Somehow today seems empty...
closed a few deals...scolded a few sickening workers to get their butt movin'..
cleared up work...helped some stranger lady to fix her tires in the middle of the road...
explained some conceptual crap to somebody about starting up business...
and back home in the emotional irony.
bottled up emptiness...
is that even possible?
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Simply crazy...just so so crazy...
"She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now
Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you"
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now
Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you"
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
The ringings in my ear when I'm away...
The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever I’m away
I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when I'll be back
Back to you
I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance
I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever I’m away
I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when I'll be back
Back to you
I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance
I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough
Monday, December 24, 2007
If I could turn back time...
***************************************************************
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you're just about to walk though my door
So what's the question now?
Oh baby please tell me how?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have said
that you would give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Are you turning away?
So is there some pride that makes you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
It's a lie what you keep inside
I hope this is not how you want to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I just want you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll just wait for you
If it's all true
***********************************************************
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you're just about to walk though my door
So what's the question now?
Oh baby please tell me how?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have said
that you would give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Are you turning away?
So is there some pride that makes you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
It's a lie what you keep inside
I hope this is not how you want to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I just want you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll just wait for you
If it's all true
***********************************************************
Sunday, December 23, 2007
The weird networking of a third world country...
reception comes and goes like I never know what will happen next.
some of them simply uses the SMS protocol to connect to other countries...
some of them still have use an operator to do a call over
some of them use some super high powered transmitter which probably burn the cells
out of me just by being next to it.
Making it all so difficult to make contact some times...
Isolating me to just me and my thoughts...
sometimes it's just fortunate I get to some beeping cable contact to get online...
just for awhile...in some broken down shop...
all these simply pushes me out of the country very much....unless I'm looking for a getaway
where nobody can get me.
Into the wilderness....
the wild and darkness..
like into the depth of phi phi before it was developed alittle...
and all you have was just the tweety birds and cool fresh breeze that rushes in from nature's air welling.
And the morning dew shimmering cool drop into the bright new day...
But for now...when I'm not on a getaway...
I'll need to get connected....always!
reception comes and goes like I never know what will happen next.
some of them simply uses the SMS protocol to connect to other countries...
some of them still have use an operator to do a call over
some of them use some super high powered transmitter which probably burn the cells
out of me just by being next to it.
Making it all so difficult to make contact some times...
Isolating me to just me and my thoughts...
sometimes it's just fortunate I get to some beeping cable contact to get online...
just for awhile...in some broken down shop...
all these simply pushes me out of the country very much....unless I'm looking for a getaway
where nobody can get me.
Into the wilderness....
the wild and darkness..
like into the depth of phi phi before it was developed alittle...
and all you have was just the tweety birds and cool fresh breeze that rushes in from nature's air welling.
And the morning dew shimmering cool drop into the bright new day...
But for now...when I'm not on a getaway...
I'll need to get connected....always!
Coming back to the moments in time...
____________________________________________________________
The feelings of the little moments
____________________________________________________________
Sra Srang was a sight
the silence so quiet I felt left beyond understanding
But yet the sunset
I feel the warmth of you
And as light fills the sky
like the imagery of you in my mind..
As the rest sit about in drinks and laughter
I stood in the moment...
appreciating the every second of closeness I had...
now that I am away
an hour behind... and 3hrs apart
Oh I wanna just be back
And soon I will
____________________________________________________
The year's ending... and it just crossed my mind that it was a flash that this year passes...
So quickly... it just swifts away. So much have changed, so much have been done yet not enough.
Like the biggest change from being a student to being a full time dog to the corporate rat race...
And then from being just free lance programmer to being an asst manager to being a marketing manager
and then finally to be a regional manager of a group of companies.
Different kinds of pressure digging in with different forms of stresses...studies and scholarships to targets, earnings,
profits and empire expansions...well of course in the consistent mind kept over finding this special one.
Sometimes people ask me along the way, what my greatest achievements were...
I pause...
I realised I haven't made any. Beyond those egoistic empowerment of strong teams, great winnings, high reaches over
over physical and mental challenges... I haven't found simplicity.
I guess I still need to find balance... or some automated system to clear all the piling up load that I have
while I just bring on the brave front to move forward everyday and end the day with the smiles at home...
soon my very own home...
Like the day is a warfare and the night & weekends becomes peace and soothing comfort in the fortress of my own
sharing the minutes and seconds with that special one and the special little ones thereafter.
Oh well...
These days with inflation and rising cost of living...
It's getting harder and harder to plan for things to happen especially when what you can afford today, you can't tomorrow.
Next year's resolution...
-To rev the engines legally
-settle down my office for operational smoothness
-find a snowballing effective plan
-to look at life and survival at a different angle
-take a good holiday some time to revive the senses (cost not considered)
-most of all to walk my life, sharing it with someone else
That's all for now.... :)
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Imagine being a Mr amongst just too many Dr in a discussion of fluid mechanics...
AND I SELL PUMPS FOR FLUID TRANSFER!!!...
Good gracious! can you imagine that?... who am I to kid?
well...I still kid them and they bought the theories and resolution I came up with anyway...
It seems to them that amongst the group I emerged most resourceful...
But anyway...they are customers...so it's damn it my job to be more resourceful right?
hahaha....weird feeling in all that today...
dressed in forma business attire while I headed off in the rain into the fields of PUB water plant sites for testings
and problem solving....digging my hands in mud and soily water to find the meaning of filtration...
Oh I'm so darn tired...with countless calls ringing and vibrating the side of my freakin' groin when the pocket had to
slip right in...gave me the jump.
Well...but then again the most soothing voice did come and it made the day all bright again....hehe..
and then came some window shopping at the end of the day... and to top it off...
I think the feeling is getting more mutual...
Ok I like that thought...
and though my tummy is on the upset and nausea....it's good enough medication for me to keep me smiling...
HOHOHOOO...
=)
AND I SELL PUMPS FOR FLUID TRANSFER!!!...
Good gracious! can you imagine that?... who am I to kid?
well...I still kid them and they bought the theories and resolution I came up with anyway...
It seems to them that amongst the group I emerged most resourceful...
But anyway...they are customers...so it's damn it my job to be more resourceful right?
hahaha....weird feeling in all that today...
dressed in forma business attire while I headed off in the rain into the fields of PUB water plant sites for testings
and problem solving....digging my hands in mud and soily water to find the meaning of filtration...
Oh I'm so darn tired...with countless calls ringing and vibrating the side of my freakin' groin when the pocket had to
slip right in...gave me the jump.
Well...but then again the most soothing voice did come and it made the day all bright again....hehe..
and then came some window shopping at the end of the day... and to top it off...
I think the feeling is getting more mutual...
Ok I like that thought...
and though my tummy is on the upset and nausea....it's good enough medication for me to keep me smiling...
HOHOHOOO...
=)
Sunday, December 02, 2007
The run today was perfectly good...except for some small blisters caused by the sock...
considering the superb lack of training this year....I think well...
it's all good.
taken my mind well off some issues hangin'...
I'm like afraid that I might not be even able to spend christmas in Singapore.
I think that isn't much of an issue to many people...
but I guess for me...I'd wanna be in Singapore coz Jace is around.
At least I can try dig out time to spend with her in some way or other...
Well it's nothing much, as least it's something I will wanna work on with my work schedule.
Spent the whole of last week think and searching a gift for her just in case I'm not back in time...
WAh....goodness...trying to get girls stuff can be real complicated.
Not that I haven't gotten any girl anything but...this time is different.
And I was looking around all by myself...
Going ito girlie stores and female section...getting weird looking stares...people thinking
that I'm kinda going for some conversion....EEEeeew...never!
But yesterday, I finally found something...something simple.
And I guess the packaging would need some work....maybe just alittle...hahaha...
with alittle Poem slipped in.
Hope she likes it..
Oh well..
And today will be also the end of my 14 days of taking over the role of Daddy and Mummy in the house...
I only had time for just 1 experiment though....which I think my grandma and sis with her boyfriend found it
very nice...cool....
ok maybe just alittle sharing of it...
It's my own French Clear Onion Soup...
hahaha
Here it goes...
----------------------------------
-2 BigWhite Onion stripped
-3 big Pink Onion stripped
-1 small shallot stripped
-2 garlic minced
-Olive Butter
(if there is some white wine it will be good to let the onion cook in it with the butter)
Fry the top ingredients until the onions and tender and slightly brown.
Boil the bottom ingredients together under slow fire
-Fresh Thyme, Italian parsley & bay leaves tied together
-a pinch of dried rosemary
- 2 tablespoon Apple cider vinegar
-1.25 liter chicken broth
-3/4 teaspoon salt
-1 teaspoon brown sugar
-2 tablespoon Dubonnet
(if there is some beef cubes it will be best)
Once the onions are ready, combine the onions and stock together and let it all boil through.
Keep stirring to prevent the onions from burning at the bottom.
The Soup will slowly have a nice light sooth of sweet onion flavour.
Add alittle pepper to taste....and viola! It's done!
________________________________________________
Feel daring for the day...go try it. hahaha....
considering the superb lack of training this year....I think well...
it's all good.
taken my mind well off some issues hangin'...
I'm like afraid that I might not be even able to spend christmas in Singapore.
I think that isn't much of an issue to many people...
but I guess for me...I'd wanna be in Singapore coz Jace is around.
At least I can try dig out time to spend with her in some way or other...
Well it's nothing much, as least it's something I will wanna work on with my work schedule.
Spent the whole of last week think and searching a gift for her just in case I'm not back in time...
WAh....goodness...trying to get girls stuff can be real complicated.
Not that I haven't gotten any girl anything but...this time is different.
And I was looking around all by myself...
Going ito girlie stores and female section...getting weird looking stares...people thinking
that I'm kinda going for some conversion....EEEeeew...never!
But yesterday, I finally found something...something simple.
And I guess the packaging would need some work....maybe just alittle...hahaha...
with alittle Poem slipped in.
Hope she likes it..
Oh well..
And today will be also the end of my 14 days of taking over the role of Daddy and Mummy in the house...
I only had time for just 1 experiment though....which I think my grandma and sis with her boyfriend found it
very nice...cool....
ok maybe just alittle sharing of it...
It's my own French Clear Onion Soup...
hahaha
Here it goes...
----------------------------------
-2 BigWhite Onion stripped
-3 big Pink Onion stripped
-1 small shallot stripped
-2 garlic minced
-Olive Butter
(if there is some white wine it will be good to let the onion cook in it with the butter)
Fry the top ingredients until the onions and tender and slightly brown.
Boil the bottom ingredients together under slow fire
-Fresh Thyme, Italian parsley & bay leaves tied together
-a pinch of dried rosemary
- 2 tablespoon Apple cider vinegar
-1.25 liter chicken broth
-3/4 teaspoon salt
-1 teaspoon brown sugar
-2 tablespoon Dubonnet
(if there is some beef cubes it will be best)
Once the onions are ready, combine the onions and stock together and let it all boil through.
Keep stirring to prevent the onions from burning at the bottom.
The Soup will slowly have a nice light sooth of sweet onion flavour.
Add alittle pepper to taste....and viola! It's done!
________________________________________________
Feel daring for the day...go try it. hahaha....
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
I think...
I found the reason for me...
to change who I used to be...
Coz' I'm no perfect person...
Like I start over anew...
did you know that it's you?
Comfortably rested on my couch
wind flowin' through the room gushin' the air
listening to 'Innocence' just without you there...
In the moments...you were missed...
I found the reason for me...
to change who I used to be...
Coz' I'm no perfect person...
Like I start over anew...
did you know that it's you?
Comfortably rested on my couch
wind flowin' through the room gushin' the air
listening to 'Innocence' just without you there...
In the moments...you were missed...
Monday, November 26, 2007
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Phew! Just returned from a long hideous trip...
a time in Hanoi...
in the biggest hotel. Daewoo Hotel.
A Korean & Vietnamese merged Hotel which was built on top of a lake...
thus making the darn place ever sinking and slopes caused by the terrain movements.
Well but anyway...the trip was really worth while as I managed to cover alot of things there.
Basically hit off as the hotel's soon to be maintenance, machines and equipments supplier.
Who cool is that?. It's like taking the Hotel as the stepping stone to the rest of Hanoi,
covering every other inch of it....well before I hit at Ho Chin Mihn at least.
But I must say...the north is filled with the cocky bunch.
argh....boiled my blood teaching and doing demo for them.
Anyway....it was all a twist of fate.
Imagine arriving in a 3rd world country, having no accomodation planned...due to the lack of vacancy.
Spent the whole late afternoon and evening talking and discussing on issues with the customers I had to meet.
Never did I expect to have the Director/GM of the Hotel trying to squeeze me into the executive business suite
at a 60% discount net....and with all my meals and transport paid for...
And on top of that...giving me a complimentary bottle of Chilean red wine with a plate full of cheese and crackers...
sweet!
But....gosh! the work in the day I had to go through was really...and I mean really killing...
so much of talking with so little info going into those folks' head....goodness me.
Oh well...I'm beat...
turning in earlier for once...
a time in Hanoi...
in the biggest hotel. Daewoo Hotel.
A Korean & Vietnamese merged Hotel which was built on top of a lake...
thus making the darn place ever sinking and slopes caused by the terrain movements.
Well but anyway...the trip was really worth while as I managed to cover alot of things there.
Basically hit off as the hotel's soon to be maintenance, machines and equipments supplier.
Who cool is that?. It's like taking the Hotel as the stepping stone to the rest of Hanoi,
covering every other inch of it....well before I hit at Ho Chin Mihn at least.
But I must say...the north is filled with the cocky bunch.
argh....boiled my blood teaching and doing demo for them.
Anyway....it was all a twist of fate.
Imagine arriving in a 3rd world country, having no accomodation planned...due to the lack of vacancy.
Spent the whole late afternoon and evening talking and discussing on issues with the customers I had to meet.
Never did I expect to have the Director/GM of the Hotel trying to squeeze me into the executive business suite
at a 60% discount net....and with all my meals and transport paid for...
And on top of that...giving me a complimentary bottle of Chilean red wine with a plate full of cheese and crackers...
sweet!
But....gosh! the work in the day I had to go through was really...and I mean really killing...
so much of talking with so little info going into those folks' head....goodness me.
Oh well...I'm beat...
turning in earlier for once...
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Somehow I'm starting to sense some crap somewhere
I think at some point... there ain't any point in explaining certain issues or even to say offer anything...
Doesn't seem to be worthwhile in the first place.
Especially when it trigger adverse reaction.
It doesn't pay to be bothering about the well being of others sometimes.
If that's the case...might as well F***ing screw it.
Basically now it brings me to some feeling that
there some people who simply just got too much air to be held that in such a way
seemingly can't accept the pure fact that one has to take on some learning process.
As if the foundation doesn't have to be built for a stable building block.
That no matter how much I care about knocking good info into the head...
it just bounces out like a thick numb skull...
Yet again too afraid to feedback even alittle bit, but fang screw your ass from the other end.
Otherwise it would be a harbouring cancer waiting to explode.
Putting in a few levels for thought...
"reaching your hands into a black box to save a calling serpent...
gets you totally no where. You don't see what's inside, you don't know what you're saving"
My utter disappointment I must say...
coz I think what I've been seeing is just a pure mask...
oh well...what's the point of it all....what's the point...huh?...
~watching the trail of broken petals
from a pair of asian flowers
one after another as I pick...
each tatter tells a story.
partial wonder and mostly sad.
What am I to say
But to put in nature's way...
Yet most often than not...
it's the hand that once plucked and caressed in care...
but the index points to the storm right there
the blame and cause of the petals torn~
What you thought you learnt well..
What you thought you saw well...
it may just merely be a shell.
Where within the core,
what one day arises,
others will see and everything once built is just fallen rubbish.
Brought to a forcing needle point...
will the colours of poison be shown
alittle more push could surface an in grown worm within...
digging into the ruins of the hollow hearted.
You know who you are...
The more silent you become
the more obvious it shows
yet when the voicing is ever done...
all around will know...
I think at some point... there ain't any point in explaining certain issues or even to say offer anything...
Doesn't seem to be worthwhile in the first place.
Especially when it trigger adverse reaction.
It doesn't pay to be bothering about the well being of others sometimes.
If that's the case...might as well F***ing screw it.
Basically now it brings me to some feeling that
there some people who simply just got too much air to be held that in such a way
seemingly can't accept the pure fact that one has to take on some learning process.
As if the foundation doesn't have to be built for a stable building block.
That no matter how much I care about knocking good info into the head...
it just bounces out like a thick numb skull...
Yet again too afraid to feedback even alittle bit, but fang screw your ass from the other end.
Otherwise it would be a harbouring cancer waiting to explode.
Putting in a few levels for thought...
"reaching your hands into a black box to save a calling serpent...
gets you totally no where. You don't see what's inside, you don't know what you're saving"
My utter disappointment I must say...
coz I think what I've been seeing is just a pure mask...
oh well...what's the point of it all....what's the point...huh?...
~watching the trail of broken petals
from a pair of asian flowers
one after another as I pick...
each tatter tells a story.
partial wonder and mostly sad.
What am I to say
But to put in nature's way...
Yet most often than not...
it's the hand that once plucked and caressed in care...
but the index points to the storm right there
the blame and cause of the petals torn~
What you thought you learnt well..
What you thought you saw well...
it may just merely be a shell.
Where within the core,
what one day arises,
others will see and everything once built is just fallen rubbish.
Brought to a forcing needle point...
will the colours of poison be shown
alittle more push could surface an in grown worm within...
digging into the ruins of the hollow hearted.
You know who you are...
The more silent you become
the more obvious it shows
yet when the voicing is ever done...
all around will know...
Monday, November 19, 2007
I think I'd say that this weekend was simply great...
a good fried rice experimentation...
a good work week ending...
Most of all...
a great date.
was like I wished it didn't have to end at all...
'Beowulf' wasn't that much of a great show to catch...
but I didn't mind...
food this time was simple at Simply Thai and TCC...
yet it didn't really get to me that the coffee was not thick enough
or the softshell crab wasn't tastier...
Coz most of all...Jace was there.
Through my so busy schedules, I haven't found time to meet up with her...
just made sure that I'd call her and SMSed her everyday...
have been talking alot to her, but yet...
once I caught sight of her...I felt a whole rush of feels just swarmed...
But I guess, I just had to keep the cool...
if not I'd just run to her and give her a big hug...
probably give her a shock...
Oh well...it's going back to reality of work tomorrow...but yet I'm not complaining...
I like the challenge everyday...fighting for figures, business at war, searching for possible opportunities.
Yet I think I'd just hold a little of my fantasy in one small part of my mind...keepin' this weekend living.
Erhmm....at least just for awhile longer.
=)
a good fried rice experimentation...
a good work week ending...
Most of all...
a great date.
was like I wished it didn't have to end at all...
'Beowulf' wasn't that much of a great show to catch...
but I didn't mind...
food this time was simple at Simply Thai and TCC...
yet it didn't really get to me that the coffee was not thick enough
or the softshell crab wasn't tastier...
Coz most of all...Jace was there.
Through my so busy schedules, I haven't found time to meet up with her...
just made sure that I'd call her and SMSed her everyday...
have been talking alot to her, but yet...
once I caught sight of her...I felt a whole rush of feels just swarmed...
But I guess, I just had to keep the cool...
if not I'd just run to her and give her a big hug...
probably give her a shock...
Oh well...it's going back to reality of work tomorrow...but yet I'm not complaining...
I like the challenge everyday...fighting for figures, business at war, searching for possible opportunities.
Yet I think I'd just hold a little of my fantasy in one small part of my mind...keepin' this weekend living.
Erhmm....at least just for awhile longer.
=)
Friday, November 16, 2007
Cosmetic is everything...
This week, I learnt many new things...most of all,
impregnating diamond dusts with some hard fabric...and it simply does wonders!
I never realised some pad used to swish around the floor could be something so darn expensive!
but seeing the results of the works...Alamak...cheap lah...
People nowadays ...all wanna look good, feel good or act beyond their status...
that's where cosmetics are important... well of course I'm not saying that I'm dealing with make ups, face creams
and stuff like that....
I deal more with the bigger issues....buildings, streets, offices, aircrafts, cruises, spas....blah blah blah....
Spent the whole freaking week understanding the effects of scrubbing and friction on different stones, tile materials
and all those artificial flooring that make a building like a freaking palace...oh well..maybe I'd say a palace...coz,
you talk about brunei...my business is basically in the palace...hahaha...
Tiring...but I guess it's all worth it....
And so I've found yet another niche business....and a selling point to look at.
just got to work on the pricing...to get people to accept such pricing for a simple looking thing that does wonders...
oh well...more demo to do then....
*sweat*
Next week...it would be vietnam for me....Cooling Hanoi...maybe to some people....cold....hahaha....15 degress...is gona be
SHIOK!
impregnating diamond dusts with some hard fabric...and it simply does wonders!
I never realised some pad used to swish around the floor could be something so darn expensive!
but seeing the results of the works...Alamak...cheap lah...
People nowadays ...all wanna look good, feel good or act beyond their status...
that's where cosmetics are important... well of course I'm not saying that I'm dealing with make ups, face creams
and stuff like that....
I deal more with the bigger issues....buildings, streets, offices, aircrafts, cruises, spas....blah blah blah....
Spent the whole freaking week understanding the effects of scrubbing and friction on different stones, tile materials
and all those artificial flooring that make a building like a freaking palace...oh well..maybe I'd say a palace...coz,
you talk about brunei...my business is basically in the palace...hahaha...
Tiring...but I guess it's all worth it....
And so I've found yet another niche business....and a selling point to look at.
just got to work on the pricing...to get people to accept such pricing for a simple looking thing that does wonders...
oh well...more demo to do then....
*sweat*
Next week...it would be vietnam for me....Cooling Hanoi...maybe to some people....cold....hahaha....15 degress...is gona be
SHIOK!
Saturday, November 10, 2007
The week has been a tough one I must say...
real tough...
But yet very interesting on the overall...
strategizing sales... cornering deals and making sure that I cover all aspects
in order not to be cheated off my pocket when dealing with
scheming people...
Some sickos could actually think that they could just fake me into looking at short term huge figures
and not think about the administrative regulations and possible consequences...
Oh well...just have to keep my eyes opened wide...
Esp when they are talking in terms of millions....and they aren't talking about the currency
called....Dong...
total in USD. well of coz USD ain't much to think about these days....but whata heck right?
still money....
better still if it was Euro
hahahaa....
or the pound?.....lol
real tough...
But yet very interesting on the overall...
strategizing sales... cornering deals and making sure that I cover all aspects
in order not to be cheated off my pocket when dealing with
scheming people...
Some sickos could actually think that they could just fake me into looking at short term huge figures
and not think about the administrative regulations and possible consequences...
Oh well...just have to keep my eyes opened wide...
Esp when they are talking in terms of millions....and they aren't talking about the currency
called....Dong...
total in USD. well of coz USD ain't much to think about these days....but whata heck right?
still money....
better still if it was Euro
hahahaa....
or the pound?.....lol
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Today...this night...
I lay tossin
and turnin...
my mind unending journey of thoughts
and burns of what I'm left without...
Little moments...
just little moments I lay...
through the darkness of this day...
as the night's thunders roar...
my mind wonderin'
am I on the right path?
what this year end means for me?
How my path leads to?
Shit!
Does this kinda phase thoughts just slip in every now and then?...
or is it like some self critics to just get myself move faster?....
Dunoo...
I lay tossin
and turnin...
my mind unending journey of thoughts
and burns of what I'm left without...
Little moments...
just little moments I lay...
through the darkness of this day...
as the night's thunders roar...
my mind wonderin'
am I on the right path?
what this year end means for me?
How my path leads to?
Shit!
Does this kinda phase thoughts just slip in every now and then?...
or is it like some self critics to just get myself move faster?....
Dunoo...
Friday, November 02, 2007
A very very fruitful but tiring trip I just had!...
Just in a trip to Malaysia and my boss and I have dug out quite a handful of business opportunities that are for long term...
flat against competitors...
Think we got many people unhappy....coz they lost a bite in the business...
Main purpose was to shake people off the advancing route and let the shrewd and the underhanded 'die a natural death'...
Plainly to say....stay on your own road, or we will start moving in yours and kick you out of your range!
Was really some eye opener too...especially when it comes to one on one dog fight, in direct competition with competitor
in front of a major customer...
It all had to be damn fierce but professional...strictly professional I say....hahahaa
Just in a trip to Malaysia and my boss and I have dug out quite a handful of business opportunities that are for long term...
flat against competitors...
Think we got many people unhappy....coz they lost a bite in the business...
Main purpose was to shake people off the advancing route and let the shrewd and the underhanded 'die a natural death'...
Plainly to say....stay on your own road, or we will start moving in yours and kick you out of your range!
Was really some eye opener too...especially when it comes to one on one dog fight, in direct competition with competitor
in front of a major customer...
It all had to be damn fierce but professional...strictly professional I say....hahahaa
Thursday, November 01, 2007
And here I take off once again...through the vast lands of asia...
This time is a way back to the Empire hotel where one of the best rooms are found...
Trust me....it's world class. But the room is way too big for just one person...
hit there for a day just to be back in Singapore for an event and just leaving tomorrow morning at 6.15am
to Port Klang.
On a mission...
what's new right? But this time to try striking the great deals and future business dealings with Star Cruises.
Where total maintanence in the area of housekeeping could be handled or provided for by us...
Can you even imagine how much revenue that would mean?....
start with one vessel and stretching to the other part of the fleet....Phuah!!!
This time is a way back to the Empire hotel where one of the best rooms are found...
Trust me....it's world class. But the room is way too big for just one person...
hit there for a day just to be back in Singapore for an event and just leaving tomorrow morning at 6.15am
to Port Klang.
On a mission...
what's new right? But this time to try striking the great deals and future business dealings with Star Cruises.
Where total maintanence in the area of housekeeping could be handled or provided for by us...
Can you even imagine how much revenue that would mean?....
start with one vessel and stretching to the other part of the fleet....Phuah!!!
Saturday, October 27, 2007
The week was like warefare...
merged into a price war...
the bloodshed result.
It wasn't just winning over competitors,
but totally moving them out of market.
Back into the kinda scenario that reminded me of the days as
an Artillery Officer...they say a soldier 'cheong sua' with guns and fighting machines...
while we fight with the calculators and computerized tech...
I was practically punching numbers and formulas in the calculator at various different situations...
different moments...different customers....different problems....I brought different pricing...
my mind was kept busy round the clock..solving big project problems....finding best pricing for acceptance...
and yet making the big marks. I aiming at a 10k profit margin this week...but damn it I hit only about 9.
Yet all at the same time...closing international deals...which was totally difficult since I was dealing with chinese...
Mandrin wasn't making anything easier for me. So trying to hit at that darn freaking few pallet load sales was
like trying to teach a duck to swim...
sometimes it was like a chicken and duck talk.
But through this process I realised one factor...
Solve a customer's problems and pricing isn't a question with added good and personal services...
I found myself hitting a 350% at one....shocked me at how it was possible.
From this blog, it should serve as a reminder to me...
as long as you have the will and keep trying...out of nowhere, there is money to make...
there are infinite possibilities.
Aiming to hit my next mark....I'm gona try for november.
And here I go again!
merged into a price war...
the bloodshed result.
It wasn't just winning over competitors,
but totally moving them out of market.
Back into the kinda scenario that reminded me of the days as
an Artillery Officer...they say a soldier 'cheong sua' with guns and fighting machines...
while we fight with the calculators and computerized tech...
I was practically punching numbers and formulas in the calculator at various different situations...
different moments...different customers....different problems....I brought different pricing...
my mind was kept busy round the clock..solving big project problems....finding best pricing for acceptance...
and yet making the big marks. I aiming at a 10k profit margin this week...but damn it I hit only about 9.
Yet all at the same time...closing international deals...which was totally difficult since I was dealing with chinese...
Mandrin wasn't making anything easier for me. So trying to hit at that darn freaking few pallet load sales was
like trying to teach a duck to swim...
sometimes it was like a chicken and duck talk.
But through this process I realised one factor...
Solve a customer's problems and pricing isn't a question with added good and personal services...
I found myself hitting a 350% at one....shocked me at how it was possible.
From this blog, it should serve as a reminder to me...
as long as you have the will and keep trying...out of nowhere, there is money to make...
there are infinite possibilities.
Aiming to hit my next mark....I'm gona try for november.
And here I go again!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Those who are poor and yearn to be rich...
I realised that a handful of them would just bullshit their way through
at the slightest spark of status...
even when it's against those of their own kind...
Affirming the dog eat dog world in their sense of being...
Horrible...
sigh....oh well...let them dig their own grave...
Anyway...today I've been given light to my old interest...
'forceful virtual intrusion' against those who utilize the cyber world for the wrong reasons.
Hate it when people email threats to others and utilizing the identity of another.
Somehow I will find out...
threats of death and putting a bullet into another's head is such an unthinkable thing to do.
Esp when we're talking about those victim being in my circle...
I guess the wrong move fortunately was made already by sending an email...
There are but just a few suspects...
and when locality is right on target...
I guess the rightful victim might just use any possible ways to seek the physical virus.
I guess God is fair...where the evil minded are always stupid enough to leave their footprints behind
for the arm of the whatever law there is to grab them by the neck to beat the crap shit out of them...
And soon we'll see...
I realised that a handful of them would just bullshit their way through
at the slightest spark of status...
even when it's against those of their own kind...
Affirming the dog eat dog world in their sense of being...
Horrible...
sigh....oh well...let them dig their own grave...
Anyway...today I've been given light to my old interest...
'forceful virtual intrusion' against those who utilize the cyber world for the wrong reasons.
Hate it when people email threats to others and utilizing the identity of another.
Somehow I will find out...
threats of death and putting a bullet into another's head is such an unthinkable thing to do.
Esp when we're talking about those victim being in my circle...
I guess the wrong move fortunately was made already by sending an email...
There are but just a few suspects...
and when locality is right on target...
I guess the rightful victim might just use any possible ways to seek the physical virus.
I guess God is fair...where the evil minded are always stupid enough to leave their footprints behind
for the arm of the whatever law there is to grab them by the neck to beat the crap shit out of them...
And soon we'll see...
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Now it's Office in Hydrabad!
yet another directorship to head for over there...
goodness...I think I'm gona be freaking ass busy my head off with everything going on like that.
I've also double confirmed my stand on the market requirement for a certain service...
that will be kinda labour intensive at first, but I guess we could make a fight with proper joint ventures
and partnership and soon to head off the IR business...
Shit my mental squirrel cage is ever turning and refusing to stop for awhile to rest....which means I might just KO
with all the thinking and thinking...
Yesterday I just dozed off beside my com while sitting upright on a cusioned BMW sports rim without back rest.
weird....like meditating monk. But ass now hurts....lol....walk also like cartoon....
Have been all busy aiming for my next hit of 20k in profit....how's that sounding to you?.... hahaha....sound good eh...
but it's a huge risk to take dealing with some China business man....
Actually I can't believe I'm actually trading in chinese....I'm doing business in chinese....blah blah blah...
fighting in the china market and stuff like that... and the funny thing is that my mandrin is still as usual purely like shit.
sorry correction.....it's purely shit....with no 'like' in ther description. hahahaa....
These days...one by one, people are trying to introduce some prospective partners to me... like their friend or their friend's friend....or some friend they think somehow in their head might just match me... whatever...
aye...are my white hair really showing that obvious that you all think I'm getting real old and need to hitch up quick?....
uh...oh....maybe....
spotted quite a few springing up already....damn.
But anyway...my next target stepping stone is a big showcase seminar in Sabah to whack the 'ancient' old Singapore market
there... what can't be sold in Singapore will be sold in Sabah...coz they haven't reached up the class where people are
just so picky and want things for big name sake....so alot of rubbish can me sold there actually....GOOD!
that's the hit for november!...
But I WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAY!!! I NEED A BREAK!!!!!
lol....
yet another directorship to head for over there...
goodness...I think I'm gona be freaking ass busy my head off with everything going on like that.
I've also double confirmed my stand on the market requirement for a certain service...
that will be kinda labour intensive at first, but I guess we could make a fight with proper joint ventures
and partnership and soon to head off the IR business...
Shit my mental squirrel cage is ever turning and refusing to stop for awhile to rest....which means I might just KO
with all the thinking and thinking...
Yesterday I just dozed off beside my com while sitting upright on a cusioned BMW sports rim without back rest.
weird....like meditating monk. But ass now hurts....lol....walk also like cartoon....
Have been all busy aiming for my next hit of 20k in profit....how's that sounding to you?.... hahaha....sound good eh...
but it's a huge risk to take dealing with some China business man....
Actually I can't believe I'm actually trading in chinese....I'm doing business in chinese....blah blah blah...
fighting in the china market and stuff like that... and the funny thing is that my mandrin is still as usual purely like shit.
sorry correction.....it's purely shit....with no 'like' in ther description. hahahaa....
These days...one by one, people are trying to introduce some prospective partners to me... like their friend or their friend's friend....or some friend they think somehow in their head might just match me... whatever...
aye...are my white hair really showing that obvious that you all think I'm getting real old and need to hitch up quick?....
uh...oh....maybe....
spotted quite a few springing up already....damn.
But anyway...my next target stepping stone is a big showcase seminar in Sabah to whack the 'ancient' old Singapore market
there... what can't be sold in Singapore will be sold in Sabah...coz they haven't reached up the class where people are
just so picky and want things for big name sake....so alot of rubbish can me sold there actually....GOOD!
that's the hit for november!...
But I WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAY!!! I NEED A BREAK!!!!!
lol....
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Sometimes I pause and ask myself...
"is it all worth it?"
Well actually, the answers were long ago set within me.
I already know the answer to my very question.
The trouble is...I always weigh the consequences over the effort.
And if I see that I've that appetite for the risk...
It's always worth it.
From there I move forward...
The next step in life breaks through though it's a fork road.
A small deviation will get me to another path...
Well, it's not like I can jump over the right way again....just takes alittle more time.
recently I shifted my perspectives... I saw a different way in handling what hits me...
I'd simple throw back the question at anyone...."...it's important, I believe so, but is it urgent?"
This somehow got me some breathing space along the way...
those above me have begun to know my strengths and get the picture of how overworked I've been and
now have left me to set my decision on the various pace...
esp when I've already set my own vision in helping to expand the empire.
And the whole deal goes on...today....tomorrow...the next day...and the next....and the following...and the days beyond...
=)
"is it all worth it?"
Well actually, the answers were long ago set within me.
I already know the answer to my very question.
The trouble is...I always weigh the consequences over the effort.
And if I see that I've that appetite for the risk...
It's always worth it.
From there I move forward...
The next step in life breaks through though it's a fork road.
A small deviation will get me to another path...
Well, it's not like I can jump over the right way again....just takes alittle more time.
recently I shifted my perspectives... I saw a different way in handling what hits me...
I'd simple throw back the question at anyone...."...it's important, I believe so, but is it urgent?"
This somehow got me some breathing space along the way...
those above me have begun to know my strengths and get the picture of how overworked I've been and
now have left me to set my decision on the various pace...
esp when I've already set my own vision in helping to expand the empire.
And the whole deal goes on...today....tomorrow...the next day...and the next....and the following...and the days beyond...
=)
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Took a short nap...
with many things in mind just running through my head...
seems like there are some things I'm just putting off with my busy schedule and lack of time...
Have been on-going taking up so manything things...
learning so much at an accelerated pace.
Now there is even a branch office of the company with director title to my name...
where the start up and operation comes all in my hands.
If things flop, I'd be in the ditch together with it...yet if things rises, I'd rise with it...
From being just a mere asst manager to the Singpore office, I'm now the regional technical/marketing manager.
Some times it's not how high you climb...
it's how much time you've gotten left for yourself...
Life ain't about climbing up there...
It's who you can share the feeling with and not being just alone...
with many things in mind just running through my head...
seems like there are some things I'm just putting off with my busy schedule and lack of time...
Have been on-going taking up so manything things...
learning so much at an accelerated pace.
Now there is even a branch office of the company with director title to my name...
where the start up and operation comes all in my hands.
If things flop, I'd be in the ditch together with it...yet if things rises, I'd rise with it...
From being just a mere asst manager to the Singpore office, I'm now the regional technical/marketing manager.
Some times it's not how high you climb...
it's how much time you've gotten left for yourself...
Life ain't about climbing up there...
It's who you can share the feeling with and not being just alone...
The accidental Prophecy
2 out of 5 came true so far...
What comes next I don't know...
What he calls the HMS...
Health Money Success...
I'll see...I'll see...
but there many things to the whole thing...I'm literally growing white hair at work...
Soon I'll be golden headed...
What comes next I don't know...
What he calls the HMS...
Health Money Success...
I'll see...I'll see...
but there many things to the whole thing...I'm literally growing white hair at work...
Soon I'll be golden headed...
Thursday, October 11, 2007
SIX solid days at work in foreign lands...
Woke up in the wee hours of the morning...actually practically not sleeping at all,
just to hit the roads at 5.30am to make my way to the airport on the 5th...
headed to Sabah Kota Kinabalu.
All set to carry on my quest to settle a whole load of stuff. Like a man on a mission.
I needed to start up the business there. A new distrubution office, warehouse and operation flow.
The new shareholder had totally no idea on business, while his partner has abit of marketing idea...
the rest...would be pure crap and bull.
Had alot to work to get started on...
Anyway... suddenly, I came to realise that somehow along the way I was put set to be one of the Directors
of this Sabah Branch...somewhat fufilled the first prophecy of the hypnotic indian man who foretold my coocoo
future.
Anyway...managed to settle lotsa stuff and now a container is being arranged to set sail from Singapore, with all
the goods and office ware support for the new office.
Left me with a little time to take walk around the place...
Went to the kelong side about 1hr away from my hotel...had great seafood there...all life! super fresh.
Prawns, fish and shellfish...the whole lot...was like practically digging into them right after I caught them.
Weird names they give their noodles though... 'Tua Lan' mee...
Was thinking...what the hell kinda noodles is that?....so vulgar....hahaha
The flea market is rather interesting...they sell anything...dogs, cats, fish, tortoise, little pigs....like some farm.
And the tribal head hunters kinda ornaments and traditional stuff too...
apart from the norm pasar malam stuff in Singapore...
Over all I must say that Sabah is quite a clean place...the toilets are even better than Singapore's.
Philippines...the weird bunch of people...where the guys have got no pride....relying on the girls to work
and feed them....slack to the max and also are humping machines....leaving the ladies dealing with the kids and
slogging like mad...and they...either slack or have someone else some where else in the country....
Well that's as far as I know...
The well known Balut...is their natural Viagra taken with red bull....that's why it's only sold evening onwards...
maybe that's the reason for the moment of passion...leading to them having the award of MBA....
Married By Accident....lol...
But I must say...the food and service there...is the top....fabulous!...
loves it!
hahaha...just a rough country with lasy, driveless people and wanting to seem very much like America....
just cannot make it..so making them look like a merge of a third world country and america fusion....
Oh well...got lotsa stuff to write about this trip...lotsa stuff I did...but too damn freaking tired to say too much...
maybe next time....Maybe...
just to hit the roads at 5.30am to make my way to the airport on the 5th...
headed to Sabah Kota Kinabalu.
All set to carry on my quest to settle a whole load of stuff. Like a man on a mission.
I needed to start up the business there. A new distrubution office, warehouse and operation flow.
The new shareholder had totally no idea on business, while his partner has abit of marketing idea...
the rest...would be pure crap and bull.
Had alot to work to get started on...
Anyway... suddenly, I came to realise that somehow along the way I was put set to be one of the Directors
of this Sabah Branch...somewhat fufilled the first prophecy of the hypnotic indian man who foretold my coocoo
future.
Anyway...managed to settle lotsa stuff and now a container is being arranged to set sail from Singapore, with all
the goods and office ware support for the new office.
Left me with a little time to take walk around the place...
Went to the kelong side about 1hr away from my hotel...had great seafood there...all life! super fresh.
Prawns, fish and shellfish...the whole lot...was like practically digging into them right after I caught them.
Weird names they give their noodles though... 'Tua Lan' mee...
Was thinking...what the hell kinda noodles is that?....so vulgar....hahaha
The flea market is rather interesting...they sell anything...dogs, cats, fish, tortoise, little pigs....like some farm.
And the tribal head hunters kinda ornaments and traditional stuff too...
apart from the norm pasar malam stuff in Singapore...
Over all I must say that Sabah is quite a clean place...the toilets are even better than Singapore's.
Philippines...the weird bunch of people...where the guys have got no pride....relying on the girls to work
and feed them....slack to the max and also are humping machines....leaving the ladies dealing with the kids and
slogging like mad...and they...either slack or have someone else some where else in the country....
Well that's as far as I know...
The well known Balut...is their natural Viagra taken with red bull....that's why it's only sold evening onwards...
maybe that's the reason for the moment of passion...leading to them having the award of MBA....
Married By Accident....lol...
But I must say...the food and service there...is the top....fabulous!...
loves it!
hahaha...just a rough country with lasy, driveless people and wanting to seem very much like America....
just cannot make it..so making them look like a merge of a third world country and america fusion....
Oh well...got lotsa stuff to write about this trip...lotsa stuff I did...but too damn freaking tired to say too much...
maybe next time....Maybe...
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I hope at the end of the month will be a proof of something meaningful.
Beginning of the week was bad...real bad...so much headache...so pushy...with everything so piled up
...all bottle necked up until I blew my top.
Had enough of the overload...
Only then they felt that it's time they cut me some slack...
but then again...before anything else can be done...
I'm in for yet another trip...
and tomorrow I'm off...in the wee hours of the morning...
to Sabah, brunei and manila I go..
hope I set the places up well and over some great deals.
tata!
Beginning of the week was bad...real bad...so much headache...so pushy...with everything so piled up
...all bottle necked up until I blew my top.
Had enough of the overload...
Only then they felt that it's time they cut me some slack...
but then again...before anything else can be done...
I'm in for yet another trip...
and tomorrow I'm off...in the wee hours of the morning...
to Sabah, brunei and manila I go..
hope I set the places up well and over some great deals.
tata!
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Argh!!!! ARgh!!!!!! argh!!!
@#$$%#$%@@#$ damn F*** ARGH!!!!!!!!
I'm totally not NOT NOT in the fucking mood to bother shit about many things right now!
How is it that I'm able to come up with figures when I've no freaking understanding of the break down?
Not like I don't want to find out...
It's hidden...and unexplained...no I should say unwanted to explain.
Totally crap!
@#$$%#$%@@#$ damn F*** ARGH!!!!!!!!
I'm totally not NOT NOT in the fucking mood to bother shit about many things right now!
How is it that I'm able to come up with figures when I've no freaking understanding of the break down?
Not like I don't want to find out...
It's hidden...and unexplained...no I should say unwanted to explain.
Totally crap!
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Slept for a good 24hrs straight...
in for exhausion...strengthless...mental drain...
took the whole day to recharge the biobattery....hahaha
But my head is still swirling...
Anyway...the ending feeling of the week...
was good.
satisfaction.
proven my abilities...and time effectiveness.
Now the topic on the weird indian man that told of my future has become the topic
to talk about between my parents and their friends...
realised also that I've got white hair growin' on my head already...
OMG...
in for exhausion...strengthless...mental drain...
took the whole day to recharge the biobattery....hahaha
But my head is still swirling...
Anyway...the ending feeling of the week...
was good.
satisfaction.
proven my abilities...and time effectiveness.
Now the topic on the weird indian man that told of my future has become the topic
to talk about between my parents and their friends...
realised also that I've got white hair growin' on my head already...
OMG...
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Phew!!
What a week...seriously what a week it's been...
totally drained by work and the loads of responsibilities.
Suddenly I realised that I'm above all branch geneal managers and directors...
squeezing sales figures out of them...
teaching them the art of technical sales...
teaching them technical handling...
teaching them technical analysis of systemic faults or designs...
goodness!
And it's a whole week of hardcore extra stuff besides my daily work...
trying to force in the entire industrial products and commercial products info in just a week...
I think they all are also overloaded by the info....hahaha...
And even after that...have got so much to catch on my loaded work due to the times I'm not in office...
Oh the rush....esp when having to multi task the whole day through at a 12hr routine.
Fortunately though...at least I've got this weekend to take a day's breather... no more insomnia to back me up on time.
Today...a strange man came up to me to prove his supernatural abilities...
being able to tell my past....my character...my numbers in family size like how many brothers and sisters....
how the sequence is like....my birthday....my religion...what I've been feeling about work and life...
This is crazy....I never believed in fortune tellers...but this....this really shocked the hell out of me.
he could pre-write something out....crushed it in a piece of paper and then talked to me about it and after which
asked me to open the paper to double comfirm his findings after looking at me.
And then he went on telling me about what's like for in the future....together with some caution...
Totally too shocking for me to just remain alert for that moment...
And the best part...he wanted nothing from me... I just offered him a drink....that was purely it.
gave me a stone to keep...
something that is of special usage along my life....
Goodness me....don't know what's all these for...
still trying to figure out...
and awaiting to see the truth in his words of things being predestined for me at the end of this year...
and how things will be on a rise from this november on....
aiyoh...can this be real?....hahahaa...
What a week...seriously what a week it's been...
totally drained by work and the loads of responsibilities.
Suddenly I realised that I'm above all branch geneal managers and directors...
squeezing sales figures out of them...
teaching them the art of technical sales...
teaching them technical handling...
teaching them technical analysis of systemic faults or designs...
goodness!
And it's a whole week of hardcore extra stuff besides my daily work...
trying to force in the entire industrial products and commercial products info in just a week...
I think they all are also overloaded by the info....hahaha...
And even after that...have got so much to catch on my loaded work due to the times I'm not in office...
Oh the rush....esp when having to multi task the whole day through at a 12hr routine.
Fortunately though...at least I've got this weekend to take a day's breather... no more insomnia to back me up on time.
Today...a strange man came up to me to prove his supernatural abilities...
being able to tell my past....my character...my numbers in family size like how many brothers and sisters....
how the sequence is like....my birthday....my religion...what I've been feeling about work and life...
This is crazy....I never believed in fortune tellers...but this....this really shocked the hell out of me.
he could pre-write something out....crushed it in a piece of paper and then talked to me about it and after which
asked me to open the paper to double comfirm his findings after looking at me.
And then he went on telling me about what's like for in the future....together with some caution...
Totally too shocking for me to just remain alert for that moment...
And the best part...he wanted nothing from me... I just offered him a drink....that was purely it.
gave me a stone to keep...
something that is of special usage along my life....
Goodness me....don't know what's all these for...
still trying to figure out...
and awaiting to see the truth in his words of things being predestined for me at the end of this year...
and how things will be on a rise from this november on....
aiyoh...can this be real?....hahahaa...
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Life unpredictable..
Like a sunny day fallen with a heavy rain...
With a need for time, abundance for what you don't wanna do...
A couple behind on a chase, yet taking a step forward for only one...
Being determined but yet need some focus...
The madness world in reality that people live it, don't realise it...
Like a sunny day fallen with a heavy rain...
With a need for time, abundance for what you don't wanna do...
A couple behind on a chase, yet taking a step forward for only one...
Being determined but yet need some focus...
The madness world in reality that people live it, don't realise it...
Thursday, September 20, 2007
After work was a mixing set I was just doin' for the sake of let off steam...
For the steps of pretty people in body fit clothes
walking down the road they call the norm for the lands and take off for planes...
The suave, the cool, the sweet, the gorgeous and the sexy...
but there I was basically moving the whole floor with earth shaking thunderous music
in beats of pop, hip hop and modern acid jazz...
Feels like the entire mood and feeling was put into just the turntable, countless discs and me...
scratchin'....shiftin'...changin'...and rollin' the controls and snappin' up buttons to make all go well...
Not sure why but I'd normally stay around to mingle with the good graciously gorgeous...
but totally had no mood after that...looking at them after the even was just plain nothingness...
Some mood I'm just flowin' in for today...
all the work and draining responsibilities probably....
oh well...
For the steps of pretty people in body fit clothes
walking down the road they call the norm for the lands and take off for planes...
The suave, the cool, the sweet, the gorgeous and the sexy...
but there I was basically moving the whole floor with earth shaking thunderous music
in beats of pop, hip hop and modern acid jazz...
Feels like the entire mood and feeling was put into just the turntable, countless discs and me...
scratchin'....shiftin'...changin'...and rollin' the controls and snappin' up buttons to make all go well...
Not sure why but I'd normally stay around to mingle with the good graciously gorgeous...
but totally had no mood after that...looking at them after the even was just plain nothingness...
Some mood I'm just flowin' in for today...
all the work and draining responsibilities probably....
oh well...
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Suddenly have to urge to do something to scare the wits of myself again...
Maybe it's some inner fetish I have...doing things to challenge my mental state...or
just to get me out of the mono routine.
The last time I said I would put on any pink or fool around the idea of dances...
There I took on salsa...and soon I went on for 2 stages of it...
So besides doing the DJ for samba music or world music ranges, I headed off for a total new genre
of mixes. Very much younger was toying with the feeling of height phobia and speed phobia...
yes yes I know the people who knows me will find it hard to believe with regards to these 2 aspects...
But it was true and horrible...imagine I couldn't even walk pass the overhead bridges or even take the slightly
faster speed in my dad's tortoise speed car...maybe snail would be a better word.
But now....erhmm....I think I need not say more on that...hahaha...
Now I'm toying with the idea of taking up Argentine Tango....
erhmm....should I or should I not?....damn it...
need to find that time slot...or someone who is also game enough to be my partner and go on with that flow...
now that part is the bigger challenge than overcoming my procastination of going for it.
hahahaa....
Maybe it's some inner fetish I have...doing things to challenge my mental state...or
just to get me out of the mono routine.
The last time I said I would put on any pink or fool around the idea of dances...
There I took on salsa...and soon I went on for 2 stages of it...
So besides doing the DJ for samba music or world music ranges, I headed off for a total new genre
of mixes. Very much younger was toying with the feeling of height phobia and speed phobia...
yes yes I know the people who knows me will find it hard to believe with regards to these 2 aspects...
But it was true and horrible...imagine I couldn't even walk pass the overhead bridges or even take the slightly
faster speed in my dad's tortoise speed car...maybe snail would be a better word.
But now....erhmm....I think I need not say more on that...hahaha...
Now I'm toying with the idea of taking up Argentine Tango....
erhmm....should I or should I not?....damn it...
need to find that time slot...or someone who is also game enough to be my partner and go on with that flow...
now that part is the bigger challenge than overcoming my procastination of going for it.
hahahaa....
Monday, September 17, 2007
~There will be no ordinary days for you
If there is someone who cares like I do
just for you sweet girl
I'll be always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you
You dont have to search no more
Cause I am someone who would love you for sure
So... If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you will be a better place~
If there is someone who cares like I do
just for you sweet girl
I'll be always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you
You dont have to search no more
Cause I am someone who would love you for sure
So... If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you will be a better place~
Gone has been the weekend I enjoyed most...
A wonderful saturday...
And an eventful sunday meeting up with old friends and good buddies
all at a good friend's wedding...
Somehow...something struck me last night...
I just realised that people actually took note of my many likes and dislikes...
just like even going down to the kinda of food and desserts I'd go for...
or the kind of lifestyle I'd go on with.
I'd hear things like "Kenneth wouldn't want to eat that... doesn't really like sweet stuff"...
or "Kenneth probably would be kept busy doing...."....or "Kenneth simply likes....."
and blah blah blah....
anyway... nothing bad about it...just never thought people really would remember.... coz it really
isn't that important at all.
Well...Congrats to my 2 friends....Ben and Michelle in their marriage!
Here's something I did for them....a flip page album...
http://www.thebenandmichelle.bravehost.com/
A wonderful saturday...
And an eventful sunday meeting up with old friends and good buddies
all at a good friend's wedding...
Somehow...something struck me last night...
I just realised that people actually took note of my many likes and dislikes...
just like even going down to the kinda of food and desserts I'd go for...
or the kind of lifestyle I'd go on with.
I'd hear things like "Kenneth wouldn't want to eat that... doesn't really like sweet stuff"...
or "Kenneth probably would be kept busy doing...."....or "Kenneth simply likes....."
and blah blah blah....
anyway... nothing bad about it...just never thought people really would remember.... coz it really
isn't that important at all.
Well...Congrats to my 2 friends....Ben and Michelle in their marriage!
Here's something I did for them....a flip page album...
http://www.thebenandmichelle.bravehost.com/
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Was a wonderful evening well spent...
After work was rugging in the fields at the friendly with a foreign team...
then comes meeting the smiley for dinner and an evening at 'Swan Lake'...
Haahaa....actually it's Swan Lake on Ice...
a performance by Imperial Ice stars...a famous premier theatrical ice skating company
in the world.
Totally great stunts and coordination altogether I must say. Totally put me and me date seated with
mouth wide opened for some scenes...
Whatever it is....even if Swan Lake wasn't that all good...
The evening was already worth while rushing my entire week for...
wouldn't mind living the evening one more time... =)
After work was rugging in the fields at the friendly with a foreign team...
then comes meeting the smiley for dinner and an evening at 'Swan Lake'...
Haahaa....actually it's Swan Lake on Ice...
a performance by Imperial Ice stars...a famous premier theatrical ice skating company
in the world.
Totally great stunts and coordination altogether I must say. Totally put me and me date seated with
mouth wide opened for some scenes...
Whatever it is....even if Swan Lake wasn't that all good...
The evening was already worth while rushing my entire week for...
wouldn't mind living the evening one more time... =)
Friday, September 14, 2007
For the past few nights...I haven't gotten any sleep...
Helpin' Good Buddy Ben in this marriage prep...well the photo and
graphic stuff especially.
Poor thing,....sudden panic...
Fortunately I was in Singapore...if not I'd feel bad forever.
The feelin' was good helping, though my lost of the insomnia
syndrome...so I can't ever take too many nights without sleep...
yet having to work the very next day..
Totally tiring.
Ben and Michelle...
Which them all the best! and I do hope the Photo Vid is
good enough for them....tried rushin' it out in 2 nights...
Ain't my big standard but it has to be it....
Time nowadays is kinda tight... don't have time for many things.
I'm ain't a robot no more....
Don't know if that's good or bad....coz I suffer the sleepy spells often in the day...
but have to pull through with the amount of work and things to take
responsibility for.
I've got to push on!
Helpin' Good Buddy Ben in this marriage prep...well the photo and
graphic stuff especially.
Poor thing,....sudden panic...
Fortunately I was in Singapore...if not I'd feel bad forever.
The feelin' was good helping, though my lost of the insomnia
syndrome...so I can't ever take too many nights without sleep...
yet having to work the very next day..
Totally tiring.
Ben and Michelle...
Which them all the best! and I do hope the Photo Vid is
good enough for them....tried rushin' it out in 2 nights...
Ain't my big standard but it has to be it....
Time nowadays is kinda tight... don't have time for many things.
I'm ain't a robot no more....
Don't know if that's good or bad....coz I suffer the sleepy spells often in the day...
but have to pull through with the amount of work and things to take
responsibility for.
I've got to push on!
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
Argh....this is madness!!!
just had the wind that I've to make a trip to Brunei and then to Pahang this week and possibility of it
stretching to the weekends is high.
Give up all things, I'm not missing this weekend!
Having made plans for a performance that rightfully burnt a hole in my pocket...
and a gd friend's wedding I promise to turn up for....
I can miss any other weekends, but not this one.
Give me a break!
too many last minute stuff that results me in having lost time!
I maybe an on the ball worker, but I ain't superhuman!
I ain't for emotionless working process!
ARgh!....madness!
nvm....play games....act blur....
hohoho....
just had the wind that I've to make a trip to Brunei and then to Pahang this week and possibility of it
stretching to the weekends is high.
Give up all things, I'm not missing this weekend!
Having made plans for a performance that rightfully burnt a hole in my pocket...
and a gd friend's wedding I promise to turn up for....
I can miss any other weekends, but not this one.
Give me a break!
too many last minute stuff that results me in having lost time!
I maybe an on the ball worker, but I ain't superhuman!
I ain't for emotionless working process!
ARgh!....madness!
nvm....play games....act blur....
hohoho....
Saturday, September 08, 2007
~Left me with goodbye and open arms
A feeling that so deep I can't hold
You're just invincible in my eyes
And the only thing against us would be time
Could it be any harder to watch you go...
walking off back home
If only I had one more hour
better one more day...
Here I lay and blind myself in laughter
A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing
I just want to turn back the time
But I know I just don't have the power...
Your scent so sweet
stickin' to me always
I wish you needn't have to go
To just spend alittle more time...
to be near you again...
Oh could it be any harder....~
A feeling that so deep I can't hold
You're just invincible in my eyes
And the only thing against us would be time
Could it be any harder to watch you go...
walking off back home
If only I had one more hour
better one more day...
Here I lay and blind myself in laughter
A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing
I just want to turn back the time
But I know I just don't have the power...
Your scent so sweet
stickin' to me always
I wish you needn't have to go
To just spend alittle more time...
to be near you again...
Oh could it be any harder....~
Friday, September 07, 2007
And I question everything and wonder about every....anything...
questions questions questions....I never stop questioning...
Everyday I've been asking at least 5 'why's...
learning curve maybe...
or is it that my questions weren't answered to begin with...?
Or I'm just turning stupid by the days...
well of coz...sometimes...it's just to irritate the hell out of people....hahahaa...
I know this blog input is utterly random...
Anyway...I'd just wanna say that, in life... there are times you've got to live for yourself.
coz you'll never know when nobody is right behind you...
however you want to take that...
1) you may be the last in line
2) they aren't there to catch you when you fall
3) they probably don't understand what's coming around...
Whatever the case is... one has got alot of ass covering to do...
sometimes it's not just my ass I've to cover...
questions questions questions....I never stop questioning...
Everyday I've been asking at least 5 'why's...
learning curve maybe...
or is it that my questions weren't answered to begin with...?
Or I'm just turning stupid by the days...
well of coz...sometimes...it's just to irritate the hell out of people....hahahaa...
I know this blog input is utterly random...
Anyway...I'd just wanna say that, in life... there are times you've got to live for yourself.
coz you'll never know when nobody is right behind you...
however you want to take that...
1) you may be the last in line
2) they aren't there to catch you when you fall
3) they probably don't understand what's coming around...
Whatever the case is... one has got alot of ass covering to do...
sometimes it's not just my ass I've to cover...
A 500hp raging monster...
5.2L 32 valve super charged rubber burner
that looks great even just on the sides...
With breathing sound....fierce enough to be any head turner...
at 6 speed manual transmission...you could simple smoke anyone beside and behind...
Best to scare any bird brains at any street races...
Cool eh...
very close to my all time feared....fire bird....
the very one I am lacking the guts to take it on again...
the fully mechanical movement care that roars with power and super charged torque...
Thursday, September 06, 2007
What makes a great man in marketing...
Today...the moments brought me to a new understanding...
That a great man is one who is so skilled that nothing stops him from
moving forward. No stumbles are obstacles enough to cripple him...
but when it comes to bringing across ideas to another...erhmm...
now that could be a problem...
Then it comes to the next stage where...
A great marketing man is one who can sell ice-cubes in the north pole...
Like jumping into an obvious red ocean, yet imerging victor over all competitions...
Inspired....by just my small moments of thought...
That a great man is one who is so skilled that nothing stops him from
moving forward. No stumbles are obstacles enough to cripple him...
but when it comes to bringing across ideas to another...erhmm...
now that could be a problem...
Then it comes to the next stage where...
A great marketing man is one who can sell ice-cubes in the north pole...
Like jumping into an obvious red ocean, yet imerging victor over all competitions...
Inspired....by just my small moments of thought...
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Took off work in the late morning...taking a break for yet another match...
yes yes ...I might be limping...just alittle bit but, when the muscles were warmed up,
speed run was up and going again.
Far end was pure brawl, fighting for an egg on the field...the name is GILBERT.
big splashes of mud on face with some covering the eyes...
couldn't see clearly but yet pushing in a scrum like a bull dragging a whole lot
of crap through the fields...
Down below were studded adidas everywhere awaiting to crush any knuckles in their way.
And soon, when GILBERT was out, it was speed, strategy and reflexes...
Racing to the double pole destination... I scored a try.
Ending a wonderful 37-11 victory...
But living poor Gilbert exhausted in the middle of the field...wasted...
hahaha....
Monday, September 03, 2007
Hounding on a 4 cylinder, 5 gear coupe...
rev it up to a 100km/h at a mere 5sec
and roaring the 1795cc 7000rpm on a feather weight machine...
Oh yeh...tell me about it... I've yet again test driven the small toy-like car,
Lotus Elise...
cool black and classy...
But drinks petrol like water....goodness...
The feeling was ridiculously good. hahahaa...
well...of course...whatever I've said....it could've only been done at nite....lol...
Yet another day at work...
feels like the weekends weren't any in the first place.
Too much going on...
So much to keep up that I hardly have time to just stone and rest the mind.
Need a breather...need it sometime...soon.
trying to set a target also to open offices in Korea and Taiwan.
Goodness! 2 places that I have language problems with!
a big headache...but somehow I'll cope with that...
Can cope with indian or arabs...I should be able to cope with anything...
c'mon...what can be that difficult?...get a translater at most!....lol
feels like the weekends weren't any in the first place.
Too much going on...
So much to keep up that I hardly have time to just stone and rest the mind.
Need a breather...need it sometime...soon.
trying to set a target also to open offices in Korea and Taiwan.
Goodness! 2 places that I have language problems with!
a big headache...but somehow I'll cope with that...
Can cope with indian or arabs...I should be able to cope with anything...
c'mon...what can be that difficult?...get a translater at most!....lol
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Friday, August 31, 2007
The moment is now...the feel...the burst...
I'm taking it back...
getting it all back...
I need the rush...
the feeling all flush...
Bringing on blows...
throws and all the action...
the feeling of adrenalin satisfaction...
All my combinations and chained reaction..
All the power and vent of frustration...
In my at own rhythm...
My own pace...
movements of my own creation...
reflections of the restarted street fight...
Somebody stop me!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
"Money can buy happiness...uuntil you look over the fence and see how much more your friends have..."
Won more than a thousand playing shit...Gatheriing engorged stack of chips
and backed away from the arena still trembling from the adrenaline binge, I floated across life's
risk taking shade...
And looked on my fellow life game junkie...
Time to pool our take and blow it on extravagantly overpriced red meat...
But then "I am down" said he...
And it was real bad...like the america flowed into an anarchy...
he lost whole lot to the foreign exchange.
There are sure ways to ruin an overnight risk bender with a friend.
leaving tables with different results. When both leave out ahead, then it's time to test Chris Rock's
theory about champagne room.
Damn...nothing but grief. To help or not to help? An offering is yet a posibility to offend his pride...
But after all why should I in this case?...Friendship isn't a Marxist endeavour.
Can't be sustained across the great line in life that divides the winners from losers. a conspiracy among men
of the same station. Role of money offends democratic ideals, primal model of absolute loyalty.
but the size of a man's bankroll has innumerable repercussions.
I had to deal with my own other shit...cover thy own ass first...
Damn...difficult situations when there is not much extras actually to help....which route to take I have no freakin idea.
hmm so what's money? --->means access to restaurants, vacation spots, season tickets...blah blah blah...lifting
the velvet rope.
And your posse can't roll if that rope drops down in front of some members. lol...
Think I'm just being super random today.....
crap...
and backed away from the arena still trembling from the adrenaline binge, I floated across life's
risk taking shade...
And looked on my fellow life game junkie...
Time to pool our take and blow it on extravagantly overpriced red meat...
But then "I am down" said he...
And it was real bad...like the america flowed into an anarchy...
he lost whole lot to the foreign exchange.
There are sure ways to ruin an overnight risk bender with a friend.
leaving tables with different results. When both leave out ahead, then it's time to test Chris Rock's
theory about champagne room.
Damn...nothing but grief. To help or not to help? An offering is yet a posibility to offend his pride...
But after all why should I in this case?...Friendship isn't a Marxist endeavour.
Can't be sustained across the great line in life that divides the winners from losers. a conspiracy among men
of the same station. Role of money offends democratic ideals, primal model of absolute loyalty.
but the size of a man's bankroll has innumerable repercussions.
I had to deal with my own other shit...cover thy own ass first...
Damn...difficult situations when there is not much extras actually to help....which route to take I have no freakin idea.
hmm so what's money? --->means access to restaurants, vacation spots, season tickets...blah blah blah...lifting
the velvet rope.
And your posse can't roll if that rope drops down in front of some members. lol...
Think I'm just being super random today.....
crap...
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Just had one weird mood today...
Simply having questions all over my head.
About life...career...love...
Damn it....everything...
Think I need some new space to re-evaluate the whole situation once more.
I need to grow...and I need to grow fast. Real fast actually. Question is...will I hit my
target by 30?...
Hard....real hard. But not impossible!
Where I am now, taking seat on the 3rd highest post of the company in decision making...
The pressure of making things happen is very high... blood will almost spill if I'm not careful.
my lack of sleep is ridiculous and I do hope I don't reach the state of being inhuman again...
INSOMNIA...!!!
sigh oh well....back to work....back to work...a long hard day's work!
Simply having questions all over my head.
About life...career...love...
Damn it....everything...
Think I need some new space to re-evaluate the whole situation once more.
I need to grow...and I need to grow fast. Real fast actually. Question is...will I hit my
target by 30?...
Hard....real hard. But not impossible!
Where I am now, taking seat on the 3rd highest post of the company in decision making...
The pressure of making things happen is very high... blood will almost spill if I'm not careful.
my lack of sleep is ridiculous and I do hope I don't reach the state of being inhuman again...
INSOMNIA...!!!
sigh oh well....back to work....back to work...a long hard day's work!
Monday, August 27, 2007
Developed as a much more powerful and larger replacement for the 356...
an evolution of the Beetle...
Rear mounted 415hp 6-cylinder engine of boxer configuration.
5,500rpm with 12:1 compression ratio.
311km/hr top speed and a 4s 0-100 rating....
Oh yes if you're thinkin' what I'm thinkin'....
It's the 911 GT3!
yup...the ecstatic feeling of handling it on friday...
was a good blood rush.
Black...shiny...and majestic engine roar...
With quick manual gear shifts you can get it up and speeding
transforming the side street lamps into a stream of yellow lights form the side of my eye vision.
Tell me about fast and furious...
But I think I still can't beat my feeling that I've yet to overcome when roaring the Firebird many years back...
fully mechanical monster.
an evolution of the Beetle...
Rear mounted 415hp 6-cylinder engine of boxer configuration.
5,500rpm with 12:1 compression ratio.
311km/hr top speed and a 4s 0-100 rating....
Oh yes if you're thinkin' what I'm thinkin'....
It's the 911 GT3!
yup...the ecstatic feeling of handling it on friday...
was a good blood rush.
Black...shiny...and majestic engine roar...
With quick manual gear shifts you can get it up and speeding
transforming the side street lamps into a stream of yellow lights form the side of my eye vision.
Tell me about fast and furious...
But I think I still can't beat my feeling that I've yet to overcome when roaring the Firebird many years back...
fully mechanical monster.
My legs are still killing me from the run.
My colleagues were saying I'm just pure crazy with the run....
at such an age and body mechanics...I'm still thinking I'm iron man.
hahahaaa.... my General Manager's commando son pushed so hard that
he ended up sleeping the whole day yesterday and clocked a good 2hrs 40mins...
Maybe he is just trying to console me on my fast run that came with the pains thereafter.
My friends all think that I've got some great stuff falling upon my back...
with frequent travels and stuff...knowing many parts of the world and being able to talk about it...
but hey...seriously..it's tiring...really...
after travels comes planning and reports and other yada yada...
However, the experience level goes 1 up again...that's the only good thing.
Today...allow me to introduce India....Hohohoo...
A sovereign country in south asia and the seventh largest country.
Beautiful architechture but yet... a holy land with lotsa...dung everywhere.
Very much the same as France when I went there... not sure what's up with these people.
But anyway... they have the wierdest temple there filled with millions of rats...
They take it as the reborn of their ancestors and thus feeding and taking care of these rodents
were a must. Their holy man would just sit there and allow the rats to feed off the food he holds...
sharing with them the fruits of his begging. Totally not my kind of life I must say.
My view of the hypnotic indian holy man....hahahaaa
A 5 star hotel, you get to hear small little footsteps running around the flooring or the ceiling boards...
And shockingly greeted by the brownish or greyish furry rodents in the wee hours of the morning...right on
the top of your blanket. Goodness me!... I do wonder how else it will be with the increase of these infestations.
Yet the sunset scene...other than Singapore's is very much nicer...
more brilliant..
well like they always say... The grass is always greener on the other side...hahaa
but really... it's beautiful.Beside the sea and rushing waves...away from the chocking stench
of coconut milk and lamb/goats odour...
no wonder the I'm starting to see the potential in sales for my air anti-bacterial sanitizer in that country...
One can see very obviously the effects of having too much curry...
Heatiness and sore throat... like blowing fire....hahahaa....just look at this...
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Gotta learn to suppress the rapid fire inside...
the NOS in my blood...
where results must come at the most instance.
I guess that's where my risk hunger is deemed as high...
Now I'm afraid that I might just explode the wrong bomb that I'd
not be able to withstand.
clocking a good 2hrs 5mins for a half marathon today...
but it's way off my actual schedule of the past...
2hrs 45mins for a full marathon...alamak...now I'm barely finishing the half of it
with a time close to that.... CANNOT MAKE IT!
body mechanics aren't as good as before already...
today my ligaments just gave way in the heat of the sprints at the last 3km...
practically reduced myself to 10cm/min speed after that....
Goodness the pain.
But what kept me on the run even as the pain started off alittle after 10km was the
ringing voice... "Can Can...sure can do it....no problem".... =)
The one voice I'd love to hear all my life....but I guess I gotta work on it and pace myself
well...mentally and emotionally....
Kenneth...remember you've been patient... why the change...now there is the need to keep that
ability going...hold on!
the NOS in my blood...
where results must come at the most instance.
I guess that's where my risk hunger is deemed as high...
Now I'm afraid that I might just explode the wrong bomb that I'd
not be able to withstand.
clocking a good 2hrs 5mins for a half marathon today...
but it's way off my actual schedule of the past...
2hrs 45mins for a full marathon...alamak...now I'm barely finishing the half of it
with a time close to that.... CANNOT MAKE IT!
body mechanics aren't as good as before already...
today my ligaments just gave way in the heat of the sprints at the last 3km...
practically reduced myself to 10cm/min speed after that....
Goodness the pain.
But what kept me on the run even as the pain started off alittle after 10km was the
ringing voice... "Can Can...sure can do it....no problem".... =)
The one voice I'd love to hear all my life....but I guess I gotta work on it and pace myself
well...mentally and emotionally....
Kenneth...remember you've been patient... why the change...now there is the need to keep that
ability going...hold on!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Head got kinda heavy...with the amount of work...
the responsibilities are getting higher...
much much more....really...
goodness...I'm thinking of how to develop the malaysian, indo,
vietnam and middle eastern market for certain niche products...
Today I kinda lost my cool when my director overwrite my quotation to a customer
even after I settled the case the day before...
totally made me lose credibility overall...
There I was tactfully shooting back to make sure all areas covered...
hoping that this won't happen again...
coz if this does happen...I'd say, why give me the job to handle these stuff in the 1st place....
My Goodness!
Chattin' with her always make things better...
pity didn't have to time to have dinner together today...
=/
but oh well...another better day perhaps...
some other day...
the responsibilities are getting higher...
much much more....really...
goodness...I'm thinking of how to develop the malaysian, indo,
vietnam and middle eastern market for certain niche products...
Today I kinda lost my cool when my director overwrite my quotation to a customer
even after I settled the case the day before...
totally made me lose credibility overall...
There I was tactfully shooting back to make sure all areas covered...
hoping that this won't happen again...
coz if this does happen...I'd say, why give me the job to handle these stuff in the 1st place....
My Goodness!
Chattin' with her always make things better...
pity didn't have to time to have dinner together today...
=/
but oh well...another better day perhaps...
some other day...
4.30am there I was going for my morning run...
to awaken me for a long long day...
5.30 left for my drive to KL...all the way...
all the way to my KL office...
seeing so many freaking customers from technical crap
to product crap...and some just pure trying their luck on better pricing...
leaving me caught in the jam at 5pm....
thus day ended only when I hit back singapore at 10pm...
aiyoh aiyoh so tiring!
on top of that....
there I saw something when I got back!!!....argh!
not good....not good....
lucky there she was on the phone with me....
making it all better already.
to awaken me for a long long day...
5.30 left for my drive to KL...all the way...
all the way to my KL office...
seeing so many freaking customers from technical crap
to product crap...and some just pure trying their luck on better pricing...
leaving me caught in the jam at 5pm....
thus day ended only when I hit back singapore at 10pm...
aiyoh aiyoh so tiring!
on top of that....
there I saw something when I got back!!!....argh!
not good....not good....
lucky there she was on the phone with me....
making it all better already.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
I guess hearing from both sides....my dear friends
I come to know that at least they are kinda on the stable side by now...
well...at least nobody is trying anything funny....
hearing from bud richie and gd friend maddy...
both seemed quite alright....but nobody can really be fully alright just after
a big bang off their normal routine in life....(that's having each other)...
Oh well...
I guess as I talk to people around me...I've come to realisation that I'm getting deeper
into the feelings I have for this special one...
like I'd be doing the craziest things for no reasons....just hoping to make her day or at least to see the slightest
smile on her sweet face...
(Oh goodness I still can remember that warming look at the dinner table...that caught me in a daze)
Tryin' to hit off the piano once again? or picking the guitar?....OMG... where will I ever find the time?
Will be heading off to KL once again tomorrow to check on the office...and to deal with some technical situation.
I'm gona miss being able to contact her and chat freely again.... =/
I come to know that at least they are kinda on the stable side by now...
well...at least nobody is trying anything funny....
hearing from bud richie and gd friend maddy...
both seemed quite alright....but nobody can really be fully alright just after
a big bang off their normal routine in life....(that's having each other)...
Oh well...
I guess as I talk to people around me...I've come to realisation that I'm getting deeper
into the feelings I have for this special one...
like I'd be doing the craziest things for no reasons....just hoping to make her day or at least to see the slightest
smile on her sweet face...
(Oh goodness I still can remember that warming look at the dinner table...that caught me in a daze)
Tryin' to hit off the piano once again? or picking the guitar?....OMG... where will I ever find the time?
Will be heading off to KL once again tomorrow to check on the office...and to deal with some technical situation.
I'm gona miss being able to contact her and chat freely again.... =/
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Last nite a had a weird but good dream...
where you were here just beside me...
the first I saw when I opened my eyes...
so close...so very close...
it felt so real that I couldn't believe it myself...
when I really woke up and didn't see you there...
I almost picked up and called you...
until reality hit....
bring me back into that dream please....
lol
where you were here just beside me...
the first I saw when I opened my eyes...
so close...so very close...
it felt so real that I couldn't believe it myself...
when I really woke up and didn't see you there...
I almost picked up and called you...
until reality hit....
bring me back into that dream please....
lol
Last night... I tried something I've not done in a long time...
a long distance run....
This time was from home to Choa Chu Kang Way...at the brim of where my grand stays...
Goodness...when I say it's been a long time....I mean it...panting madness...
I've done distances
1) home-tampines
2) home-hougang
3) home-esplanade
4) sembawang beach-orchard road
not counting those shorter ones though...
now adding up is home-choa chu kang way...
Guess I needed the run...
so much to think about...so much running through my head...
it's like swirls unending.
come to think of it... I've taken on so many challenges...
against my fear of heights and speed...
nobody could actually tell that coz of what I've been doing these days....
scaling cliffs....overhangs...monstrous waves...storms...
haiz...but then again...with all those extremes...injuries I've got countless!
a long distance run....
This time was from home to Choa Chu Kang Way...at the brim of where my grand stays...
Goodness...when I say it's been a long time....I mean it...panting madness...
I've done distances
1) home-tampines
2) home-hougang
3) home-esplanade
4) sembawang beach-orchard road
not counting those shorter ones though...
now adding up is home-choa chu kang way...
Guess I needed the run...
so much to think about...so much running through my head...
it's like swirls unending.
come to think of it... I've taken on so many challenges...
against my fear of heights and speed...
nobody could actually tell that coz of what I've been doing these days....
scaling cliffs....overhangs...monstrous waves...storms...
haiz...but then again...with all those extremes...injuries I've got countless!
Saturday, August 18, 2007
As you sat across sipping adam's ale
looking around in wonder of surrounding
I gazed in a daze at you that warmed my heart...
what a beautiful masterpiece before me...
Perfect in your little ways.
Your eyes as captivating...
fuzzy fizzies rushed upon my entire sense of being...
those very moments you looked across
You sweetest smiles...
I'd give anything to see them again...
Sometimes I wish I'd take chances...
yet sometimes I fear to risk what I already have...
this....this simple gazing experience...
Where time just stood still...
There is no way of climbing up...
I've fallen deeper...
right through in free fall...
looking around in wonder of surrounding
I gazed in a daze at you that warmed my heart...
what a beautiful masterpiece before me...
Perfect in your little ways.
Your eyes as captivating...
fuzzy fizzies rushed upon my entire sense of being...
those very moments you looked across
You sweetest smiles...
I'd give anything to see them again...
Sometimes I wish I'd take chances...
yet sometimes I fear to risk what I already have...
this....this simple gazing experience...
Where time just stood still...
There is no way of climbing up...
I've fallen deeper...
right through in free fall...
Friday, August 17, 2007
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Funny how it is in such a way...
that I could actually spend time and money...and effort to try brighten someone's day
when all it takes was for that one...
to purely exist...
That alone is enough...
A Give'n Take situation on the emotional side...
Whatever...it's a good feelin'...
like tomorrow...there is a need to take the next step forward into life...
that I could actually spend time and money...and effort to try brighten someone's day
when all it takes was for that one...
to purely exist...
That alone is enough...
A Give'n Take situation on the emotional side...
Whatever...it's a good feelin'...
like tomorrow...there is a need to take the next step forward into life...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Life is simply so fragile..
one moment you're here
yet the very next...
you've crossed worlds.
Life is like a roller coaster...
interestingly troublesome...
full of variants...
what you feel today,
ain't gona be what you feel tomorrow.
So then, is there such word as 'forever'?
Or does it not even exist?
well without it, 'never' also won't come to place.
Wonder am I talking ay sense here...
Today seems like the day....where suddenly everything around me
stops in motion...or the pace just mallows down...
And here I am...
seated and in thought...
just what the hell have I don't through my 26 years of living?
Encountered and dealt with future shock...
merged in the changing patterns...
getting in and out of situations...problems....issues....whatever.
So what or where will I be 10 years down the road?
Will I get to the point where I wanna be?
Some overlooking say that I will...
Some say that the possibilities are infinite...
Some say it's hard...
Well I say...I want to very much but I don't know...
For the first time in a long time I'd say this...
maybe the battery life inside isn't on the high side
that I'm not at positive turns...
maybe I just feel some emptiness that I yet to fill...
and yet haven't...
There are some points in time where you wanna know some things...
And you'd take risks and chances to find or try...
yet...
the past burning wounds forbid you to carry on..
or should I say..set a limitation subconsciously...
Today I'd just hope to free my mind and make it for a free fall...
for the moments of flight...
feeling high...
just following the thing called gravity in the flow...
just following...
Today some of my senses tell me that the day somehow isn't good...
Something has just been disturbed...
and the lousy thing is I'm not sure what it is...
could be anything...
one moment you're here
yet the very next...
you've crossed worlds.
Life is like a roller coaster...
interestingly troublesome...
full of variants...
what you feel today,
ain't gona be what you feel tomorrow.
So then, is there such word as 'forever'?
Or does it not even exist?
well without it, 'never' also won't come to place.
Wonder am I talking ay sense here...
Today seems like the day....where suddenly everything around me
stops in motion...or the pace just mallows down...
And here I am...
seated and in thought...
just what the hell have I don't through my 26 years of living?
Encountered and dealt with future shock...
merged in the changing patterns...
getting in and out of situations...problems....issues....whatever.
So what or where will I be 10 years down the road?
Will I get to the point where I wanna be?
Some overlooking say that I will...
Some say that the possibilities are infinite...
Some say it's hard...
Well I say...I want to very much but I don't know...
For the first time in a long time I'd say this...
maybe the battery life inside isn't on the high side
that I'm not at positive turns...
maybe I just feel some emptiness that I yet to fill...
and yet haven't...
There are some points in time where you wanna know some things...
And you'd take risks and chances to find or try...
yet...
the past burning wounds forbid you to carry on..
or should I say..set a limitation subconsciously...
Today I'd just hope to free my mind and make it for a free fall...
for the moments of flight...
feeling high...
just following the thing called gravity in the flow...
just following...
Today some of my senses tell me that the day somehow isn't good...
Something has just been disturbed...
and the lousy thing is I'm not sure what it is...
could be anything...
Monday, August 13, 2007
For the so difficult moments, I pray I mind stays clear...
With pending legal cases to fight...
against the petty customers who understood no business terms...
going to court for a few dollars is practically stupid.
With the Chairman and director away...
handling such issues,
making decisions...
and managing the whole situation...
all call for alot of mental strength and alertness...
one wrong move and I could cause high cost compared to the earning I'm
supposed to churn.
Find the balance to a win-win situation is difficult...
have been cracking my head trying to get answers from principle and dealing with customer end.
This is totally jack shit...
Well....part and parcel of business I guess...
DEALING WITH LOUSY ASS BUSINESSMAN WHO KNOWS SHIT CRAP ABOUT READING BUSINESS TERMS!
Goodness me....
somebody...help!...
If it's my own cost that I'm handling....it'll be way easier to deal with....
sorry..ain't always that perfect...
=/
With pending legal cases to fight...
against the petty customers who understood no business terms...
going to court for a few dollars is practically stupid.
With the Chairman and director away...
handling such issues,
making decisions...
and managing the whole situation...
all call for alot of mental strength and alertness...
one wrong move and I could cause high cost compared to the earning I'm
supposed to churn.
Find the balance to a win-win situation is difficult...
have been cracking my head trying to get answers from principle and dealing with customer end.
This is totally jack shit...
Well....part and parcel of business I guess...
DEALING WITH LOUSY ASS BUSINESSMAN WHO KNOWS SHIT CRAP ABOUT READING BUSINESS TERMS!
Goodness me....
somebody...help!...
If it's my own cost that I'm handling....it'll be way easier to deal with....
sorry..ain't always that perfect...
=/
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Can't believe it's been already 20 years my buds and I have
been sticking around each other...
some bond that basically nothing can break...
Seeing how much each of us have changed was real funny...
weirdly I hardly even remembered myself looking like that
at certain times...
Goodness!
But it's great to know how far we've walked together
and at different routes...
different characters...
different lifestyles...
different goals...
yet like one brotherhood...
Cheers!
been sticking around each other...
some bond that basically nothing can break...
Seeing how much each of us have changed was real funny...
weirdly I hardly even remembered myself looking like that
at certain times...
Goodness!
But it's great to know how far we've walked together
and at different routes...
different characters...
different lifestyles...
different goals...
yet like one brotherhood...
Cheers!
Some times in life...
the pace has just got to slow down...
breathe...
I enjoy what I do...
but too much of anything ain't too good...
and battery level is flowin' down...
ain't the insomniac as I used to be...
only just a normal guy
who'd wanna have a wonderful girl to be...
Am I just moving into my advancement too fast?...
way too fast?...
that I just get tired...
the strain...
freakin' strain!
where I eyes see blood shot...
I cease to open them in pain
like I said...
like a torn war machine...
still fightin' on the move...
Just how long...
how long it'll be...
the pace has just got to slow down...
breathe...
I enjoy what I do...
but too much of anything ain't too good...
and battery level is flowin' down...
ain't the insomniac as I used to be...
only just a normal guy
who'd wanna have a wonderful girl to be...
Am I just moving into my advancement too fast?...
way too fast?...
that I just get tired...
the strain...
freakin' strain!
where I eyes see blood shot...
I cease to open them in pain
like I said...
like a torn war machine...
still fightin' on the move...
Just how long...
how long it'll be...
Friday, August 10, 2007
In life...
however difficult...
The force, the determination, the focus, the strength...
the will...
to take the very next step is yet very important.
thinking back of the time when I had to deal with disabilities unknown to many then...
back slip disc...if that's what they call it...knee ligament tear on both legs...right shoulder
dislocation...
oh man...you name it...
even the ribs fracture...where at times the pain can be ridiculous....
I still headed off to a dream of being in power...and in control...
And I managed...
1) free lance racing/stunt : physically challenging and mentally draining in many ways
Times where you find that things may be just impossible
you get it done....proving "impossible is nothing"
2) starting off 3 racing teams locally & internationally : time consuming and mentally
challenging. Time management
and physical limits tested...
when you find that you'd knock
out in bed with no dreams.
3) Officership in SAFTI MI : Totally mental to bring about the term "Mind over matter"
like a fighting machine on faulty movement mechanisms...
yet still fighting 'til the end.
Now thinking of it all....I also feel tired.
hahahahaa....
however difficult...
The force, the determination, the focus, the strength...
the will...
to take the very next step is yet very important.
thinking back of the time when I had to deal with disabilities unknown to many then...
back slip disc...if that's what they call it...knee ligament tear on both legs...right shoulder
dislocation...
oh man...you name it...
even the ribs fracture...where at times the pain can be ridiculous....
I still headed off to a dream of being in power...and in control...
And I managed...
1) free lance racing/stunt : physically challenging and mentally draining in many ways
Times where you find that things may be just impossible
you get it done....proving "impossible is nothing"
2) starting off 3 racing teams locally & internationally : time consuming and mentally
challenging. Time management
and physical limits tested...
when you find that you'd knock
out in bed with no dreams.
3) Officership in SAFTI MI : Totally mental to bring about the term "Mind over matter"
like a fighting machine on faulty movement mechanisms...
yet still fighting 'til the end.
Now thinking of it all....I also feel tired.
hahahahaa....
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Monday, August 06, 2007
And I remembered back those times I was left alone...
focused on my mastery in control of wind...
Just me my, board and a sail...
Mornings, afternoons and the evenings at sunsets...
There living back those days, brings me thoughts on why I gave it all up...
those days of freedom....
those days of a carefree life...
those days of just pure rough training...
those days of pure physical challenge...
those days of mentally trying situations...
My injuries...and my inability to keep my balance once again...
once a peak...
but now all gone in a tweak...
from little mistakes...
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Like I was blessed from above...
with the things I never realised I had...
Rays of light shone upon my skin..
warmth and graced.
Awaiting the challenges that I'm to face beyond my expectations...
And riding the rough thundering pains...
Taking each second as it comes...
swifting forward I go...
towards destiny...
into my future...
It's been a long time I had this feeling...
Friday, August 03, 2007
Sometimes it's just wonderful to free yourself...
and in just 30mins...I felt free once again...
like soaring in the breeze once more...
It's been some time...
a very long time...
sliding wakes 'n cutting waves..
adrenalin rushing to my head...
speed clearing every corner of my mind...
And once again...
just this once again... I'm just free...
free to be once more...
Just surrender...
he reads a book from across the street
Waiting for someone that she'll never meet
Talk over coffee for an hour or two
She wonders why I'm always in a good mood
Killing time before she struts her stuff
She needs support and I've become the crutch
She'll never know how much she means to me
I'd play the game but I'm the referee
Every word, every thought, every sound
Every touch, every smile, every frown
All the pain we've endured until now
All the hope that I lost you have found
(Surrender) Yourself to me
Even though I know what I'm looking for
She's got a brick wall behind her door
I'd travel time and confess to her
But I'm afraid she'd shoot the messenger
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
Why can't she belong to me?
Every word, every thought, every sound
Every touch, every smile, every frown
All the pain we've endured until now
All the hope that I lost, you have found
I never had the nerve to ask
Has my moment come and passed?
I never had the nerve to ask
Has my moment come and passed?
I never had the nerve to ask
Has my moment come and passed?
I never had the nerve to ask
Waiting for someone that she'll never meet
Talk over coffee for an hour or two
She wonders why I'm always in a good mood
Killing time before she struts her stuff
She needs support and I've become the crutch
She'll never know how much she means to me
I'd play the game but I'm the referee
Every word, every thought, every sound
Every touch, every smile, every frown
All the pain we've endured until now
All the hope that I lost you have found
(Surrender) Yourself to me
Even though I know what I'm looking for
She's got a brick wall behind her door
I'd travel time and confess to her
But I'm afraid she'd shoot the messenger
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
Why can't she belong to me?
Every word, every thought, every sound
Every touch, every smile, every frown
All the pain we've endured until now
All the hope that I lost, you have found
I never had the nerve to ask
Has my moment come and passed?
I never had the nerve to ask
Has my moment come and passed?
I never had the nerve to ask
Has my moment come and passed?
I never had the nerve to ask
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Monday, July 30, 2007
I just close my eyes
~Tomorrow morning I have to leave
But wherever I may be
Best believe I'm thinking of you
I can't believe how much I miss you
All I had is hear you tonight
don't want to waste this precious time
Give me something to remember
Baby put your voice through me And I'll hear you forever
Anytime that we find ourselves apart I Just close my eyes
And you'll be here with me
Just look to my heart
And that's where you'll be
If I just close my eyes
Till your drifting away
You'll never be too far from me
If I close my eyes I know I'm gonna see you again~
But wherever I may be
Best believe I'm thinking of you
I can't believe how much I miss you
All I had is hear you tonight
don't want to waste this precious time
Give me something to remember
Baby put your voice through me And I'll hear you forever
Anytime that we find ourselves apart I Just close my eyes
And you'll be here with me
Just look to my heart
And that's where you'll be
If I just close my eyes
Till your drifting away
You'll never be too far from me
If I close my eyes I know I'm gonna see you again~
Friday, July 27, 2007
Today...the day....just had convocation ceremony in the morning....
took the full day leave...
but it was cut short...
responsibility calls.
went back to work....just like I was activated in the army...
But yet...somehow, I still went back to work...feeling all happy and with smiles...
great isn't it...hahaaha..
Back to office to clarify some cash transfer for Pakistan and Saudi...
and complete a sales transaction to Taiwan...
afterwhich,...meeting with a strange client who knows crap about his own
problem and application. Took a madness 1 hour just to slowly draw out to make out what
he was trying to tell me...
some people....are pure ridiculous...fortunately I was good with patience today....hahaha
if not....aiyoh aiyoh he is a gone case poor thing.
Oh and I chanced upon some rumour about the reason for me to make a next trip to KL...
it was plainly to take over the responsibilities of my present GM who is also the MD of the
KL Branch!!... aiyoh...aiyoh...
So fast?... this is too fast that it seriously scares me....
hahaaa
took the full day leave...
but it was cut short...
responsibility calls.
went back to work....just like I was activated in the army...
But yet...somehow, I still went back to work...feeling all happy and with smiles...
great isn't it...hahaaha..
Back to office to clarify some cash transfer for Pakistan and Saudi...
and complete a sales transaction to Taiwan...
afterwhich,...meeting with a strange client who knows crap about his own
problem and application. Took a madness 1 hour just to slowly draw out to make out what
he was trying to tell me...
some people....are pure ridiculous...fortunately I was good with patience today....hahaha
if not....aiyoh aiyoh he is a gone case poor thing.
Oh and I chanced upon some rumour about the reason for me to make a next trip to KL...
it was plainly to take over the responsibilities of my present GM who is also the MD of the
KL Branch!!... aiyoh...aiyoh...
So fast?... this is too fast that it seriously scares me....
hahaaa
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Deep in thought....deep in thought....
is it planning that is running through the spinning engine in my head?
planning of?
for awhile...out form the craziness of work...
my head spins...
spins in wonder...
And there I stare blankly...just blankly...
Pale white at the wall in front and the ceiling above...
Oh yes...my drive...the forwarding drive...
Like I'm emotionally affianced...
to such an extance...I get lost...knowing that I've been swept off my feet...
But yet...
I just don't know what to do...
If I should
If I shouldn't...
or should I just save the trouble of being spurned...
And pain all over again....
Je pense que je suis tombé pour elle...
Juste la pensée simple d'elle m'apporte des sourires et la chaleur pour le jour...
Mais je ne suis pas sûr des possibilités....
sigh....
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
Like a huge pile...
a yoke was placed upon me...
All with much confidence
That I've the strength to take the role.
From 1yr to 6 mths...
now...3 mths I may not have...
a challenge to my art of survival...
Sometimes it put me to wonder...
Am I that good?...
At some point, I don't think so...
yet I fire with confidence and dare to try...
that makes the only difference.
My theory of looking 10 steps ahead...
Now has to be applied with 2 times the speed and effectiveness...
Especially with soon taking over the portfolio of my
General manager....(Bao Suah Bao Hai)...
"Generally do everything around the place" manager...
hahahaaa....
My portfolio is adding on in growth way too fast....
feels alittle choking though....
a yoke was placed upon me...
All with much confidence
That I've the strength to take the role.
From 1yr to 6 mths...
now...3 mths I may not have...
a challenge to my art of survival...
Sometimes it put me to wonder...
Am I that good?...
At some point, I don't think so...
yet I fire with confidence and dare to try...
that makes the only difference.
My theory of looking 10 steps ahead...
Now has to be applied with 2 times the speed and effectiveness...
Especially with soon taking over the portfolio of my
General manager....(Bao Suah Bao Hai)...
"Generally do everything around the place" manager...
hahahaaa....
My portfolio is adding on in growth way too fast....
feels alittle choking though....
The way you part your fringe...
revealing the sweetness and innocence...
the look that literally melts anything
hard and strong...
And what shocks me...
is to find the similarity...
The will and drive...
and hopes so high...
that nothing....
nothing in this world will take you done...
you keep moving...
What I see and how I'd see...
was much commonly found...
what I'd do and what I do...
like I've met my match...
But is this just a test?...
Is this some game I've been put on the world stage as before?
Where I play some one who takes a shot...
and probably get hit by a thousand strikes once more...
Yet I still stand in trust for that one day to come...
10years of tryouts...
and I've only been yet hitting around the stripes beyond the target...
Is this it?...
or is it fate for me to carry on my aiming and firing?...
For that....truly....I'm drained...
What many have thought of me
is no more in the present...
Though I try...but yet hold fear...
hope starts not...my scorpion filled mind...
revealing the sweetness and innocence...
the look that literally melts anything
hard and strong...
And what shocks me...
is to find the similarity...
The will and drive...
and hopes so high...
that nothing....
nothing in this world will take you done...
you keep moving...
What I see and how I'd see...
was much commonly found...
what I'd do and what I do...
like I've met my match...
But is this just a test?...
Is this some game I've been put on the world stage as before?
Where I play some one who takes a shot...
and probably get hit by a thousand strikes once more...
Yet I still stand in trust for that one day to come...
10years of tryouts...
and I've only been yet hitting around the stripes beyond the target...
Is this it?...
or is it fate for me to carry on my aiming and firing?...
For that....truly....I'm drained...
What many have thought of me
is no more in the present...
Though I try...but yet hold fear...
hope starts not...my scorpion filled mind...
Sunday, July 22, 2007
"For the little moments I'd say
I was trapped in your eyes in many ways...
many times I couldn't look away
for the thought that the beauty in there
I'd not get to see everyday
will haunt me to my dismay...
You smile...
unique and sweet...
And presence soothing
A feeling that not words nor expressions
can fully describe...
Oh your captivating eyes...and your warming smile...
simply softens my hard and rough nature...
I'd say...I skipped a beat at first sight..."
I was trapped in your eyes in many ways...
many times I couldn't look away
for the thought that the beauty in there
I'd not get to see everyday
will haunt me to my dismay...
You smile...
unique and sweet...
And presence soothing
A feeling that not words nor expressions
can fully describe...
Oh your captivating eyes...and your warming smile...
simply softens my hard and rough nature...
I'd say...I skipped a beat at first sight..."
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
For just a moment....
just a little moment...
Tiredness sits in...
I close my eyes into the emptiness...
emptiness of everyday that fills
beyond work times...
sometimes I ain't sure if I should just get into the insomnia
where I'm not limited by time...
The periods when I just keep doing the things I need and want to...
Take chances on certain matters...
regardless of the important or the not so important things...
I live for myself...but yet at times when I just want to let go...
Who am I living for then?
~~~~~~?~~~~~~~~
At these times...the draining feeling sips in....
just a little moment...
Tiredness sits in...
I close my eyes into the emptiness...
emptiness of everyday that fills
beyond work times...
sometimes I ain't sure if I should just get into the insomnia
where I'm not limited by time...
The periods when I just keep doing the things I need and want to...
Take chances on certain matters...
regardless of the important or the not so important things...
I live for myself...but yet at times when I just want to let go...
Who am I living for then?
~~~~~~?~~~~~~~~
At these times...the draining feeling sips in....
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Collection of transcripts and my bachelor's certificate today...!!!
My graduation Gown....and the squarish hat....that makes me look like coocoo too....
Oh well at least it's all done...
And all the the people around...like some professors, alumni officers and university administrators
asking what in the world am I doing now...
not being in the industry that I've studied for the past 6 to 7 years....
Well...I'd just say, something larger than my own vision....
And they started guessing....Hotel? Aerospace? Aircraft? service? bioscience? oil and gas?
machineries? argriculture?
electronics? electrical? material and environmental science?
Hahaaa.....well I just replied with a smile....
as I did to one of the professors...."My dear prof...basically it's everything you just mentioned....
there are things that are niche to the point where the business is needed in every way,
every industry...industrial or commercial... like I promised you...somehow, you will smell me around.
And one day you'll see my email reply back to you
even if you set off an enquiry way off asia"
Funny how things are...
but today...I kept marketing my business and my company til....losing my voice....aiyoh....jialat...
My graduation Gown....and the squarish hat....that makes me look like coocoo too....
Oh well at least it's all done...
And all the the people around...like some professors, alumni officers and university administrators
asking what in the world am I doing now...
not being in the industry that I've studied for the past 6 to 7 years....
Well...I'd just say, something larger than my own vision....
And they started guessing....Hotel? Aerospace? Aircraft? service? bioscience? oil and gas?
machineries? argriculture?
electronics? electrical? material and environmental science?
Hahaaa.....well I just replied with a smile....
as I did to one of the professors...."My dear prof...basically it's everything you just mentioned....
there are things that are niche to the point where the business is needed in every way,
every industry...industrial or commercial... like I promised you...somehow, you will smell me around.
And one day you'll see my email reply back to you
even if you set off an enquiry way off asia"
Funny how things are...
but today...I kept marketing my business and my company til....losing my voice....aiyoh....jialat...
Weight control is a very difficult and emotional endeavor. It drags you to the edge of human tolerance and tugs at every emotion in the human condition. As I talk with people every day about this, the agony and frustration of this struggle is a common topic of conversation. People are always contemplating that monumental question – will I ever reach my goal? In other words, will I ever be successful at this and get fit and healthy? But what is success?
Whether you succeed or fail depends on the actions that you take and the decisions that you make along the way. Where you end up is a direct result of the decisions that you make. Each and every choice you make has the potential of getting you closer to your goal or taking you farther away. That’s why it’s so important to be a good decision-maker. Success is all about the choices that you make because today’s choices are tomorrow’s reality!
If I can be so bold as to greatly oversimplify, weight management is a decision-making problem. Sure you need information about nutrition and you certainly must exercise, but for the most part, this is a decision-making problem. Everyone knows that they should eat right and exercise but they consistently choose not to. The bottom line is this: The physical act of eating always follows the mental decision to eat. You always decide to eat before you engage in the actual eating. There is not great mystery here about which comes first as in that old philosophical chicken and egg debate. The “physical” act of eating always follows the “mental” decision to eat. Success lies in choosing wisely and living in the moment.
Whether you succeed or fail depends on the actions that you take and the decisions that you make along the way. Where you end up is a direct result of the decisions that you make. Each and every choice you make has the potential of getting you closer to your goal or taking you farther away. That’s why it’s so important to be a good decision-maker. Success is all about the choices that you make because today’s choices are tomorrow’s reality!
If I can be so bold as to greatly oversimplify, weight management is a decision-making problem. Sure you need information about nutrition and you certainly must exercise, but for the most part, this is a decision-making problem. Everyone knows that they should eat right and exercise but they consistently choose not to. The bottom line is this: The physical act of eating always follows the mental decision to eat. You always decide to eat before you engage in the actual eating. There is not great mystery here about which comes first as in that old philosophical chicken and egg debate. The “physical” act of eating always follows the “mental” decision to eat. Success lies in choosing wisely and living in the moment.
on the verge of just spending on it...
Funny how things are...
I so feel like just booking a hotel room just to see the fireworks...
So unlike me I know...but somehow I feel that
this year's fireworks is going to be a jolly good one...
Might as well have a good full view....right?
hahahaaa.....
Best to have someone special in hand...
all turn to marvelous!
HOHOHO.....
I so feel like just booking a hotel room just to see the fireworks...
So unlike me I know...but somehow I feel that
this year's fireworks is going to be a jolly good one...
Might as well have a good full view....right?
hahahaaa.....
Best to have someone special in hand...
all turn to marvelous!
HOHOHO.....
Sunday, July 08, 2007
I close my eyes, you I have in mind...
I'll remember you
It's daybreak, and you are asleep,
I can hear you breathe now,
Your breath is deep
But before I go,
I'll look at you one last time,
I can hear a heart beat, is it yours or is it mine?
I look at your lips, I know how soft they can be,
Did they know what they wanted, I wished they kissed me,
And your hands, that I'd hold in mine,
Now they're reposing on the pillow,
Will they ever miss me sometime?
I'll remember you, you will be there in my heart,
I'll remember you, but that is all that I can do,
But I'll remember
Your eyes, that always make me shiver,
Now they're closed, they just sometimes twitch a little,
And your body, I could hold for an hour,
It sent me to heaven, with its heat and power,
I'll remember you, you will be there in my heart,
I'll remember you, but that is all that I can do,
But I'll remember
It's daybreak, and you are asleep,
I can hear you breathe now,
Your breath is deep
But before I go,
I'll look at you one last time,
I can hear a heart beat, is it yours or is it mine?
I look at your lips, I know how soft they can be,
Did they know what they wanted, I wished they kissed me,
And your hands, that I'd hold in mine,
Now they're reposing on the pillow,
Will they ever miss me sometime?
I'll remember you, you will be there in my heart,
I'll remember you, but that is all that I can do,
But I'll remember
Your eyes, that always make me shiver,
Now they're closed, they just sometimes twitch a little,
And your body, I could hold for an hour,
It sent me to heaven, with its heat and power,
I'll remember you, you will be there in my heart,
I'll remember you, but that is all that I can do,
But I'll remember
Tired...draggy...but yet re-awaken...
Thoughts...openess brings truth and understanding...
There are yet somethings goes once and let be...
thrown in the confusion...
bring in the weirdness of situations...
firing up the disregarding attitude...
A single lay of the land tells much of how things go around...
like Uncle Wilson will always say...."no matter how big....in life...you pay to learn"
Yup...nothing comes free...
Won't do no more...
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Funny how things turns out to be..
Met a super long time friend...
since I was a walking toddler....knowing nuts about
the world and the pains of the land....
Totally didn't recognise her...and now she is the bride....
3 years my senior...
And now we're just all so different...
I guess I've reached the age where much of these
celebration of matrimony will come to place...
this year...will be 4.....so far...
last year was 6....the year before was 5...
damn....and counting...
yet all will pop me the same old question....
Aye it's not like I go to a super market and just buy it off the shelf leh...
Cool on it...
Thoughts...openess brings truth and understanding...
There are yet somethings goes once and let be...
thrown in the confusion...
bring in the weirdness of situations...
firing up the disregarding attitude...
A single lay of the land tells much of how things go around...
like Uncle Wilson will always say...."no matter how big....in life...you pay to learn"
Yup...nothing comes free...
Won't do no more...
-----------------------------------------------------------------
Funny how things turns out to be..
Met a super long time friend...
since I was a walking toddler....knowing nuts about
the world and the pains of the land....
Totally didn't recognise her...and now she is the bride....
3 years my senior...
And now we're just all so different...
I guess I've reached the age where much of these
celebration of matrimony will come to place...
this year...will be 4.....so far...
last year was 6....the year before was 5...
damn....and counting...
yet all will pop me the same old question....
Aye it's not like I go to a super market and just buy it off the shelf leh...
Cool on it...
Friday, July 06, 2007
My Buddy number 1,2,3,4,5
-----------numbers is no order of preferrance----------------------------
Buddy no.1 just came back from fun----------------PaulYEHthat'sYOU
Buddy no.2's gona fire his eyes through-------------RICHIEyou'reTHEone
Buddy no.3 tomorrow singing songs heehee---------yesJAdon'tLOOKeverywhere
Buddy no.4 everyday's stocks and numbers even more-YUPmaddyYOURturn
Buddy no.5 smile so friendly but aiyoh so shy...-------addyAHdunPAIsehLAH
________________________________________________________________________________
Buddy no.1 just came back from fun----------------PaulYEHthat'sYOU
Buddy no.2's gona fire his eyes through-------------RICHIEyou'reTHEone
Buddy no.3 tomorrow singing songs heehee---------yesJAdon'tLOOKeverywhere
Buddy no.4 everyday's stocks and numbers even more-YUPmaddyYOURturn
Buddy no.5 smile so friendly but aiyoh so shy...-------addyAHdunPAIsehLAH
________________________________________________________________________________
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Oh damn it Oh damn it...
I really really really....wanna get done with those tummy problem...
goodness me....it's striking me with sudden pain and stuff like that...
leaving me strengthless sitting by the toilet bowl so frequently....
The Toilet is my new found serenity of peace by the way....hahahaa...
So sickening...
I really really really....wanna get done with those tummy problem...
goodness me....it's striking me with sudden pain and stuff like that...
leaving me strengthless sitting by the toilet bowl so frequently....
The Toilet is my new found serenity of peace by the way....hahahaa...
So sickening...
Sunday, July 01, 2007
This whole darn weekend was basically spent in the toilet....
No I wasn't locked in there for punishment...and neither was it that I loved the
smell of it....
Stupid tummy flu just swept me off my feet....
Seriously... it's horrible....
felt so weak...
aiyoh...
All the stuff I brought home to do...I couldn't get done.... not that I can bring it into the toilet
and do any typing while having the cramped up face right?..... lol......hahahaaa....
No I wasn't locked in there for punishment...and neither was it that I loved the
smell of it....
Stupid tummy flu just swept me off my feet....
Seriously... it's horrible....
felt so weak...
aiyoh...
All the stuff I brought home to do...I couldn't get done.... not that I can bring it into the toilet
and do any typing while having the cramped up face right?..... lol......hahahaaa....
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Another day...
hmmm Weekends!...finally....some small break for the busy schedule
of daily unending time work...
Tiring but yes it's kinda fun....shit sounds so sadistic huh...hahaha
headed on the point of thought on what in the world am I gona do next now...
well...career starting up...so next in the line would be house car and wife...
hohoho....
house and car in time will come.....wife....erhhmmmm....now that's gona be abit of a problem...
not so much of cannot get but rather have the fear lingering somewhere....
somehow it's just subconscious... especially when my schedule is so tight right now...
but yet to me....having a she in my life would be essential... brings more meaning to the
status of being successful....
That's having someone to share it all with you... and soon then those to carry it on...the way....
the characteristic...the whole deal with improvisations...
oh well....still keeping the eyes open....
spotted a plain Jane though...sounded like a 'EEeeeeeeee' at the end of the name but really...
she looks like a nice plain Jane....
then again I'll whack on the idea of... looks can be deceiving...
lol...damn...
I'm scar tissue...
"yes indeed i'm alone again
and here comes emptiness crashing in
it's either love or hate
i can't find in between
cause i've been with witches
and i have been with a queen
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so for now it's just another lonely day ay ay
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day
wish there was something
i could say or do
see cause i can resist anything
but the temptation from you
but i'd rather walk alone
than chase you around
i would rather fall myself
than let you drag me on down
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so for now it's just another lonely day ay ay
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day
yesterday seems like a life ago
cause the one i love
today i hardly know
you i held so close in my heart oh dear
grow further from me
with every falling tear
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so for now it's just another lonely day,ay ay
further along we just may, ay ay
but for now it's just another lonely day "
of daily unending time work...
Tiring but yes it's kinda fun....shit sounds so sadistic huh...hahaha
headed on the point of thought on what in the world am I gona do next now...
well...career starting up...so next in the line would be house car and wife...
hohoho....
house and car in time will come.....wife....erhhmmmm....now that's gona be abit of a problem...
not so much of cannot get but rather have the fear lingering somewhere....
somehow it's just subconscious... especially when my schedule is so tight right now...
but yet to me....having a she in my life would be essential... brings more meaning to the
status of being successful....
That's having someone to share it all with you... and soon then those to carry it on...the way....
the characteristic...the whole deal with improvisations...
oh well....still keeping the eyes open....
spotted a plain Jane though...sounded like a 'EEeeeeeeee' at the end of the name but really...
she looks like a nice plain Jane....
then again I'll whack on the idea of... looks can be deceiving...
lol...damn...
I'm scar tissue...
"yes indeed i'm alone again
and here comes emptiness crashing in
it's either love or hate
i can't find in between
cause i've been with witches
and i have been with a queen
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so for now it's just another lonely day ay ay
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day
wish there was something
i could say or do
see cause i can resist anything
but the temptation from you
but i'd rather walk alone
than chase you around
i would rather fall myself
than let you drag me on down
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so for now it's just another lonely day ay ay
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day
yesterday seems like a life ago
cause the one i love
today i hardly know
you i held so close in my heart oh dear
grow further from me
with every falling tear
it wouldn't have worked out any way
so for now it's just another lonely day,ay ay
further along we just may, ay ay
but for now it's just another lonely day "
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