What's with today? damn it...

It's been a realy rough day...
I believe this is happening.... all the shit. Got shifted off the travel and had to pass on all my materials and explain stuff to the person taking over. Getting home freaking late and all tried out.
Damn... for what?.... To get me to forget to tell her the change of plans that got me into this ditch today?
This is crazy...
And coz of that she's just thinking that all about the trip was a bluff. Can't believe it...
Didn't really wanna listen to my explanation after getting all pissed off through her SMSes...
And then said she don't care anymore.
What's the problem here now?... I didn't blow her trust or anything. Damn I missed her!...
If I could get near her I would.
Came all the way to the airport just hoping to get to see her an apologise to her...but I guess time and every FREAKING THING ain't on my side!.... I can't reach there in time at 11pm....carried on waiting anyway to see if she was alittle slow in coming out. But Alas!!...30mins passed 11pm. she's prob gone...and with me now...
feel lousy and with the crap day all over me...I'm sitting by the Macdonald's computer this very moment and writing this blog...
grab a cab later and get my ass parked home soon....
Argh....feeling totally ridiculous!

So much for coming over....with some roses for apology to her...what's the use?....damn it!

Sigh....a load of bull crap day!

non-disappearance

~A brief but peaceful period
When life promised,
Held out hope,
Warmed
We thought the corner turned,
Our dreams awakened,
Coming true...
Fulfilled.

But love's fire burned bright
For just a moment
Then quietly died...
Unfuelled.
Perhaps there was little to find
between the both of us, then
Shallow?...

Even so, I still miss you,
An ember remains
reminding me
of joy...~