you'll never know....

Life and love...
Love defines life
and where life is...
there should be love
on a daily note..
difficult it is to strike a well balance
where life is in concern...
never know when the next step you gona take
is the right or the wrong way
only thing that one can say...
"I believe"
"I try"
Making the right choices
is very much on one's own perception...
I guess I've gone through all that to hit the point I am today...
made my choices
I screwed it up or fucked it up
took up some options to smash it down again
took some risks to get myself into trouble
went into things knowing that I'd feel pain for
But for everything I walked myself into
There is yet a reason to...
Very much because of what my heart has led me into...
My love for doing certain things....
My love for a special one
would all these be right to do so in the first place?
I don't know, but yet I do it.
of course mistakes were made along the way...
life is a way long learning experience...
just that some mistakes made hits you back painfully...
while others make you step back at it...not wanting to go there to try again
and yet, others will still give you the feeling of a second try...
Everyday, I sit back and wonder how should I deal with certain things...
Or for now, I wonder how should I keep some things going
while getting some problems to stop it's moves in my life.
And also wondering what's the right step to take
for that special one with me...
Everyday it's a rumble of thoughts in my head...
an unending burning of brain energy.
Ultimately...
It's yet an understanding of me being only human settling in...
making wrong moves...mistakes and falling
then learning and getting up from it all is just a normal process
To live with it...
though most of the time it sets me on a coma in time....
like in a crossroad....where no signs of
what's good and what's bad is shown...
nothing spells spoils or graces...
just blank...
Life...
whatever it is, just love...
just believe and try...
at the end of the exhausion...
where you lie strengthless
and going away...
Just know at least, you did your best...
that's what life is all about...
enjoy the fruits of love
whatever and wherever it may be...
survive the toils to better days...
feel the pain to appreciate the beauty

Just give your best of the moment...
you'll never know when tomorrow's
never gona come...

And for all I know...mine could be near...