gloomy

A very gloomy day today...
wet....cold...greyish clouds...
no sense of happiness felt from everyone in the office....
Stepping out of the house at about 5.45am trying to make it to work ASAP
today... didn't make it in time for the briefing
thus got freakin' skrewed today...
Giving me a wonderful start of the day too.... WOW! can you imagine...

I miss the days when coming to the east was basically a drive in me to do so...
A wanting....A thing to look forward to...
In the past, there was the surf I'd go for,
but now, where is the time for it?
And even so, I can't ever do what I used to be great at...
age?...well maybe.
Beyond that... A wonderful girl for me to care for...to love...
Where art thou now?
Disappeared?....like how she made crowds vanish when she's with me?
With her, I'd go to the most crowded places...
Coz with her...my world surrounds.
The stage play of life becomes just us
Nobody else but us walking through the scenes of our own...
She is constantly missed...

My head is burning....my heart is screamin' for her....
But yet she can't feel nor hear....

My time was for her...and is still for her...
Will she take it?...
Where is my stand in her now?... seriously just friends?
Everytime when I'm alone with nothing to do...
She comes to mind...
Even so...when I'm busy, but at least my stuff keep me at bay...
my head rumbles...my heart splits...
with hands outreach wanting to feel her,
to touch her...embracing and hold her hand...
but is that possible?...
Will there be?...
sigh... here I sit... lonesome...