Sometimes there is a wonder...
if practicality is a good thing...
it causes conflicts between issues regarding sensitivity emotions and 'what's the straight thing to do' kinda mentality...
I might be blabbering crap alittle...but you know what I mean...

practicality saves the daily works...but yet could harm the sub-load of mental conflicts...
where sometimes you feel the adverse but yet gotta think against it because only it is the better thing to do...
or sometimes because it's the more practical thing to think of and react.

There will be one day I'll just one to let go and be one hellova bull...reasonable to only myself...
let lose in the wild and let the heat go...
conduct away the energy inside so as to lay at the end of that one very day... just simmered down and blank...
where reality will come back into line...

Just to cleanse the soul alittle... to let go of macho man shit and tear it out and over....

How is it ever possible to have 2 offers in the same week?
One in the medical field and the other in oil and gas...
but what's the common factor?...
business...strategizing...market positioning...emerging markets...
All trying to dig that vigor in tapping the 3rd worlds...
the raw and dangerous lands...and untouched places...
formulation of niche possibilities...
And so I've been hearing...
"countries where politics matters at least as much as economics to the markets."

Now the weird thing is....
How the hell did they come to know of me even existing?
The Kenneth ain't that good stuff!...
So for the moment...I should stop having the digging through my head...
there isn't anything in there... dredging inside is a waste of time and effort...
well, for now...
My head is exhausted...I keep coming up with new things...now opportunities...
like a part is addicted to it, while the other is so so tired out...

Sweetie...we gotta just let lose real soon....in a month and a half time...
just let lose...

Totally do not like the feel of self-pity...
The harder the fall the faster the climb
The tougher the situation the stronger to get
But the rockier the days...the fluid of ways...

How is it that I reckon bitterness
For the mere assumption of elements
running against a hopeful forwarder...?
Like time, space, and heart...
Like resentment of opportunity lack
Like support a must to give tangible results
Like preaching a dive into the sea, needing
all the floatation around, but yet call it risk...
A total irony of being...I don't understand...

I guess, it's more telling me
that a state of a person holds ties only for beneficial foundations,
yet not the true meaning of ties worth holding...
Disappointing...
But why do I want to bother so much?
coz....I cared to bother...
yet it's pointless....
so is it left or is it right?

Answer= whatever...

Nine fifty nine
a time off my nine to five...
And here I am working on case
many findings many numbers in my face
I look around, I just hear me...
I just see me and I guess it's just you and me...
body and shadow
two of one same thing...
my eyes are on for a close...
breathing gets harder
like I'm inhaling from a long winding hose...
Many things in hand
succeed it all depends...
time on stress
trying to speed work to my finest...
but here I am yet clueless on what's deeper I'm finding...
or maybe I'm just trying to shield off in knowing
that I don't know...
A thousand and one ways to show
A million forms to prove..
what's sincere
what's faithful
but tomorrow brings a surety
speedy fires, requiring me mindful...
And for a moment I feel numbness
on what's to come and my other dumbness...
But should things come...
let it come...
And in the dailies
the cycle goes on..
'til my hopeful day comes
my hand in handful
and the fuzzies my everyday living tool...

Within a circular confinement,
It's hard to look beyond the walls to seek refinement.
'coz inside the circle lies one's own world and where benefits seek
to come from those who hop in.

Isn't it how Mafia prosper in the days of the Godfather?

how one could seek only to be the light at the end of the tunnel
unknowing of the tunnel beyond lies more depth unknown.

Instead seek somewhere out of the zone of comfort to seek beyond self-righteousness...

cheers if it's attained.

At the corner of Scotts road
stands a very colonial hotel...
Been old since the day I saw light...
hahaaa....Goodwood Park...oh yeh..
Decided to take a dive into my month splurge on the tummy...
Oh this time was seemingly even higher than what Equinox gave in damages....
but it was sure satisfying....
Gordon Grill...
From my turning 4years old, this place has already been listed in Singapore's Best restaurants.

Very pleasant setting... just that dimmer lights make my sweet turn towards the alittle 'torpid' mode...
The cannot think mode that is...
While I simply after a rushy tough week just wanna excuse my brains for this while...
Just sit back and relax to the nice soft music and
gazing at her while we indulge in slow chats.

I found the trolley meat service concept rather unique...
especially when you think you wanna have a big bite for the day.... you too can choose.
Instead of being restricted to what's stated on the menu.

Service there was great too actually...really can excuse brains...except the hands and mouth...
compared to some countries where they call the "No hands" restaurant that my elder colleagues have been mentioning
to me. but nah...not interested and won't go to such 'lazy' places to eat and where standards of food are yet questionable.


Good....good evening went by...and now, the Weekends of workout and read ups on Operations management
will start, before I start going into hardcore web building once I get warmed up on the softwares again....

:p

Well...
have this good feeling at the end of the day... :) hehee...
only I know why.....

And I woke up
all jaded mode...
like I did something terrible
and yet not knowing what...
it was just in pure sleep...
just in pure dream....

and so I hummm....

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Have you heard...
Have you tried to understand?
It's alright..
It gets easier with time...
How are you?
Are you ever coming back
I have changed
And I've realized I wrong
I was wrong
Now I'll never see your face, anymore...
Oh my love,
I'd give anything for one more day with you...

It's been a real rushy rushy time these days...
With so many people to meet for some discussions...
So much to handle 'til my hands are over flowing...
If only my pocket is filled with the amount of cash of
equivalence to my workdone...
I'd probably be erhmmm....hmmm well...not yet a millionaire...
coz I probably would have already invested half of it in some new biz for it to show truth
in 6mths to a year...
but ok....anyway.... 'til the day comes....
'til the day comes...

With new business ideas coming up....
with fuel cell pushing its way into my head...
and with all the intel war games that I've to deal with in these weeks....
Tired...