I think...
I found the reason for me...
to change who I used to be...
Coz' I'm no perfect person...

Like I start over anew...
did you know that it's you?

Comfortably rested on my couch
wind flowin' through the room gushin' the air
listening to 'Innocence' just without you there...
In the moments...you were missed...

Machine is down....!!!!
houston...we've got a problem...

with machine CPU micro controller overheating
and a left leg joint tumefication...

given: 5 days for repair or despair...

Alamak....so how?... die...

Phew! Just returned from a long hideous trip...
a time in Hanoi...
in the biggest hotel. Daewoo Hotel.
A Korean & Vietnamese merged Hotel which was built on top of a lake...
thus making the darn place ever sinking and slopes caused by the terrain movements.

Well but anyway...the trip was really worth while as I managed to cover alot of things there.
Basically hit off as the hotel's soon to be maintenance, machines and equipments supplier.
Who cool is that?. It's like taking the Hotel as the stepping stone to the rest of Hanoi,
covering every other inch of it....well before I hit at Ho Chin Mihn at least.

But I must say...the north is filled with the cocky bunch.
argh....boiled my blood teaching and doing demo for them.

Anyway....it was all a twist of fate.
Imagine arriving in a 3rd world country, having no accomodation planned...due to the lack of vacancy.
Spent the whole late afternoon and evening talking and discussing on issues with the customers I had to meet.
Never did I expect to have the Director/GM of the Hotel trying to squeeze me into the executive business suite
at a 60% discount net....and with all my meals and transport paid for...
And on top of that...giving me a complimentary bottle of Chilean red wine with a plate full of cheese and crackers...
sweet!

But....gosh! the work in the day I had to go through was really...and I mean really killing...
so much of talking with so little info going into those folks' head....goodness me.

Oh well...I'm beat...
turning in earlier for once...

It was like Deja Vu
I saw it coming
yet I didn't want to see...
The open heart stay neutral
yet the scorned cancerous brain remain rural.
Somewhere along the way...
cards will turn.

Somehow I'm starting to sense some crap somewhere
I think at some point... there ain't any point in explaining certain issues or even to say offer anything...
Doesn't seem to be worthwhile in the first place.
Especially when it trigger adverse reaction.
It doesn't pay to be bothering about the well being of others sometimes.

If that's the case...might as well F***ing screw it.

Basically now it brings me to some feeling that
there some people who simply just got too much air to be held that in such a way
seemingly can't accept the pure fact that one has to take on some learning process.
As if the foundation doesn't have to be built for a stable building block.
That no matter how much I care about knocking good info into the head...
it just bounces out like a thick numb skull...
Yet again too afraid to feedback even alittle bit, but fang screw your ass from the other end.
Otherwise it would be a harbouring cancer waiting to explode.

Putting in a few levels for thought...
"reaching your hands into a black box to save a calling serpent...
gets you totally no where. You don't see what's inside, you don't know what you're saving"

My utter disappointment I must say...
coz I think what I've been seeing is just a pure mask...

oh well...what's the point of it all....what's the point...huh?...

~watching the trail of broken petals
from a pair of asian flowers
one after another as I pick...
each tatter tells a story.
partial wonder and mostly sad.
What am I to say
But to put in nature's way...
Yet most often than not...
it's the hand that once plucked and caressed in care...
but the index points to the storm right there
the blame and cause of the petals torn~

What you thought you learnt well..
What you thought you saw well...
it may just merely be a shell.
Where within the core,
what one day arises,
others will see and everything once built is just fallen rubbish.
Brought to a forcing needle point...
will the colours of poison be shown
alittle more push could surface an in grown worm within...
digging into the ruins of the hollow hearted.

You know who you are...
The more silent you become
the more obvious it shows
yet when the voicing is ever done...
all around will know...

I think I'd say that this weekend was simply great...
a good fried rice experimentation...
a good work week ending...
Most of all...
a great date.

was like I wished it didn't have to end at all...
'Beowulf' wasn't that much of a great show to catch...
but I didn't mind...
food this time was simple at Simply Thai and TCC...
yet it didn't really get to me that the coffee was not thick enough
or the softshell crab wasn't tastier...
Coz most of all...Jace was there.

Through my so busy schedules, I haven't found time to meet up with her...
just made sure that I'd call her and SMSed her everyday...
have been talking alot to her, but yet...
once I caught sight of her...I felt a whole rush of feels just swarmed...
But I guess, I just had to keep the cool...
if not I'd just run to her and give her a big hug...
probably give her a shock...
Oh well...it's going back to reality of work tomorrow...but yet I'm not complaining...
I like the challenge everyday...fighting for figures, business at war, searching for possible opportunities.
Yet I think I'd just hold a little of my fantasy in one small part of my mind...keepin' this weekend living.
Erhmm....at least just for awhile longer.

=)

Cosmetic is everything...

This week, I learnt many new things...most of all,
impregnating diamond dusts with some hard fabric...and it simply does wonders!

I never realised some pad used to swish around the floor could be something so darn expensive!
but seeing the results of the works...Alamak...cheap lah...

People nowadays ...all wanna look good, feel good or act beyond their status...
that's where cosmetics are important... well of course I'm not saying that I'm dealing with make ups, face creams
and stuff like that....
I deal more with the bigger issues....buildings, streets, offices, aircrafts, cruises, spas....blah blah blah....

Spent the whole freaking week understanding the effects of scrubbing and friction on different stones, tile materials
and all those artificial flooring that make a building like a freaking palace...oh well..maybe I'd say a palace...coz,
you talk about brunei...my business is basically in the palace...hahaha...

Tiring...but I guess it's all worth it....
And so I've found yet another niche business....and a selling point to look at.
just got to work on the pricing...to get people to accept such pricing for a simple looking thing that does wonders...
oh well...more demo to do then....
*sweat*

Next week...it would be vietnam for me....Cooling Hanoi...maybe to some people....cold....hahaha....15 degress...is gona be
SHIOK!

The week has been a tough one I must say...
real tough...
But yet very interesting on the overall...
strategizing sales... cornering deals and making sure that I cover all aspects
in order not to be cheated off my pocket when dealing with
scheming people...
Some sickos could actually think that they could just fake me into looking at short term huge figures
and not think about the administrative regulations and possible consequences...

Oh well...just have to keep my eyes opened wide...
Esp when they are talking in terms of millions....and they aren't talking about the currency
called....Dong...
total in USD. well of coz USD ain't much to think about these days....but whata heck right?
still money....
better still if it was Euro
hahahaa....
or the pound?.....lol

Today...this night...
I lay tossin
and turnin...
my mind unending journey of thoughts
and burns of what I'm left without...

Little moments...
just little moments I lay...
through the darkness of this day...
as the night's thunders roar...
my mind wonderin'
am I on the right path?
what this year end means for me?
How my path leads to?

Shit!
Does this kinda phase thoughts just slip in every now and then?...
or is it like some self critics to just get myself move faster?....
Dunoo...

A very very fruitful but tiring trip I just had!...
Just in a trip to Malaysia and my boss and I have dug out quite a handful of business opportunities that are for long term...
flat against competitors...
Think we got many people unhappy....coz they lost a bite in the business...

Main purpose was to shake people off the advancing route and let the shrewd and the underhanded 'die a natural death'...
Plainly to say....stay on your own road, or we will start moving in yours and kick you out of your range!

Was really some eye opener too...especially when it comes to one on one dog fight, in direct competition with competitor
in front of a major customer...
It all had to be damn fierce but professional...strictly professional I say....hahahaa

And here I take off once again...through the vast lands of asia...
This time is a way back to the Empire hotel where one of the best rooms are found...
Trust me....it's world class. But the room is way too big for just one person...
hit there for a day just to be back in Singapore for an event and just leaving tomorrow morning at 6.15am
to Port Klang.

On a mission...
what's new right? But this time to try striking the great deals and future business dealings with Star Cruises.
Where total maintanence in the area of housekeeping could be handled or provided for by us...
Can you even imagine how much revenue that would mean?....
start with one vessel and stretching to the other part of the fleet....Phuah!!!