Almost 4 in the morning...
And I'm up reading my stuff
self warded for observation...
Just wanna deal with my problems
bring it not to her.
I need this
Almost dying without internet communications
took a short walk around with my trusty Mac
found a Macdonalds and parked my ass there.
Nurse thought I just went off for a toilet break.
Needed to check somethings out for awhile.
I had to do it.
They getting worried but whata heck...
since when what people thought should matter so much to me...
coz when what I felt or thought...didn't matter much to others...
they wanna study me...well... just allow me this short time split.
I'm dying.
I'm disturbed but yet, I guess I'm ready for whatever may come...
My life has been already a swirl so come what may...
like however shit tomorrow is, tomorrow will still come
so just deal with it and get on with my walk.
Just had an SMS session with my dearest awhile ago
and I came to my own conclusion that I just wanna try perk things up...
but how hard is it gona be
How is life gona be by doing so...
trying is a decision I'd make
acceptance will her part to 'make or break' whatever issues there may be.
I may not be the most romantic person to sweep her off her feet
May not be the player skilled to get her crazily in love with
May not be the cash flowing person to materially pamper her...
but I dare say I will be the person who will be there to take care of her with my life at all conditions...
Then again a voice echos back saying that it's afterall not every young girl's dream
to my dismay, once again, what I thought was good stuff acts in a complete opposite direction towards me...
I guess let me first set my migraine shit right...
my mental health...then come back stronger in the new week to come...
With this...I driving off my parking lot and lay down in observation bad with things plugged all over...
and people constantly watching me while I stare at the ceiling above...
Oh life...spare me the pains...
click me off...fast forward...
for me to come back in tuned and well...
ready to take on the month of academic war, EXAMS!
oh F**K it...
JUST DO IT!