I let go of what my pain was....
the decision was set....
and I shelf back my books
awaiting the next semester, fighting the battle once more...

I head is crazily tight...
and migraine acted up last night...
but I persisted to carry on pushing to study what I could...
the pain was so terrible I was left stunned and motionless after every ordeal...

I took a sip of beer this afternoon...
and unknowingly got myself into terrible head pounding situation...
and slept and woke up...
slept and woke up again...
until the alarm sounded...
my head was so heavy that I felt I was at all times going to fall off something...
even now...the pain persists...
somehow not stopping and I don't know why...

Wanted to go,
yet by going I might spoil everything...
I wanted to drink the night away...
yet by doing so I'd probably kill myself and my consciousness...
Wanna spend the evening and night with you,
but migraine didn't permit...
All because of me...
All my fault ...

Argh!!!
I should just jump...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't take it anymore!!!!!! I'm going crazy!!!!!! this is madness!!!! killing me!!!!!

Nothing seems to be going into my head!!!...
too short a time in between the subjects!...it's too little time to revise so much!

HELP!!!!
SOMEBODY!!!!
I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!

I'm TURNING MAD VERY VERY SOON!!!!!