Make me a channel...

It's been sometime since my last post...
busy with the start of school... So fast and a week has passed...
Time awaits nobody.

Somehow...the start of this new semester,
I feel many mixed feelings...
In a great wonder of the things going around me,
coming and going...
My fragile mind... bursting in me through and through sometimes.
Night runs or just in general runs are just so comforting
where I just look forward and every moment is about just myself.
I burn...like a heart without a home and a rebel with a cause...


A part of me has somehow changed through those difficult and trying times that hath just passed.

I'm look around for a life partner...building with me a family I call my own.
While I slog daily in the rat race for returns on the table...
I don't mind the slogging... just bring in the joy of offsprings...
Grannies of my dad's and mum's side have been mumbling in my ears about this issue... yes it's true, age is catching up for me and especially for them...
one of the eldest few in the family and pinned with the pressure of hope for them.


I realised and fully believed in a hymn that rings in my head or so very often...
really brings meaning to many things.... simple words with simple yet great teachings....

"Make me a channel of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me bring you love.
Where there is injury, your pardon, Lord,
And where there's doubt, true faith in you.
.....
To be understood as to understand,
To be loved as to love with all my soul.
....
It's in pardoning that we are pardoned;
In giving of ourselves that we receive,
and in dying that we're born to eternal life..."

Just a simple extract of a hymn...
brings me much peace, to know ultimately what comes around goes around...

Why fret so much when at the end of the day, things will naturally fall into place.

Smile to another day!