2 Long hard weeks...
many many missions
much more tormenting mental challenge put in...
finally, it's been all cleared off well.
CO made great comments about me being someone very dependable
and really know my stuff well...
but really? do I?
Don't really think so....maybe I just have the acquired skill of making a good
smoke screen.

Well maybe I'm just one person who can't really register whatever that is not practical to me....
probably certain things doesn't make operational sense to me...but still...
if people want to hear it...I just give it....and there...
I piece the entire load worth of smoke into the brief and planning
having all present think I was jack shit good with the whole understanding....
but....erhmm...it was my 3 'C' tact...but good... :p

I guess on the overall, I just enjoyed out field where time passed faster and having to work
on practical missions to take my mind off time that I couldn't be with jacelyn.

There were some times when I couldn't even make contact with her to have a chat...
now that was not too nice...
Really felt uneasy. I simply can't imagine myself as a regular in the arm forces...
I'd probably go crazy.

Anyway...it's the end of yet another training phase...and I just really want to see my sweetheart soon.

Pity I can't see her today with her arrangements made with her sec sch friend....
but understood...it's been a long time for the frenz to meet so....let it be.

I just hope tomorrow is good and the day after...

I just miss her so much...