my nose....imagine an almost SGD$280 for some basket of hand picked live seafood!
The alaskan king crab, big scallops, sea urchin, orange prawns, abalone...all live and swimming and there the
monstrous me making a fresh meal out of them....erhmm.....raw deal!
And the next buster was the A grade Kobe Beef that melts in your mouth when you first bite it...SGD$100+ per 200gm
Shit that's all madness...but oh well, not like you get that in Singapore with the best and top grade whacky skill
of preparing those good stuff....
The weather in Hokkaido was apparently damn good for me...but damn cold for Jace already.
Lowest of 9 degrees and the highest of 22 degrees....it's like about the aircon of my own office room...
about 16 degrees...shiok! hahaa...but I was the only idiot walking around in berms and a polo-T most of the time
with a shivering darling by my side and just trying to keep her warm with my jacket.
Oh yes....and the hot spring....it was great too...but it just got my hotter...and I was simply perspiring in the cold
with just a single layer T-shirt having a stroll outside...
better still, standing by the lake and awaiting for the 15mins of firing fire works in the dark evening...
Romantic huh...hahaha...
Ahhh...the shopping...not really my great thing, but seeing my darlin' just swifting around looking for her birthday present...
and totally enjoying it was a sight! Trying on all the bags she grabs hold...the clothes that were in the burberry store,
simply....awwww....well...good. Nice feeling to have her find something she really likes and just pay for it, instead of guessing
it through and ending up with something hmmm.... not so wanted at the end of the day.
And now...just trying to put together and sort out the 700+ photos we took on the trip....
wah totally headache this one is....hahahaa...but yet still, it's fun.
hahaha :p
Now...where to next?....hmmmmm......
Just came back from my so so nice holiday, but obviously not enough...
It was simply fabulous. Even left my soul there when I returned to Narita, Tokyo and then Singapore.
I think everyday Jacelyn and I was like eating and eating non-stop!
Ice-cream almost everyday, from the normal creamy hokkaido ice-cream to the one with
lavender fragrance and then to the 5 level ice-cream.... putting on the extra in case anyone puncture a tire already...
:p
Every stop over I was bringing in food and more food into the bus....totally loaded with food, snacks and puffs....cream puffs...
Basically every meal there was sashimi and raw goodies...but of course, the premium stuff....
I freaking paid through my nose....imagine an almost SGD$280 for some basket of hand picked live seafood!
The alaskan king crab, big scallops, sea urchin, orange prawns, abalone...all live and swimming and there the
monstrous me making a fresh meal out of them....erhmm.....raw deal!
And the next buster was the A grade Kobe Beef that melts in your mouth when you first bite it...SGD$100+ per 200gm
Shit that's all madness...but oh well, not like you get that in Singapore with the best and top grade whacky skill
of preparing those good stuff....
The weather in Hokkaido was apparently damn good for me...but damn cold for Jace already.
Lowest of 9 degrees and the highest of 22 degrees....it's like about the aircon of my own office room...
about 16 degrees...shiok! hahaa...but I was the only idiot walking around in berms and a polo-T most of the time
with a shivering darling by my side and just trying to keep her warm with my jacket.
Oh yes....and the hot spring....it was great too...but it just got my hotter...and I was simply perspiring in the cold
with just a single layer T-shirt having a stroll outside...
better still, standing by the lake and awaiting for the 15mins of firing fire works in the dark evening...
Romantic huh...hahaha...
Ahhh...the shopping...not really my great thing, but seeing my darlin' just swifting around looking for her birthday present...
and totally enjoying it was a sight! Trying on all the bags she grabs hold...the clothes that were in the burberry store,
simply....awwww....well...good. Nice feeling to have her find something she really likes and just pay for it, instead of guessing
it through and ending up with something hmmm.... not so wanted at the end of the day.
And now...just trying to put together and sort out the 700+ photos we took on the trip....
wah totally headache this one is....hahahaa...but yet still, it's fun.
hahaha :p
Now...where to next?....hmmmmm......
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Sunday, June 08, 2008
For the moment... I think I'm just sitting by feeling depressed...
What about?...probably many things in mind.
My character...--> to find something, to define something and to know something...
I think sometimes it's really hard to be just perfect...
Especially when you feel that you're taken for granted.
Then the question comes..."Why is it like that?"
"So how does the great one up there play a part in this?"
Well, Really, I don't know...
like a game...
Life it is...
You give your best,
You try your best...
But the end seems like a dim tunnel...
Even when there is so much heart...
So much soul placed into everything...
you find that there isn't much that comes from it...
Try not to bother too much?
Try not to care too much?
Just be the irresponsible jerk and be selfish?
Just be nonchalant on time priority?
Well...I could, but yet I can't...
The irony of life it is...
Like a stage play I'd want a break from for the moment, but yet somehow I find that I can't...
Maybe it's true...
I'm meant to be lonewolf...
on the roam in this world...
Maybe...as it was said to me before...
Sigh...
What about?...probably many things in mind.
My character...--> to find something, to define something and to know something...
I think sometimes it's really hard to be just perfect...
Especially when you feel that you're taken for granted.
Then the question comes..."Why is it like that?"
"So how does the great one up there play a part in this?"
Well, Really, I don't know...
like a game...
Life it is...
You give your best,
You try your best...
But the end seems like a dim tunnel...
Even when there is so much heart...
So much soul placed into everything...
you find that there isn't much that comes from it...
Try not to bother too much?
Try not to care too much?
Just be the irresponsible jerk and be selfish?
Just be nonchalant on time priority?
Well...I could, but yet I can't...
The irony of life it is...
Like a stage play I'd want a break from for the moment, but yet somehow I find that I can't...
Maybe it's true...
I'm meant to be lonewolf...
on the roam in this world...
Maybe...as it was said to me before...
Sigh...
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Sometimes... in the midst of the rushes
the turmoil of piling issues dragging you for attention...
priority of things in your life comes into play...
And here...I see...
at a different point in life...
various things takes on a different level positioning in you
and in place, they affect you emotionally
Well...maybe, that's what that is happening to me....
somehow...
certain things...I'm starting to really consider the options...
and for others, I might just feel the pinch about being buried
by the mindful things that come with it...
But anyway.....I think sometimes too...I need someone to tell me
what to do and where to go...
be blinded for awhile....just a little while...
the turmoil of piling issues dragging you for attention...
priority of things in your life comes into play...
And here...I see...
at a different point in life...
various things takes on a different level positioning in you
and in place, they affect you emotionally
Well...maybe, that's what that is happening to me....
somehow...
certain things...I'm starting to really consider the options...
and for others, I might just feel the pinch about being buried
by the mindful things that come with it...
But anyway.....I think sometimes too...I need someone to tell me
what to do and where to go...
be blinded for awhile....just a little while...
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
These days are like..
uncertainty of what's to come in the business world...
instability in every way...
I'm thinkin' hard...
should I shoot out my application of a new set of business?
Well...seems like it was a success in a restaurant's acceptance...
Think I will start moving on to spread it by steps.
Hitting at the shop owners now...
let people understand tech capabilities....
then comes the penetration...
and then the volumetric sales...
uncertainty of what's to come in the business world...
instability in every way...
I'm thinkin' hard...
should I shoot out my application of a new set of business?
Well...seems like it was a success in a restaurant's acceptance...
Think I will start moving on to spread it by steps.
Hitting at the shop owners now...
let people understand tech capabilities....
then comes the penetration...
and then the volumetric sales...
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Need time off....
Need time off...
Maybe my brain is simply thinking 24hrs straight that it churns around all matters.
Information everywhere clumps in a huge mixture of ideas, cautious thoughts, fears, trauma, creativity....etc...
all in a big pot of brain juice.
How to save myself? Or maybe I can't... :p
At times, to deal with fear is to prepare for the eventual, but yet psychologically, in preparation for it
possibly could bring one to start shutting off emotions and reach....
Nope...not good...not good at all...
Don't even want to go there, unless I'm forced by circumstances...
been there once...felt very heartless, emotionless...robotic and stone hearted....nope nope...
"Kenneth...just work on it at a different angle maybe...
And maybe, you'll find some answers...
Maybe you'll see what the deeply hidden feels, and so you understand the naked truth...
What isn't said, isn't non-existent...yet what's said is definitely existent...
A feel of heart thoughts, tone and body expression says a million"
-Says some voice during snoring hours...
Need time off...
Maybe my brain is simply thinking 24hrs straight that it churns around all matters.
Information everywhere clumps in a huge mixture of ideas, cautious thoughts, fears, trauma, creativity....etc...
all in a big pot of brain juice.
How to save myself? Or maybe I can't... :p
At times, to deal with fear is to prepare for the eventual, but yet psychologically, in preparation for it
possibly could bring one to start shutting off emotions and reach....
Nope...not good...not good at all...
Don't even want to go there, unless I'm forced by circumstances...
been there once...felt very heartless, emotionless...robotic and stone hearted....nope nope...
"Kenneth...just work on it at a different angle maybe...
And maybe, you'll find some answers...
Maybe you'll see what the deeply hidden feels, and so you understand the naked truth...
What isn't said, isn't non-existent...yet what's said is definitely existent...
A feel of heart thoughts, tone and body expression says a million"
-Says some voice during snoring hours...
A disappointment of the day...
and ringing of the past my fears I say...
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As positive I maybe, but yet somehow, in times where situations drew blood in
the heart, it's yet difficult to just hold on unshaken.
No matter how much one can give at different stages in life,
somehow, without a word...disaster struck.
Time and again...
time and again...
yet I hope it's not once again...
Seeing what happened to a friend, who held on to his love for a girl...
4 big years and hard support...
long term planning and much thoughts...
sacrifices being made...
yet all of a sudden, the lightning struck him with one of the most common reasons...
"I'm sorry, I don't think we go well together..."
Sometimes it is true that when girls say guys are bastards...
but yet how is it that I'm seeing very much of the other way round the situation?
And even as I love her so much...
yet I would always fear losing her..
I fight to keep.
just really hoping that big considerations have taken place
before making that decision of acception...
And as I'd wanna stay in content...
the content of the other unknown to me, might not be so...
Yet what can I do?...
Everyday I pray...
Everyday I hope...
history won't hit again...
One after another, have I not reflected enough to give what I've missed?
Have I not improved tolerance and attitude in handling matters?
I know one cannot give a fairytale many dream of
but I do know, what one can give is a fighter inside...
to keep things prolonging to the death of me...
the life force inside and the assurance of trust and strength...
but time and again when the rain comes to put out the fire...
it does need just alittle boost sometimes to fan strong the flame to keep it going...
Afterall... it shouldn't be just one sided right?...
I'm no fire generator...I still need the fuel somehow...
So what has my girls gotta say?
Some say they were sorry though it was the past...
Some say that they were naive then and didn't now what they wanted..
Some say that simply wanted to be spoiled and I couldn't keep doing that...
Some even said... "Why do you even have to long 10 steps ahead?"
Now that is the oddest thing I believe to have heard...
the irony of wanting to see the longest roads, and being asked not to...
yet when not seeing the longest roads, am being ask why aren't I doing so...
Some light here please...
Was told not to think too much...
but if she didn't matter to me...yes that would be possible...
but too bad for me I guess...she means alot to me...
I just had some rockin' day!
Argh!!!!!
and ringing of the past my fears I say...
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As positive I maybe, but yet somehow, in times where situations drew blood in
the heart, it's yet difficult to just hold on unshaken.
No matter how much one can give at different stages in life,
somehow, without a word...disaster struck.
Time and again...
time and again...
yet I hope it's not once again...
Seeing what happened to a friend, who held on to his love for a girl...
4 big years and hard support...
long term planning and much thoughts...
sacrifices being made...
yet all of a sudden, the lightning struck him with one of the most common reasons...
"I'm sorry, I don't think we go well together..."
Sometimes it is true that when girls say guys are bastards...
but yet how is it that I'm seeing very much of the other way round the situation?
And even as I love her so much...
yet I would always fear losing her..
I fight to keep.
just really hoping that big considerations have taken place
before making that decision of acception...
And as I'd wanna stay in content...
the content of the other unknown to me, might not be so...
Yet what can I do?...
Everyday I pray...
Everyday I hope...
history won't hit again...
One after another, have I not reflected enough to give what I've missed?
Have I not improved tolerance and attitude in handling matters?
I know one cannot give a fairytale many dream of
but I do know, what one can give is a fighter inside...
to keep things prolonging to the death of me...
the life force inside and the assurance of trust and strength...
but time and again when the rain comes to put out the fire...
it does need just alittle boost sometimes to fan strong the flame to keep it going...
Afterall... it shouldn't be just one sided right?...
I'm no fire generator...I still need the fuel somehow...
So what has my girls gotta say?
Some say they were sorry though it was the past...
Some say that they were naive then and didn't now what they wanted..
Some say that simply wanted to be spoiled and I couldn't keep doing that...
Some even said... "Why do you even have to long 10 steps ahead?"
Now that is the oddest thing I believe to have heard...
the irony of wanting to see the longest roads, and being asked not to...
yet when not seeing the longest roads, am being ask why aren't I doing so...
Some light here please...
Was told not to think too much...
but if she didn't matter to me...yes that would be possible...
but too bad for me I guess...she means alot to me...
I just had some rockin' day!
Argh!!!!!
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Nice comforting days passing
but yet recessional stress is slowly en-caving...
bit by bit...
And yet I found ways to gradually overcome.
Somehow...I thought I'd be able to raise 24k in a month to somehow be able to just...
slap in some risk and hope to make double in profits...
crap...don't have that amount to play for now...
but anyway...
play abit more safe at the moment...
will find something to set my cash in and not having to bother...yet getting at least some returns.
Erhhmmm...but haven't found something right.
Still awaiting some funds to be released too...
Oh well...
I'm just waiting for this weekends to come and
monday the 12th too...
where I may find out something I've been awaiting to find out...
the little time will tell...
hope to see sunshine...
but yet recessional stress is slowly en-caving...
bit by bit...
And yet I found ways to gradually overcome.
Somehow...I thought I'd be able to raise 24k in a month to somehow be able to just...
slap in some risk and hope to make double in profits...
crap...don't have that amount to play for now...
but anyway...
play abit more safe at the moment...
will find something to set my cash in and not having to bother...yet getting at least some returns.
Erhhmmm...but haven't found something right.
Still awaiting some funds to be released too...
Oh well...
I'm just waiting for this weekends to come and
monday the 12th too...
where I may find out something I've been awaiting to find out...
the little time will tell...
hope to see sunshine...
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Sometimes there is a wonder...
if practicality is a good thing...
it causes conflicts between issues regarding sensitivity emotions and 'what's the straight thing to do' kinda mentality...
I might be blabbering crap alittle...but you know what I mean...
practicality saves the daily works...but yet could harm the sub-load of mental conflicts...
where sometimes you feel the adverse but yet gotta think against it because only it is the better thing to do...
or sometimes because it's the more practical thing to think of and react.
There will be one day I'll just one to let go and be one hellova bull...reasonable to only myself...
let lose in the wild and let the heat go...
conduct away the energy inside so as to lay at the end of that one very day... just simmered down and blank...
where reality will come back into line...
Just to cleanse the soul alittle... to let go of macho man shit and tear it out and over....
if practicality is a good thing...
it causes conflicts between issues regarding sensitivity emotions and 'what's the straight thing to do' kinda mentality...
I might be blabbering crap alittle...but you know what I mean...
practicality saves the daily works...but yet could harm the sub-load of mental conflicts...
where sometimes you feel the adverse but yet gotta think against it because only it is the better thing to do...
or sometimes because it's the more practical thing to think of and react.
There will be one day I'll just one to let go and be one hellova bull...reasonable to only myself...
let lose in the wild and let the heat go...
conduct away the energy inside so as to lay at the end of that one very day... just simmered down and blank...
where reality will come back into line...
Just to cleanse the soul alittle... to let go of macho man shit and tear it out and over....
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
How is it ever possible to have 2 offers in the same week?
One in the medical field and the other in oil and gas...
but what's the common factor?...
business...strategizing...market positioning...emerging markets...
All trying to dig that vigor in tapping the 3rd worlds...
the raw and dangerous lands...and untouched places...
formulation of niche possibilities...
And so I've been hearing...
"countries where politics matters at least as much as economics to the markets."
Now the weird thing is....
How the hell did they come to know of me even existing?
The Kenneth ain't that good stuff!...
So for the moment...I should stop having the digging through my head...
there isn't anything in there... dredging inside is a waste of time and effort...
well, for now...
My head is exhausted...I keep coming up with new things...now opportunities...
like a part is addicted to it, while the other is so so tired out...
Sweetie...we gotta just let lose real soon....in a month and a half time...
just let lose...
One in the medical field and the other in oil and gas...
but what's the common factor?...
business...strategizing...market positioning...emerging markets...
All trying to dig that vigor in tapping the 3rd worlds...
the raw and dangerous lands...and untouched places...
formulation of niche possibilities...
And so I've been hearing...
"countries where politics matters at least as much as economics to the markets."
Now the weird thing is....
How the hell did they come to know of me even existing?
The Kenneth ain't that good stuff!...
So for the moment...I should stop having the digging through my head...
there isn't anything in there... dredging inside is a waste of time and effort...
well, for now...
My head is exhausted...I keep coming up with new things...now opportunities...
like a part is addicted to it, while the other is so so tired out...
Sweetie...we gotta just let lose real soon....in a month and a half time...
just let lose...
Saturday, April 26, 2008
How is it that I reckon bitterness
For the mere assumption of elements
running against a hopeful forwarder...?
Like time, space, and heart...
Like resentment of opportunity lack
Like support a must to give tangible results
Like preaching a dive into the sea, needing
all the floatation around, but yet call it risk...
A total irony of being...I don't understand...
I guess, it's more telling me
that a state of a person holds ties only for beneficial foundations,
yet not the true meaning of ties worth holding...
Disappointing...
But why do I want to bother so much?
coz....I cared to bother...
yet it's pointless....
so is it left or is it right?
Answer= whatever...
For the mere assumption of elements
running against a hopeful forwarder...?
Like time, space, and heart...
Like resentment of opportunity lack
Like support a must to give tangible results
Like preaching a dive into the sea, needing
all the floatation around, but yet call it risk...
A total irony of being...I don't understand...
I guess, it's more telling me
that a state of a person holds ties only for beneficial foundations,
yet not the true meaning of ties worth holding...
Disappointing...
But why do I want to bother so much?
coz....I cared to bother...
yet it's pointless....
so is it left or is it right?
Answer= whatever...
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Nine fifty nine
a time off my nine to five...
And here I am working on case
many findings many numbers in my face
I look around, I just hear me...
I just see me and I guess it's just you and me...
body and shadow
two of one same thing...
my eyes are on for a close...
breathing gets harder
like I'm inhaling from a long winding hose...
Many things in hand
succeed it all depends...
time on stress
trying to speed work to my finest...
but here I am yet clueless on what's deeper I'm finding...
or maybe I'm just trying to shield off in knowing
that I don't know...
A thousand and one ways to show
A million forms to prove..
what's sincere
what's faithful
but tomorrow brings a surety
speedy fires, requiring me mindful...
And for a moment I feel numbness
on what's to come and my other dumbness...
But should things come...
let it come...
And in the dailies
the cycle goes on..
'til my hopeful day comes
my hand in handful
and the fuzzies my everyday living tool...
a time off my nine to five...
And here I am working on case
many findings many numbers in my face
I look around, I just hear me...
I just see me and I guess it's just you and me...
body and shadow
two of one same thing...
my eyes are on for a close...
breathing gets harder
like I'm inhaling from a long winding hose...
Many things in hand
succeed it all depends...
time on stress
trying to speed work to my finest...
but here I am yet clueless on what's deeper I'm finding...
or maybe I'm just trying to shield off in knowing
that I don't know...
A thousand and one ways to show
A million forms to prove..
what's sincere
what's faithful
but tomorrow brings a surety
speedy fires, requiring me mindful...
And for a moment I feel numbness
on what's to come and my other dumbness...
But should things come...
let it come...
And in the dailies
the cycle goes on..
'til my hopeful day comes
my hand in handful
and the fuzzies my everyday living tool...
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Within a circular confinement,
It's hard to look beyond the walls to seek refinement.
'coz inside the circle lies one's own world and where benefits seek
to come from those who hop in.
Isn't it how Mafia prosper in the days of the Godfather?
how one could seek only to be the light at the end of the tunnel
unknowing of the tunnel beyond lies more depth unknown.
Instead seek somewhere out of the zone of comfort to seek beyond self-righteousness...
cheers if it's attained.
It's hard to look beyond the walls to seek refinement.
'coz inside the circle lies one's own world and where benefits seek
to come from those who hop in.
Isn't it how Mafia prosper in the days of the Godfather?
how one could seek only to be the light at the end of the tunnel
unknowing of the tunnel beyond lies more depth unknown.
Instead seek somewhere out of the zone of comfort to seek beyond self-righteousness...
cheers if it's attained.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
At the corner of Scotts road
stands a very colonial hotel...
Been old since the day I saw light...
hahaaa....Goodwood Park...oh yeh..
Decided to take a dive into my month splurge on the tummy...
Oh this time was seemingly even higher than what Equinox gave in damages....
but it was sure satisfying....
Gordon Grill...
From my turning 4years old, this place has already been listed in Singapore's Best restaurants.
Very pleasant setting... just that dimmer lights make my sweet turn towards the alittle 'torpid' mode...
The cannot think mode that is...
While I simply after a rushy tough week just wanna excuse my brains for this while...
Just sit back and relax to the nice soft music and
gazing at her while we indulge in slow chats.
I found the trolley meat service concept rather unique...
especially when you think you wanna have a big bite for the day.... you too can choose.
Instead of being restricted to what's stated on the menu.
Service there was great too actually...really can excuse brains...except the hands and mouth...
compared to some countries where they call the "No hands" restaurant that my elder colleagues have been mentioning
to me. but nah...not interested and won't go to such 'lazy' places to eat and where standards of food are yet questionable.
Good....good evening went by...and now, the Weekends of workout and read ups on Operations management
will start, before I start going into hardcore web building once I get warmed up on the softwares again....
:p
Well...
have this good feeling at the end of the day... :) hehee...
only I know why.....
stands a very colonial hotel...
Been old since the day I saw light...
hahaaa....Goodwood Park...oh yeh..
Decided to take a dive into my month splurge on the tummy...
Oh this time was seemingly even higher than what Equinox gave in damages....
but it was sure satisfying....
Gordon Grill...
From my turning 4years old, this place has already been listed in Singapore's Best restaurants.
Very pleasant setting... just that dimmer lights make my sweet turn towards the alittle 'torpid' mode...
The cannot think mode that is...
While I simply after a rushy tough week just wanna excuse my brains for this while...
Just sit back and relax to the nice soft music and
gazing at her while we indulge in slow chats.
I found the trolley meat service concept rather unique...
especially when you think you wanna have a big bite for the day.... you too can choose.
Instead of being restricted to what's stated on the menu.
Service there was great too actually...really can excuse brains...except the hands and mouth...
compared to some countries where they call the "No hands" restaurant that my elder colleagues have been mentioning
to me. but nah...not interested and won't go to such 'lazy' places to eat and where standards of food are yet questionable.
Good....good evening went by...and now, the Weekends of workout and read ups on Operations management
will start, before I start going into hardcore web building once I get warmed up on the softwares again....
:p
Well...
have this good feeling at the end of the day... :) hehee...
only I know why.....
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