sometimes I just wonder if I'm even of standard...
like am I taking too long to allow things to be realised?
or is it that in some ways, I'm always in need of time to deal with things
and somehow, time isn't at all friendly towards me...

Sometimes I just wanna say how much I wanna do this and that with you,
but yet I'm afraid of the time needed for me to get it materialised makes things worst...
yet again not saying it at all makes it seem I don't bother...
or that I'm not interested...
While the fact is that I wish I materialise going out of singapore, doing something that only the both of us
can be doing together...
God I'm so confused...what is a solution?

within singapore, things are rather restricted...
at my current status, things are limited, like cash... time...
so I find the only way to whatever to materialise would be working towards it...
and that requires time...which I wanna be granted...

Is there a way for all of this?...
fastest...shortest route...
I'm not bothered abt the pain...just wanna get where I wanna be and get what I wanna have materialised with my special one.

sigh...