For the past few nights...I haven't gotten any sleep...
Helpin' Good Buddy Ben in this marriage prep...well the photo and
graphic stuff especially.

Poor thing,....sudden panic...
Fortunately I was in Singapore...if not I'd feel bad forever.
The feelin' was good helping, though my lost of the insomnia
syndrome...so I can't ever take too many nights without sleep...
yet having to work the very next day..

Totally tiring.

Ben and Michelle...
Which them all the best! and I do hope the Photo Vid is
good enough for them....tried rushin' it out in 2 nights...
Ain't my big standard but it has to be it....
Time nowadays is kinda tight... don't have time for many things.

I'm ain't a robot no more....
Don't know if that's good or bad....coz I suffer the sleepy spells often in the day...
but have to pull through with the amount of work and things to take
responsibility for.

I've got to push on!

So rush So rush today!!!

9 quotations to set 12 enquiries to see to and 3 projects to propose....
all in the freaking morning!!! OMG....
the hulk is bursting inside....I'll become the green monster soon....lol

hahaa

Whoa! Relief!
Managed to divert off all possible big overseas arrowing for this weekend!!!
No choice...This weekend is important to me.

Can miss other weekends but not this weekend.
Not now... not ever this weekend!

And so at least I've got a slight break on the moving about from office...phew!

Argh....this is madness!!!
just had the wind that I've to make a trip to Brunei and then to Pahang this week and possibility of it
stretching to the weekends is high.

Give up all things, I'm not missing this weekend!

Having made plans for a performance that rightfully burnt a hole in my pocket...
and a gd friend's wedding I promise to turn up for....
I can miss any other weekends, but not this one.
Give me a break!

too many last minute stuff that results me in having lost time!

I maybe an on the ball worker, but I ain't superhuman!
I ain't for emotionless working process!

ARgh!....madness!

nvm....play games....act blur....
hohoho....

~Left me with goodbye and open arms
A feeling that so deep I can't hold
You're just invincible in my eyes
And the only thing against us would be time
Could it be any harder to watch you go...
walking off back home
If only I had one more hour
better one more day...
Here I lay and blind myself in laughter
A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing
I just want to turn back the time
But I know I just don't have the power...
Your scent so sweet
stickin' to me always
I wish you needn't have to go
To just spend alittle more time...
to be near you again...
Oh could it be any harder....~

And I question everything and wonder about every....anything...
questions questions questions....I never stop questioning...
Everyday I've been asking at least 5 'why's...
learning curve maybe...
or is it that my questions weren't answered to begin with...?

Or I'm just turning stupid by the days...

well of coz...sometimes...it's just to irritate the hell out of people....hahahaa...

I know this blog input is utterly random...

Anyway...I'd just wanna say that, in life... there are times you've got to live for yourself.
coz you'll never know when nobody is right behind you...
however you want to take that...
1) you may be the last in line
2) they aren't there to catch you when you fall
3) they probably don't understand what's coming around...

Whatever the case is... one has got alot of ass covering to do...
sometimes it's not just my ass I've to cover...

A 500hp raging monster...
5.2L 32 valve super charged rubber burner
that looks great even just on the sides...
With breathing sound....fierce enough to be any head turner...
at 6 speed manual transmission...you could simple smoke anyone beside and behind...
Best to scare any bird brains at any street races...
Cool eh...
very close to my all time feared....fire bird....
the very one I am lacking the guts to take it on again...
the fully mechanical movement care that roars with power and super charged torque...

"And one day I'll wake up to a thought...
That I'd want nothing more...
My life...so many years just gone by in a blink...
and I'd just want a few moments more
to hold every memory close to my heart..."

To live life in content...

What makes a great man in marketing...

Today...the moments brought me to a new understanding...
That a great man is one who is so skilled that nothing stops him from
moving forward. No stumbles are obstacles enough to cripple him...
but when it comes to bringing across ideas to another...erhmm...
now that could be a problem...

Then it comes to the next stage where...
A great marketing man is one who can sell ice-cubes in the north pole...

Like jumping into an obvious red ocean, yet imerging victor over all competitions...

Inspired....by just my small moments of thought...

Took off work in the late morning...taking a break for yet another match...
yes yes ...I might be limping...just alittle bit but, when the muscles were warmed up,
speed run was up and going again.

Far end was pure brawl, fighting for an egg on the field...the name is GILBERT.
big splashes of mud on face with some covering the eyes...
couldn't see clearly but yet pushing in a scrum like a bull dragging a whole lot
of crap through the fields...

Down below were studded adidas everywhere awaiting to crush any knuckles in their way.
And soon, when GILBERT was out, it was speed, strategy and reflexes...
Racing to the double pole destination... I scored a try.
Ending a wonderful 37-11 victory...

But living poor Gilbert exhausted in the middle of the field...wasted...

hahaha....

Hounding on a 4 cylinder, 5 gear coupe...
rev it up to a 100km/h at a mere 5sec
and roaring the 1795cc 7000rpm on a feather weight machine...
Oh yeh...tell me about it... I've yet again test driven the small toy-like car,
Lotus Elise...
cool black and classy...
But drinks petrol like water....goodness...

The feeling was ridiculously good. hahahaa...

well...of course...whatever I've said....it could've only been done at nite....lol...

Yet another day at work...
feels like the weekends weren't any in the first place.
Too much going on...
So much to keep up that I hardly have time to just stone and rest the mind.
Need a breather...need it sometime...soon.

trying to set a target also to open offices in Korea and Taiwan.
Goodness! 2 places that I have language problems with!
a big headache...but somehow I'll cope with that...
Can cope with indian or arabs...I should be able to cope with anything...
c'mon...what can be that difficult?...get a translater at most!....lol

4 matches with one I gave up against my friend.
kept pulling back....couldn't help it.

3 knock outs and 1 walk out...
aching ribs and a painful ankle...

But the face shows none...
yet the heart is beatened to a crumb....
for the moments....

The moment is now...the feel...the burst...
I'm taking it back...
getting it all back...
I need the rush...
the feeling all flush...
Bringing on blows...
throws and all the action...
the feeling of adrenalin satisfaction...
All my combinations and chained reaction..
All the power and vent of frustration...
In my at own rhythm...
My own pace...
movements of my own creation...
reflections of the restarted street fight...
Somebody stop me!

"Money can buy happiness...uuntil you look over the fence and see how much more your friends have..."

Won more than a thousand playing shit...Gatheriing engorged stack of chips
and backed away from the arena still trembling from the adrenaline binge, I floated across life's
risk taking shade...
And looked on my fellow life game junkie...
Time to pool our take and blow it on extravagantly overpriced red meat...
But then "I am down" said he...
And it was real bad...like the america flowed into an anarchy...
he lost whole lot to the foreign exchange.

There are sure ways to ruin an overnight risk bender with a friend.
leaving tables with different results. When both leave out ahead, then it's time to test Chris Rock's
theory about champagne room.
Damn...nothing but grief. To help or not to help? An offering is yet a posibility to offend his pride...
But after all why should I in this case?...Friendship isn't a Marxist endeavour.
Can't be sustained across the great line in life that divides the winners from losers. a conspiracy among men
of the same station. Role of money offends democratic ideals, primal model of absolute loyalty.
but the size of a man's bankroll has innumerable repercussions.
I had to deal with my own other shit...cover thy own ass first...

Damn...difficult situations when there is not much extras actually to help....which route to take I have no freakin idea.

hmm so what's money? --->means access to restaurants, vacation spots, season tickets...blah blah blah...lifting
the velvet rope.
And your posse can't roll if that rope drops down in front of some members. lol...

Think I'm just being super random today.....
crap...

Just had one weird mood today...
Simply having questions all over my head.
About life...career...love...
Damn it....everything...

Think I need some new space to re-evaluate the whole situation once more.
I need to grow...and I need to grow fast. Real fast actually. Question is...will I hit my
target by 30?...
Hard....real hard. But not impossible!

Where I am now, taking seat on the 3rd highest post of the company in decision making...
The pressure of making things happen is very high... blood will almost spill if I'm not careful.
my lack of sleep is ridiculous and I do hope I don't reach the state of being inhuman again...
INSOMNIA...!!!

sigh oh well....back to work....back to work...a long hard day's work!

Developed as a much more powerful and larger replacement for the 356...
an evolution of the Beetle...

Rear mounted 415hp 6-cylinder engine of boxer configuration.
5,500rpm with 12:1 compression ratio.
311km/hr top speed and a 4s 0-100 rating....

Oh yes if you're thinkin' what I'm thinkin'....
It's the 911 GT3!

yup...the ecstatic feeling of handling it on friday...
was a good blood rush.

Black...shiny...and majestic engine roar...
With quick manual gear shifts you can get it up and speeding
transforming the side street lamps into a stream of yellow lights form the side of my eye vision.

Tell me about fast and furious...

But I think I still can't beat my feeling that I've yet to overcome when roaring the Firebird many years back...
fully mechanical monster.

My legs are still killing me from the run.
My colleagues were saying I'm just pure crazy with the run....
at such an age and body mechanics...I'm still thinking I'm iron man.

hahahaaa.... my General Manager's commando son pushed so hard that
he ended up sleeping the whole day yesterday and clocked a good 2hrs 40mins...
Maybe he is just trying to console me on my fast run that came with the pains thereafter.

My friends all think that I've got some great stuff falling upon my back...
with frequent travels and stuff...knowing many parts of the world and being able to talk about it...
but hey...seriously..it's tiring...really...
after travels comes planning and reports and other yada yada...
However, the experience level goes 1 up again...that's the only good thing.

Today...allow me to introduce India....Hohohoo...




A sovereign country in south asia and the seventh largest country.
Beautiful architechture but yet... a holy land with lotsa...dung everywhere.
Very much the same as France when I went there... not sure what's up with these people.
But anyway... they have the wierdest temple there filled with millions of rats...
They take it as the reborn of their ancestors and thus feeding and taking care of these rodents
were a must. Their holy man would just sit there and allow the rats to feed off the food he holds...
sharing with them the fruits of his begging. Totally not my kind of life I must say.




My view of the hypnotic indian holy man....hahahaaa

A 5 star hotel, you get to hear small little footsteps running around the flooring or the ceiling boards...
And shockingly greeted by the brownish or greyish furry rodents in the wee hours of the morning...right on
the top of your blanket. Goodness me!... I do wonder how else it will be with the increase of these infestations.

Yet the sunset scene...other than Singapore's is very much nicer...
more brilliant..
well like they always say... The grass is always greener on the other side...hahaa
but really... it's beautiful.Beside the sea and rushing waves...away from the chocking stench
of coconut milk and lamb/goats odour...
no wonder the I'm starting to see the potential in sales for my air anti-bacterial sanitizer in that country...

One can see very obviously the effects of having too much curry...
Heatiness and sore throat... like blowing fire....hahahaa....just look at this...

When I close my eyes...
with the sound of saxophone softly grace the air.
I find my thoughts sway to you...
uncontrolled.
Brings the fuzzies...
Yet the pain...
Not like I can't live without...
probably I choose not to...

Gotta learn to suppress the rapid fire inside...
the NOS in my blood...
where results must come at the most instance.
I guess that's where my risk hunger is deemed as high...
Now I'm afraid that I might just explode the wrong bomb that I'd
not be able to withstand.

clocking a good 2hrs 5mins for a half marathon today...
but it's way off my actual schedule of the past...
2hrs 45mins for a full marathon...alamak...now I'm barely finishing the half of it
with a time close to that.... CANNOT MAKE IT!

body mechanics aren't as good as before already...
today my ligaments just gave way in the heat of the sprints at the last 3km...
practically reduced myself to 10cm/min speed after that....
Goodness the pain.

But what kept me on the run even as the pain started off alittle after 10km was the
ringing voice... "Can Can...sure can do it....no problem".... =)
The one voice I'd love to hear all my life....but I guess I gotta work on it and pace myself
well...mentally and emotionally....

Kenneth...remember you've been patient... why the change...now there is the need to keep that
ability going...hold on!