Jialat

And I'll be out of sight for a few days in the month of Jan...
haiz...
seems to me the migraines coming back...
I might be evolving...
with the cocktail of insomnia and imbalance hours...
I might just simply say I'm quite screwed...

With the silence of the night...
I lay tucked tight under blankets
feeling the coldness and emptiness within.
The sudden feel of pressure building
in this coming year...
like never before.
Challenges after challenges...
feats after feats...
the more I accomplish the more I step forward for more...

But what is it that I'm working for?
Sometimes I wonder about the days when I keep going...
what was it that I see for tomorrow?

Yes some dream of my own creation...
Some thoughts of a great empire...but will that even happen?

How do I go about it all?....hmmm....

this year...the mark of me on the take over...
to boost and make soaring monetary flow... not for me....but for the company I work for.
I aim to hit 100k in percentage for personal profits....how I go about that?....
I think and think constantly....everyday....every night...
haven't found something right...

I think as Jace is on the work for her studies...
I'll just let her focus while I seek fortune for 2008.
I want to have a house and a car of my own by age 30...
I'll be mobile... on the move everywhere to seek 'gold'...
somewhere I will find...
But really....at this point....
I do need a break somehow....sometime...
And June might be a good time to do that...
And plan my route for attaining my targets I will...

c'mon....I just need to freeze my brain alittle and then let loose for creativity
to run wild again....

Very frustrated at the moment...with no answers...
sigh...