Thinking...of you...

Thinking. Can't stop thinking.
Think of you. This and That.
My Life that day.
That dream was mine.
You gave me light
like I was being struck my lightning
awaken I was.
Burning so hot, so intensely
exploding every emotions in me...
like a star the dark pitch black sky
You were a star in my eyes
Yet like stars...your intensity's gone...
Loosening the pull of you to me...
Dry it became thus came friction.
Leaving me dazed, confused...
and without true reality
There lonesome I sat...
wondering....
just wondering....
and reaching out into the emptiness...
for the star that once lit my way in life....
will there be a birth of new light in this darkness?...
I sit alone...just waiting....

Home coming...

Exhausion brought me into some trance...
head was swaying and suddenly I saw everything like a whirlpool....
The very next moment was darkness....
didn't know I just knocked out for a straight 3hrs! hahaa...but woke up to a bad dream...

Something about me and dreams somehow...
a spark in that other world
and the twitch of my eyelids...
getting me to fear what could be coming...directly or indirectly to me...
lucky thing this time there wasn't anything wrong with my eyelids...phew!

hahaa...

Anyway...it's about time...in a couple of hours...I'd be home bound...back to the place I'd call home... within closer radius of people I care for and the person I wanna care for and be as near as possible to.
closer the range the better...

Sigh...I miss her so...
she told me she lack rest today...her grouchiness..and the nagging of her mum...
wish I could just take it all away and have those upon me while she keeps her smiles and joy.
finaly to the end of her day...when she can take a break and finally rest...Alas! noisy people shakes her mind giving her no rest...and she's feverish...
catching a cold I guess....
probably from sunday's rain...
wanna take care of her... watch over her....as she sleeps...taking away all the distractions and disturbance and let her rest like a baby...

"Oh lord...may the discomfort and sleepless nights
befall me instead of those I care for...
For I'd better deal with it as I've already been in it all along...
One man takes on the rest...while
they keep the best..."

"Their smiles are already a comfort to my heart..."

Oh yes...today I got a call from some modelling agency...asking me to join them...
damn it they must be blind folks....
me?...whata hell right?... =/
go there and paiseh...