I lay before the stage of my own life...
a play I began 26 years since I saw light.
Wonderin' oh what's grave importance and what's not.
How did I come to such a point where I just want to be with
somebody yet I can't...
not because there ain't attraction...
not because there is some character mismatch...
not because we have life's grave differences we can't stand about each other...
Yet because of how religion in this world fools us...

How is it that even honouring the same supreme being
could be made so different by humans upon this sickening earth...?
How is it that simply living a life together isn't just it?...
It's either life expectations level differences or
the believe of meeting our maker on judgement day clashes
that has scared my emotional self... year by year....
one by one...

Making me thus so fed up...
Frustration is boiling within...
like some may say a singleton equates freedom
but I see a proper pair brings joy...
There see mine I do not...

sick and tired...

I just hope I won't grow into some selfish being
that I just have enough of all these issues to think about and handle...
that I'd want nothing anymore...
bring a scorpion filled mind...
pains and aches unending...

Where thus I go?
journey my OWN path...
my OWN way...
have my OWN talk...?...

I wish someone just go alter the scripts to my play...