Monday, March 12, 2007

It's burning....stress stress!!! Pressure...all in the outside world!...what the future brings!

Suddenly in this phase of my life...
I feel great pressure...
Imagine having rejected a number of high paying jobs
for the reason of future prospects...
I've chanced myself upon another one that will probably bring me to greater heights...
but at a probably also ridiculous rate....
with madness burning of brain juice...

Shunt away $5k paying kinda job for your information....
and ended up with this...
This kinda bright future...
but could probably get me into working ....
very much like a workaholic...

Anyway...
Saturday afternoon,
met up with my future boss to talk about issues after my graduations...
I came to know of my final destination in this company....
which was very much to become a director in one of the divisions he is going to set in
time to come....which is probably in a couple of months...especially after I'm set and going.

The new office would be ready in june and I'm already to sit in to talk about how I'd like my office to be like...
How my department will be like...it's my planning already.

And more to come...

Was asked... what do I see myself as in 3yrs time?....or...correction...at the age of 30?
Hmmm....I said...I ain't too sure, but I'm sure I'd love to settle down...and attain some personal settlements....
get a house, a car...(damn I'm thinking of RX8... only young once for a selfish car....wahahaha)
with everything almost fully paid for and less loans to deal with.
And the next would be having a strong and stable job...I'll last me a long way....hmm well seems to me...
this could very well be it. Coz...in time, once taken over a division and being a senior board of managers...
I'm actually running the division like my own biz and just giving him a royalty of the profits while he
does other stuff....in his life....and cash...

having said all that...
there are things I've to be well equiped in....
and I was told that probably the norm of a person would need to take at least a yr to get in tuned with the facts and to
learn all the specifications in hand and in manuals...
but he is gona give me just 6mths...
and in just a split...he says, he's got the confidence I can do it in 3months....OMG!
keep halfing the amount, I'd see myself having to be good to go by today!

and once I'm ready I'll be like the boss on the technical specifications and all enquiries dealing with
Motors, pumps, blowers... the expert of the company....all ready to make the money roll and
be in marketing and design of industrial solutions to the region...and for some areas...to the world.

It's like rightfully taking over almost quarter of the enterprise...and with a share holding of it.

A small guy like me suddenly hit off like that?...

OK ok....stressed...
I didn't know what to think when comparying my past experiences in work and abilities and expertise to what I'm
gona be hitting off with....wow...totally off the charts...totally off course....
Why do I like to SM myself?....madness....

And so...Boss wanted to give me a huge start off...considering Google and yahoo offers...not forgetting credit suisse too
But looking at the learning phase I'd wanna give myself and not to be overly loaded with the pay I'm getitng and
the things I've to hold on to....
I said...I guess I'd better get some starting norm for probation first... that way...people won't be talking...or even thinking
I'm heading into something impossible...
Ok now...having said that...I got myself a reasonable 2.85 a month...and also, company provides me a car at the luxury for my own use...
and besides that...with this probation...every 4months I'm getting a review for increment...and the ups and not small...
probably a huge fold...
and with that...
He just smiled at me saying...head off well with the first 6months...fire off in a year...and whatever I'd think of having for my goals at the age of 30...
I' probably already have gotten it...no sweat!

Damn...should I even believe myself?...
luck?...or just a slap on my face to wake up?....

Kenneth Chan....future Boss...
creating his own regional empire with the initial aid of an experienced and well rounded business man...
who climbed out of 2 bankruptcies and now a millionaire...owning 3 mercedes 1 BMW 1 skoda 3 vans and an upcoming
lamborgini/ferrari/maserati... He calls himself a car collector...just buys them....maintains them and not drive...just park them in his big house of swarovski lightings and 3 BMW sound systems and 4 ultra flat at least 40inch LCD screens...
well guarded by 2 huskies and 2 beagals...

Does that sound good enough for confidence in such a boss?....
Damn I like to think so!....

Weekends....weeekends....
was cool having another 2 new friends joining in the
rocking of walls...at yishun safra...
glad they enjoyed it too...
and I guess I conquered anything that was for horizontal bouldering in the
rock gym....now it's gona be time for hitting off for new routes...

But somehow...the fatigue of my body is setting in....too long no sleep....it's going to kill me soon...
and today my migraines are back with fury....
argh!....
But still Dinner at Ikoi....damn shiok! all the Jap food...all the protein load for sashimi and stuff...
WoooHooo!!!!

My lack of sleep is getting to me....argh....bad bad....
this is really bad...
sigh....