why is it so difficult?...

Why is it so difficult to let down what you've picked up once before...?
Realising my very state of mind... realising the situation I am in...
I find that my shattered heart can lie to myself no more...
the more I think about it...the more I'd wish for her to be by my side...
now it has reached a stage where I don't know how to express myself when I see her...
coz I'm not sure how to....I've been too used to treat her with affection...
as a friend...beside me... I try to hold back all my actions of affections towards her...
such that my muscles simply cramp at pose not knowing what's the next full action to be...
body confusions....

~Oh gentle winds beneath the moonlit skies
Do you not hear my heart cries?
Do you not sense my fear and doubt?
Do you not hear my woeful screams?
Upon meadows, touched with dew
Do you not see my heart's a'skew?
And under the vast skies of million stars
Do you not feel my jagged scars?
My heart...
Scattered across the moonlit skies
All with heartfelt sighs
Drifting in the gentle rain
A symbol of my silen pain
It's lost among the stars this night
Too far to ease my quiet fright
Oh no gentle winds
seek not my heart
For very simply....
It has...
I am...
my gentle heart...
has torn apart...~

My dedication...

As I sat down by the windy beach side...
The breeze and the rushing of the waves...
then a little white dog came by...
reminded me of the day when you and I first came to the beach
with a little dog too...a little white dog...
somehow u keep coming to mind... somehow there's something
left attached to you...
My heart... and thus I write....

~The sky can collapse on us
and the earth can cave
Little does it matter to me if you love me
My surrounding disappears...

As long as love flood my morning
As my body will quiver beneath your hands
Problems matter so little
My dear 'coz you love me...

I'd go through and way pass my limits
To the ends of the earth
beyond the sights of the horizon
if you asked me to...

To just be for us...
perfect for you for me
taking things on a slow
one step at a time...~

"I wouldn't say that I can't live without you...
but I chose not to...
No matter how much it takes..."

minzie cuts

just passed midnite..
Min got a cut on her foot...
Didn't hear the SMS comin' in while I was on the way home...
I was worried when I got to know about it.
the very next reaction was to get out of my house and see how she was

maybe I'd just go down and see her tomorrow... or maybe get her some chee cheong fan too...
her craving for that. But that depends on what time work is done for me...
Hope it's just a cut...nothing more than that...