as i sit quietly on my desk....trying to revise through the semester worth of power electronics...
feeling horrible for tickling Min...and making her feel suffocated in the process...
carried away with all the tickling one another...
I crossed the line...

and I'm feeling she must be pissed off now...

Anyway...besides that whole thing...
I'm on the verge of giving up after having today's paper... think I'm hard stuck on another semester extention in this horrid place...
I really hope not...
and tmr's power electronics isn't helping at all...
turning mad... mad very soon..
it's not about the things to remember....it's the concepts and the amount of things to gulp down all at one go...
the more I go through the more I feel I'm forgetting stuff...and
the more I feel less confident...
Freaking tired...
3 days in a row...
deep inside I'm seriously very depressed though I'm trying hard not to show it...
walking around smiling and stuff... but really... I'm depressed coz' I can't find a way out to this... take it and fail it? or don't take it at all, do it the next semester...either ways it's retaking... but trying it this time gives me a percentage...small percentage of getting through with it...

Argh!...
I'm doomed...The december is getting more shitty packed up with more sch stuff than relaxation....
FYP...my design report to try save myself through a report redemption....hope that actually works....and fighting to build and grasp a website contract to earn me some extra....esp when I'm super low on cash now...

killing me...

just wanna let everything go and have some time for myself....for the things I wanna do...
I just wanna go to sentosa beach....lay there and slack the day under the sun... having no worries and bothered by anything...just enjoy the breeze and the sun...

longing for that....coming from the fact that the may to july wasn't a break at all for me but rather horrible load of crap events befalling... with so much to deal with... Come to think of it...december '06...is supposed to be my last holiday...
and this is what it has to become...

Well done....well done!... better off dead...