I find being alittle too caught up and concerned in what others want....
could in turn make me not being spontaneous...
a lousy person who has no ideas...
I sat down and think while waiting for the docs...
I realised that many times I had something in mind....
something simple... that might not be appealing as something special
or to go out for... I just smack it down in worry of failure...
unknowingly that failure catches me from the other way
and in a different angle...
WTF...

sigh...maybe I'm just a person who considers too much...
trying to avoid this and that...and in the end...avoided doing everything...
there are things I've planned for....failed and got sick of the mess I created...
there were things I mentioned but couldn't materialise thus filling up disappointment...
so to avoid all those....I headed off to another direction
and the direction met with me avoiding what I wanted...
just some simplicity...a time out from the acad world and to spend time with Min.
It's not that I allow all the work stuff get ahead of the matters deal with her....
just that with some knock on the head and reminders...I'd get back on track..
coz somehow...I see there is a point I might sway due to my worries for this and worries for that....argh...WTF...
Maybe I'm just not good and handling these kinda stuff....maybe I'm just not good at handling time...
well maybe I'm just crap at being a guy that a girl needs...
I just pray that as time goes by....I'd find a way out...out of my head and get things straighten out....
all these headaches...must must go...
before I come tumbling down in all directions...
coz then....any direction...wouldn't matter at all....just down...

For all the big and small things....you have affected me...

For the wonderful
For the simple
For the warming
For the hugs
For the love
For the kisses
For the smiles
For the experience
For thought...
For all the time in the world...
For being understanding when I'm most idiotic...
For being the softest when I've gotten all crazy...
For leaving your foot steps on my sandy rocky path of life...
affecting me ever more...more than any girl could have...
And Most of all....
For being the girl I've loved so much,
just by being you...

Thank you baby...





For the one around to hear my pain, to cry my sorrows. The care that you've given since I saw the world...
The light you brought on to me whenever I strayed off course...
The concern you weekly have for me up 'til now and the constant prayers showered upon me...
For the times I unknowingly made you worry...
For the times I've been bad and caused you pain and supposing anger while you didn't break out in fury...
For the times I've failed and you pulled me up to say I am still able and all are not lost...
For the wonders of answers you've guided me through...
For the skills I've gotten that can't be learnt from any school or any place at all...
For the vast encouragement and determination you've given me the strength for...
I thank you all....mum, dad, grandmas and late granddad....and of course....to my dear late aunty nancy...
Wherever I've been, whatever I've gotten to... the foot steps of you all are always left in the paths of my life and in my heart...

For the ones who have constantly supported me...
hearing me out in times of troubles and aches...
for the ones who have been comforting me in troubled waters....
for the ones who were just there....
You know who you are....
Thank you all!