My acridgashes

~Moments you put me through..
with me loving you like a fool
I would give it I really mean it
time and effort are just my tools..
I'd go crazy to know that you
ain't feeling all that much too well
I'd be your shell oh baby can't you tell
I need you to love me
And I love you more...~

Oh crap a day it's been... exhausion... the maddening rage building inside of me...
confined in the flying tube with wings I can't do yet a thing...
It's just burning inside... burning burning...the combustion just churning...
A wait for an explosion to come...never know when it's gona hit...
I need a coolant...to bring down the fire... and all cutting like barbwire..

Am I going to warp back into the hard...tough.. stone cold masking?...
She was my strength my light...
like the power of the red sun
but yet still my kryptonite...

I have to fight this...I can't let this be
can't let this become of me...
What's it with her and being grouchy these days?... some kinda habit during the holidays?...
Too free isn't good...To busy isn't good either... how is it then to strike a balance in her?...
Only she can deal with it...
Wherever I stood...no matter where I maybe...I'd be there...contactable to her...
when she needs someone to complain things about...
to bitch about... anything at all...but why is it that from that...she turned to being grouchy...
and stay grouchy and treat it like everyone is pissing her off including me when there was nothing I could do...and nothing I did...
all I did was to be there...
If you don't want me to be there for you girl...
tell me so...
I'd just disappear...
to stay friends? what friends?....you treat your friends this way?...
i don't know either...
anyway it's all about you...just you...
your choice...
Though it's like my heart's acridgashes...
aching with all emo slashes...
If it means you feeling better...then so be it...

~All I'd give...
would be roses with petals falling to the ground to smoothen your way...
your well liked Mentos to freshen your day...
and like foot thongs to keep you protected and you dance through
your journey day by day...~