Walk with me this trying road
Walk with me through hills with load
Walk with me the storms beyond
Walk with me through brightness and torn
Walk with me this life...
Journey with me as my sweet darling ****...
:p
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Sense & Sensitivity
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The motion of senses arises
issues of sensitivity hovers in notion
where and how would it be the crossing line of
being understanding and being a possessive jerk...
sometimes it can come to a point of wonder...
To bother or not to bother?
Probably the point of not bothering is what they call
"no go zone" where in windsurfing, once you've crossed
the line, you tend to be stranded and not being able to get back to motion.
I was once asked "Am I just being too nonchalant about how others feel?"
Well I was left unable to really answer that to the point.
Basically, it's very much based on a variety of perspectives.
Well most of the time it's very much about how 2 parties view the issues to be.
But in any case, understanding is the main header to solve the problems of both worlds.
And yet, to finally attain that position, at least some assistance from across to help see the reasons
would be most helpful to show some care in making ends meet and to have a tie down.
Well of course I do get questions on "why are you so insensitive?"
Sometimes it's a speech that I'd deliberately make to hit my point in something, and only the lease of times
if things happened to be not very much in proper place, my mind is messed up for the moments and having
a wave of glitches.
I just live by the saying that "To lay your heart and mind with one who can hurt you most, is trusting that one won't"
Keeping that in view...
I guess, I'm much happier.
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Day started in some gloom, I don't know what but yes there are dark clouds hovering the 3rd floor of my office building.
With this person get scolding and that person get shouted at...
And I walked in with a very stern and firm look, after some initial calling blast for my name, silence set in.
They were anticipating on what I was about to say...
But I just left a folio on the table and walked off, now that moment is simple being nonchalant about who thinks what...
I just glided off the owner table without more than 5 words "I've nothing to report" even though I actually do, but I was just
not interested somehow.
That is especially after knowing, in my return to office this morning, there were many things that I've done and have been overwritten. Decisions that I've set and plannings that I've scheduled for the day retimed and to only be informed as I'm thinking of setting off....
What kinda shit practice is this?
I'm seriously raging today...my mood really isn't good...really....
Some body cool me down...please...?
Think for the moment I need some soothing... :p
To take me away from this sense of feeling crappy for the day....
The motion of senses arises
issues of sensitivity hovers in notion
where and how would it be the crossing line of
being understanding and being a possessive jerk...
sometimes it can come to a point of wonder...
To bother or not to bother?
Probably the point of not bothering is what they call
"no go zone" where in windsurfing, once you've crossed
the line, you tend to be stranded and not being able to get back to motion.
I was once asked "Am I just being too nonchalant about how others feel?"
Well I was left unable to really answer that to the point.
Basically, it's very much based on a variety of perspectives.
Well most of the time it's very much about how 2 parties view the issues to be.
But in any case, understanding is the main header to solve the problems of both worlds.
And yet, to finally attain that position, at least some assistance from across to help see the reasons
would be most helpful to show some care in making ends meet and to have a tie down.
Well of course I do get questions on "why are you so insensitive?"
Sometimes it's a speech that I'd deliberately make to hit my point in something, and only the lease of times
if things happened to be not very much in proper place, my mind is messed up for the moments and having
a wave of glitches.
I just live by the saying that "To lay your heart and mind with one who can hurt you most, is trusting that one won't"
Keeping that in view...
I guess, I'm much happier.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Day started in some gloom, I don't know what but yes there are dark clouds hovering the 3rd floor of my office building.
With this person get scolding and that person get shouted at...
And I walked in with a very stern and firm look, after some initial calling blast for my name, silence set in.
They were anticipating on what I was about to say...
But I just left a folio on the table and walked off, now that moment is simple being nonchalant about who thinks what...
I just glided off the owner table without more than 5 words "I've nothing to report" even though I actually do, but I was just
not interested somehow.
That is especially after knowing, in my return to office this morning, there were many things that I've done and have been overwritten. Decisions that I've set and plannings that I've scheduled for the day retimed and to only be informed as I'm thinking of setting off....
What kinda shit practice is this?
I'm seriously raging today...my mood really isn't good...really....
Some body cool me down...please...?
Think for the moment I need some soothing... :p
To take me away from this sense of feeling crappy for the day....
Monday, June 23, 2008
As I spent the moments lying down...
having a horrid back pain....I was thinking..
If I may start of a viable business that doesn't require much capital...and yet makes off hand extra cash...
hmmm....sounds good right?
coz I think for now...
my words may not say...
but slowly my mood tells of slight depressed feelings here and there...
somehow... I need a good change.
For my future and for the future of the love of my life...
I need to change to reach for more...
I need more.
Seriously...
The little quietness...
my mind goes into thought....
the plan of 5 years down the road is beginning once again...
I've gotten this far, I want to go further...
so far...I think, I'll hit my mark...I still see it...and I will want it.
Hmmmm....
but for the while...I'll just flow down into a comforting confidence 'sofa' to just ease myself alittle...
and release the frustration and depression....
and then I'll spring back up....
I'm just tired.
having a horrid back pain....I was thinking..
If I may start of a viable business that doesn't require much capital...and yet makes off hand extra cash...
hmmm....sounds good right?
coz I think for now...
my words may not say...
but slowly my mood tells of slight depressed feelings here and there...
somehow... I need a good change.
For my future and for the future of the love of my life...
I need to change to reach for more...
I need more.
Seriously...
The little quietness...
my mind goes into thought....
the plan of 5 years down the road is beginning once again...
I've gotten this far, I want to go further...
so far...I think, I'll hit my mark...I still see it...and I will want it.
Hmmmm....
but for the while...I'll just flow down into a comforting confidence 'sofa' to just ease myself alittle...
and release the frustration and depression....
and then I'll spring back up....
I'm just tired.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Ok now...alittle update for the while...
Just came back from my so so nice holiday, but obviously not enough...
It was simply fabulous. Even left my soul there when I returned to Narita, Tokyo and then Singapore.
I think everyday Jacelyn and I was like eating and eating non-stop!
Ice-cream almost everyday, from the normal creamy hokkaido ice-cream to the one with
lavender fragrance and then to the 5 level ice-cream.... putting on the extra in case anyone puncture a tire already...
:p
Every stop over I was bringing in food and more food into the bus....totally loaded with food, snacks and puffs....cream puffs...
Basically every meal there was sashimi and raw goodies...but of course, the premium stuff....
I freaking paid through my nose....imagine an almost SGD$280 for some basket of hand picked live seafood!
The alaskan king crab, big scallops, sea urchin, orange prawns, abalone...all live and swimming and there the
monstrous me making a fresh meal out of them....erhmm.....raw deal!
And the next buster was the A grade Kobe Beef that melts in your mouth when you first bite it...SGD$100+ per 200gm
Shit that's all madness...but oh well, not like you get that in Singapore with the best and top grade whacky skill
of preparing those good stuff....
The weather in Hokkaido was apparently damn good for me...but damn cold for Jace already.
Lowest of 9 degrees and the highest of 22 degrees....it's like about the aircon of my own office room...
about 16 degrees...shiok! hahaa...but I was the only idiot walking around in berms and a polo-T most of the time
with a shivering darling by my side and just trying to keep her warm with my jacket.
Oh yes....and the hot spring....it was great too...but it just got my hotter...and I was simply perspiring in the cold
with just a single layer T-shirt having a stroll outside...
better still, standing by the lake and awaiting for the 15mins of firing fire works in the dark evening...
Romantic huh...hahaha...
Ahhh...the shopping...not really my great thing, but seeing my darlin' just swifting around looking for her birthday present...
and totally enjoying it was a sight! Trying on all the bags she grabs hold...the clothes that were in the burberry store,
simply....awwww....well...good. Nice feeling to have her find something she really likes and just pay for it, instead of guessing
it through and ending up with something hmmm.... not so wanted at the end of the day.
And now...just trying to put together and sort out the 700+ photos we took on the trip....
wah totally headache this one is....hahahaa...but yet still, it's fun.
hahaha :p
Now...where to next?....hmmmmm......
Just came back from my so so nice holiday, but obviously not enough...
It was simply fabulous. Even left my soul there when I returned to Narita, Tokyo and then Singapore.
I think everyday Jacelyn and I was like eating and eating non-stop!
Ice-cream almost everyday, from the normal creamy hokkaido ice-cream to the one with
lavender fragrance and then to the 5 level ice-cream.... putting on the extra in case anyone puncture a tire already...
:p
Every stop over I was bringing in food and more food into the bus....totally loaded with food, snacks and puffs....cream puffs...
Basically every meal there was sashimi and raw goodies...but of course, the premium stuff....
I freaking paid through my nose....imagine an almost SGD$280 for some basket of hand picked live seafood!
The alaskan king crab, big scallops, sea urchin, orange prawns, abalone...all live and swimming and there the
monstrous me making a fresh meal out of them....erhmm.....raw deal!
And the next buster was the A grade Kobe Beef that melts in your mouth when you first bite it...SGD$100+ per 200gm
Shit that's all madness...but oh well, not like you get that in Singapore with the best and top grade whacky skill
of preparing those good stuff....
The weather in Hokkaido was apparently damn good for me...but damn cold for Jace already.
Lowest of 9 degrees and the highest of 22 degrees....it's like about the aircon of my own office room...
about 16 degrees...shiok! hahaa...but I was the only idiot walking around in berms and a polo-T most of the time
with a shivering darling by my side and just trying to keep her warm with my jacket.
Oh yes....and the hot spring....it was great too...but it just got my hotter...and I was simply perspiring in the cold
with just a single layer T-shirt having a stroll outside...
better still, standing by the lake and awaiting for the 15mins of firing fire works in the dark evening...
Romantic huh...hahaha...
Ahhh...the shopping...not really my great thing, but seeing my darlin' just swifting around looking for her birthday present...
and totally enjoying it was a sight! Trying on all the bags she grabs hold...the clothes that were in the burberry store,
simply....awwww....well...good. Nice feeling to have her find something she really likes and just pay for it, instead of guessing
it through and ending up with something hmmm.... not so wanted at the end of the day.
And now...just trying to put together and sort out the 700+ photos we took on the trip....
wah totally headache this one is....hahahaa...but yet still, it's fun.
hahaha :p
Now...where to next?....hmmmmm......
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Sunday, June 08, 2008
For the moment... I think I'm just sitting by feeling depressed...
What about?...probably many things in mind.
My character...--> to find something, to define something and to know something...
I think sometimes it's really hard to be just perfect...
Especially when you feel that you're taken for granted.
Then the question comes..."Why is it like that?"
"So how does the great one up there play a part in this?"
Well, Really, I don't know...
like a game...
Life it is...
You give your best,
You try your best...
But the end seems like a dim tunnel...
Even when there is so much heart...
So much soul placed into everything...
you find that there isn't much that comes from it...
Try not to bother too much?
Try not to care too much?
Just be the irresponsible jerk and be selfish?
Just be nonchalant on time priority?
Well...I could, but yet I can't...
The irony of life it is...
Like a stage play I'd want a break from for the moment, but yet somehow I find that I can't...
Maybe it's true...
I'm meant to be lonewolf...
on the roam in this world...
Maybe...as it was said to me before...
Sigh...
What about?...probably many things in mind.
My character...--> to find something, to define something and to know something...
I think sometimes it's really hard to be just perfect...
Especially when you feel that you're taken for granted.
Then the question comes..."Why is it like that?"
"So how does the great one up there play a part in this?"
Well, Really, I don't know...
like a game...
Life it is...
You give your best,
You try your best...
But the end seems like a dim tunnel...
Even when there is so much heart...
So much soul placed into everything...
you find that there isn't much that comes from it...
Try not to bother too much?
Try not to care too much?
Just be the irresponsible jerk and be selfish?
Just be nonchalant on time priority?
Well...I could, but yet I can't...
The irony of life it is...
Like a stage play I'd want a break from for the moment, but yet somehow I find that I can't...
Maybe it's true...
I'm meant to be lonewolf...
on the roam in this world...
Maybe...as it was said to me before...
Sigh...
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Sometimes... in the midst of the rushes
the turmoil of piling issues dragging you for attention...
priority of things in your life comes into play...
And here...I see...
at a different point in life...
various things takes on a different level positioning in you
and in place, they affect you emotionally
Well...maybe, that's what that is happening to me....
somehow...
certain things...I'm starting to really consider the options...
and for others, I might just feel the pinch about being buried
by the mindful things that come with it...
But anyway.....I think sometimes too...I need someone to tell me
what to do and where to go...
be blinded for awhile....just a little while...
the turmoil of piling issues dragging you for attention...
priority of things in your life comes into play...
And here...I see...
at a different point in life...
various things takes on a different level positioning in you
and in place, they affect you emotionally
Well...maybe, that's what that is happening to me....
somehow...
certain things...I'm starting to really consider the options...
and for others, I might just feel the pinch about being buried
by the mindful things that come with it...
But anyway.....I think sometimes too...I need someone to tell me
what to do and where to go...
be blinded for awhile....just a little while...
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