Decision!

Yesterday.. was a day of a big decision...
Would somehow change my future and what I expected all along.
But I was prepared for this day, though it felt alittle lousy but,
it's something that has to be done. Probably for something better.

I gave up the thought of fighting for my scholarship.
I decided to let this scholarship go as I felt I didn't want this kind of life in future.
It wasn't really for me and I felt that I should be in a more fast paced job and
something that gives me satisfaction. Just being on attachment alone, it made me realise that
By stepping into the very office I'd call my future, I was lost self time, due to travelling... givent he weirdest work structure I had to get things done at very odd timings too thus compromised on my self time and time with those I love. The scholarship was also a burden to me as I studied through my university so far... the pressure that was constantly bugging me in the head...and I can't really sleep well enough with a disturbed mind. Affecting so much in my life. I used to do better without it. Scholarship...or "Scholar" as they labelled me....was nothing but a student who had the ability to talk his way through and impress people in the interview. I merely just another student on bursary. Nothing else... nothing so special about it.

Now I've got a different goal in life....a new beginning and set a new waypoint to target for....