I haven't felt this painful feeling for a long time...
sadistically...it feels good...
but hear me out...
my feeling of missing somebody...
the emotional yearning...
horrible isn't it?...
But...
yet...
I'd rather feel the pain missin' *you
than not having you to miss at all...

In life...
however difficult...
The force, the determination, the focus, the strength...
the will...
to take the very next step is yet very important.
thinking back of the time when I had to deal with disabilities unknown to many then...
back slip disc...if that's what they call it...knee ligament tear on both legs...right shoulder
dislocation...
oh man...you name it...
even the ribs fracture...where at times the pain can be ridiculous....
I still headed off to a dream of being in power...and in control...
And I managed...
1) free lance racing/stunt : physically challenging and mentally draining in many ways
Times where you find that things may be just impossible
you get it done....proving "impossible is nothing"
2) starting off 3 racing teams locally & internationally : time consuming and mentally
challenging. Time management
and physical limits tested...
when you find that you'd knock
out in bed with no dreams.
3) Officership in SAFTI MI : Totally mental to bring about the term "Mind over matter"
like a fighting machine on faulty movement mechanisms...
yet still fighting 'til the end.

Now thinking of it all....I also feel tired.
hahahahaa....