it was more than her moodiness.. I'm just being shattered once again

Tell my faults now
I want to know
Though I've changed
And why you'd go
I need to see your face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who breaks my love and brings me tears
Whose love for I'd undyingly fight
Now I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I let you go
I let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you said to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies

I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end

I let you go
I let you fly
I'm not going to be asking why
I let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

illness combo and a dash of mood swings

Argh the illness....
puking...giddiness...fever....all a combo...just nothing with the runny nose yet...gona be a big combo.
Sigh...hate it feeling the weakness... rather go to work and after that being able to pop by to see my girl at her work place. or at times surprise her after her work...
I did think of doing so today at night.. 'til I started the vomitting...
damn it...
Can you imagine me shivering?...damn I've always been a heated up person and can take winter climate without a problem....but these 2 days...I've been shivering through even if there wasn't any wind and being covered with the blanket...
This is insane!

Feeling my dear girl's moodiness...wonder is there any reason to it...
Did I say or do something wrong? or was it because I didn't do anything at all?...
well maybe it's the time of the month...that really spoils the moods of girls...
I hope to find a way to cheer her up...
thinking hard on it...
but this feeling of physical weakness i getting in the way...
gotta recover fast first...then tmr at least there is a talk of see how things goes...

gotta rest...