element of gloom

Yesterday...yesterday was good....but yet had an element of gloom....
Met up Sharon after ages of saying we will meet up to catch up but it's always me not having the time... Think I'm quite jialat... haha.. She changed quite abit in dressing, due to work she has to I guess, but somehow felt her style and the patterns she didn't really change much actually.
Great to catch up some times...!

Gloom, Min's granddad just passed away in the afternoon at about 4.30pm... told me she cried...
cried hard and yet her relatives due to buddist beliefs didn't allow her to cry. Alamak...how to control this kinda thing?... madness...
I felt bad not being able to be there to comfort her in person. Had already left back for the airport. Should've stayed around the hospital alittle longer. sigh...

Reminds me of the time when I had to watch over my late grandpa as he lay on the hospital bed....fighting to live...just to wait for the return of my Auntie and Uncle from Australia and NEw Zealand. But they didn't make it in time. When the priest blessed him and told him that everything will be fine...And to rest in peace that everyone there will be fine and well.
And that his Sons and daughter would understand...
With that...he breathed his last...
I broke down...
was very painful to have him leave us, yet happy that his suffering ended...
And I guess it should've been the same for Min's grandpa too....

The night after my grandpa passed away... I experienced something unusual...
and the funny thing was that all his Sons felt it too.....

~ I close my eyes and there in the shadows
I see a bright striking light,
your light
You come to me out of my dreams
Across the night...

From this day on
I'm still certain I'll never be alone
I know what my heart
have always known
that my grandpa's love has a power that's all it's own
For us all there's no time and no space
No barrier that the family's love won't erase
In our hearts you will be
And for always, forever
you're raised up high
And for always
we will go on beyond goodbye.~