Just another few blocks of words... for the needy

~We both saw the world in black and white...
no colour, no light...
All the pain and hurt inside
getting over, together we might...
You find twisted logic in your life,
for you, solutions I'd find...

I know the hardest, oh yes the hardest part
was letting go, not taking part
I went through all these...
my heart, pain to feast.
Now I see you so broken down...
I'll be there to lift your frowns...

Let's not look back
Let's get back on track...
I'll hold your hand and pull you on
No matter how hard it is to get going on...
Life is too short to give up all
'coz of a fallen tree
In difficulty, in pain and in need,
Remember, look behind and there is me.~

blood boiling office day!

Damn...today some people were constantly trying to boiling my blood!
argh.... idiots!
This other person on attachment was getting on my nerves! damn shit!
Having know nuts about programming and file type conversion, bloody acting as if he knew what was going on...thus screwing up my computer programme and still dare ask me to relax 'coz he got the solution to his screw up.
Ass!....Can't believe it!
Don't know say don't know....don't touch and screw up my work! ARgh!!!!!
When I was done witht he conversion...pretending that someone else wants to know how I did it wouldn't help you find the answers boy!
And so I said..."If the technician seeks to find out how I did it... ask him to come find me personally and I put him on a crash course! enough said..."

Optimizing...If I must....going through some thoughts...

Taking some time off the night to think...
Think about the weekend that has just passed...
I guess no matter what had happened.
Pain?... hurt?... regret?...Failure?...
Whatever...
This weekend angled me to look differently.
All these bad stuff that brought me falling....
being in troubled waters and totally gotten me whacked,
however didn't exactly pushed me down straight to the ditch.
A new positive perspective...
In every calamity that I may face, with time and some serious thought...
I'd get only stronger... more hardy...
That should be the ME all along right?...
I've been an optimist back in the sporting days...
Can't I just apply it all in my life just like that?....as in the same mindset?
I know I can...

Dare to walk in..then I must dare to walk out easily... in confidence...
There are many things in life to deal with...why just get stuck on one issue and put everything else on a standstill? Gotta keep movin'...
relationships...sigh... she meant alot to me... I wanted to give her the best I could in time to come, but if in reality I don't mean shit to her, why force it in the first place?...
Just flow it through.... if it comes to and I am accepting, good... if it goes and never comes back so be it... let it be.
My love for her maybe there... but I'm getting numb... I don't know when the time limit is though...but,..hmmm...
in time if nothing saves it... it's just hit the spot of me just not wanting to cross the line anymore... too painful?...well maybe. See her feeling that it's so suffering being with me?.... well maybe... Whatever!
Just when that time comes... The feeling will just slice off...
If things are to come back in again...it'll really take some work to get it going... if that's even possible.
Anyway.... how long can love be when it's a one way street?... Don't know.. we'll find out.

I guess I've tried... let's just be...I'm too tired now.
Though I miss those times very much, but what to do....
Life isn't smooth. So just screw the expectations and just get myself moving.
ever cross each other again...hmm we'll see then.

AS for now...
I'm just gona sway myself through Capoeira and the very thing she wonderously inspired me to do...Salsa! Funny how things change huh... me and dance?...argh.. odd stuff but whata heck...willing try. It's all about the "scare myself once in a while" thingy right?....hahaha
But in a softer form...less dangerous...less aggressive...all in a different point of view.

Cheers!