Somehow I'm starting to sense some crap somewhere
I think at some point... there ain't any point in explaining certain issues or even to say offer anything...
Doesn't seem to be worthwhile in the first place.
Especially when it trigger adverse reaction.
It doesn't pay to be bothering about the well being of others sometimes.

If that's the case...might as well F***ing screw it.

Basically now it brings me to some feeling that
there some people who simply just got too much air to be held that in such a way
seemingly can't accept the pure fact that one has to take on some learning process.
As if the foundation doesn't have to be built for a stable building block.
That no matter how much I care about knocking good info into the head...
it just bounces out like a thick numb skull...
Yet again too afraid to feedback even alittle bit, but fang screw your ass from the other end.
Otherwise it would be a harbouring cancer waiting to explode.

Putting in a few levels for thought...
"reaching your hands into a black box to save a calling serpent...
gets you totally no where. You don't see what's inside, you don't know what you're saving"

My utter disappointment I must say...
coz I think what I've been seeing is just a pure mask...

oh well...what's the point of it all....what's the point...huh?...

~watching the trail of broken petals
from a pair of asian flowers
one after another as I pick...
each tatter tells a story.
partial wonder and mostly sad.
What am I to say
But to put in nature's way...
Yet most often than not...
it's the hand that once plucked and caressed in care...
but the index points to the storm right there
the blame and cause of the petals torn~

What you thought you learnt well..
What you thought you saw well...
it may just merely be a shell.
Where within the core,
what one day arises,
others will see and everything once built is just fallen rubbish.
Brought to a forcing needle point...
will the colours of poison be shown
alittle more push could surface an in grown worm within...
digging into the ruins of the hollow hearted.

You know who you are...
The more silent you become
the more obvious it shows
yet when the voicing is ever done...
all around will know...

I think I'd say that this weekend was simply great...
a good fried rice experimentation...
a good work week ending...
Most of all...
a great date.

was like I wished it didn't have to end at all...
'Beowulf' wasn't that much of a great show to catch...
but I didn't mind...
food this time was simple at Simply Thai and TCC...
yet it didn't really get to me that the coffee was not thick enough
or the softshell crab wasn't tastier...
Coz most of all...Jace was there.

Through my so busy schedules, I haven't found time to meet up with her...
just made sure that I'd call her and SMSed her everyday...
have been talking alot to her, but yet...
once I caught sight of her...I felt a whole rush of feels just swarmed...
But I guess, I just had to keep the cool...
if not I'd just run to her and give her a big hug...
probably give her a shock...
Oh well...it's going back to reality of work tomorrow...but yet I'm not complaining...
I like the challenge everyday...fighting for figures, business at war, searching for possible opportunities.
Yet I think I'd just hold a little of my fantasy in one small part of my mind...keepin' this weekend living.
Erhmm....at least just for awhile longer.

=)

Cosmetic is everything...

This week, I learnt many new things...most of all,
impregnating diamond dusts with some hard fabric...and it simply does wonders!

I never realised some pad used to swish around the floor could be something so darn expensive!
but seeing the results of the works...Alamak...cheap lah...

People nowadays ...all wanna look good, feel good or act beyond their status...
that's where cosmetics are important... well of course I'm not saying that I'm dealing with make ups, face creams
and stuff like that....
I deal more with the bigger issues....buildings, streets, offices, aircrafts, cruises, spas....blah blah blah....

Spent the whole freaking week understanding the effects of scrubbing and friction on different stones, tile materials
and all those artificial flooring that make a building like a freaking palace...oh well..maybe I'd say a palace...coz,
you talk about brunei...my business is basically in the palace...hahaha...

Tiring...but I guess it's all worth it....
And so I've found yet another niche business....and a selling point to look at.
just got to work on the pricing...to get people to accept such pricing for a simple looking thing that does wonders...
oh well...more demo to do then....
*sweat*

Next week...it would be vietnam for me....Cooling Hanoi...maybe to some people....cold....hahaha....15 degress...is gona be
SHIOK!

The week has been a tough one I must say...
real tough...
But yet very interesting on the overall...
strategizing sales... cornering deals and making sure that I cover all aspects
in order not to be cheated off my pocket when dealing with
scheming people...
Some sickos could actually think that they could just fake me into looking at short term huge figures
and not think about the administrative regulations and possible consequences...

Oh well...just have to keep my eyes opened wide...
Esp when they are talking in terms of millions....and they aren't talking about the currency
called....Dong...
total in USD. well of coz USD ain't much to think about these days....but whata heck right?
still money....
better still if it was Euro
hahahaa....
or the pound?.....lol

Today...this night...
I lay tossin
and turnin...
my mind unending journey of thoughts
and burns of what I'm left without...

Little moments...
just little moments I lay...
through the darkness of this day...
as the night's thunders roar...
my mind wonderin'
am I on the right path?
what this year end means for me?
How my path leads to?

Shit!
Does this kinda phase thoughts just slip in every now and then?...
or is it like some self critics to just get myself move faster?....
Dunoo...

A very very fruitful but tiring trip I just had!...
Just in a trip to Malaysia and my boss and I have dug out quite a handful of business opportunities that are for long term...
flat against competitors...
Think we got many people unhappy....coz they lost a bite in the business...

Main purpose was to shake people off the advancing route and let the shrewd and the underhanded 'die a natural death'...
Plainly to say....stay on your own road, or we will start moving in yours and kick you out of your range!

Was really some eye opener too...especially when it comes to one on one dog fight, in direct competition with competitor
in front of a major customer...
It all had to be damn fierce but professional...strictly professional I say....hahahaa

And here I take off once again...through the vast lands of asia...
This time is a way back to the Empire hotel where one of the best rooms are found...
Trust me....it's world class. But the room is way too big for just one person...
hit there for a day just to be back in Singapore for an event and just leaving tomorrow morning at 6.15am
to Port Klang.

On a mission...
what's new right? But this time to try striking the great deals and future business dealings with Star Cruises.
Where total maintanence in the area of housekeeping could be handled or provided for by us...
Can you even imagine how much revenue that would mean?....
start with one vessel and stretching to the other part of the fleet....Phuah!!!

The week was like warefare...
merged into a price war...
the bloodshed result.
It wasn't just winning over competitors,
but totally moving them out of market.
Back into the kinda scenario that reminded me of the days as
an Artillery Officer...they say a soldier 'cheong sua' with guns and fighting machines...
while we fight with the calculators and computerized tech...
I was practically punching numbers and formulas in the calculator at various different situations...
different moments...different customers....different problems....I brought different pricing...
my mind was kept busy round the clock..solving big project problems....finding best pricing for acceptance...
and yet making the big marks. I aiming at a 10k profit margin this week...but damn it I hit only about 9.
Yet all at the same time...closing international deals...which was totally difficult since I was dealing with chinese...
Mandrin wasn't making anything easier for me. So trying to hit at that darn freaking few pallet load sales was
like trying to teach a duck to swim...
sometimes it was like a chicken and duck talk.

But through this process I realised one factor...
Solve a customer's problems and pricing isn't a question with added good and personal services...
I found myself hitting a 350% at one....shocked me at how it was possible.
From this blog, it should serve as a reminder to me...
as long as you have the will and keep trying...out of nowhere, there is money to make...
there are infinite possibilities.

Aiming to hit my next mark....I'm gona try for november.
And here I go again!

Those who are poor and yearn to be rich...
I realised that a handful of them would just bullshit their way through
at the slightest spark of status...
even when it's against those of their own kind...

Affirming the dog eat dog world in their sense of being...
Horrible...

sigh....oh well...let them dig their own grave...


Anyway...today I've been given light to my old interest...
'forceful virtual intrusion' against those who utilize the cyber world for the wrong reasons.
Hate it when people email threats to others and utilizing the identity of another.
Somehow I will find out...
threats of death and putting a bullet into another's head is such an unthinkable thing to do.
Esp when we're talking about those victim being in my circle...

I guess the wrong move fortunately was made already by sending an email...
There are but just a few suspects...
and when locality is right on target...
I guess the rightful victim might just use any possible ways to seek the physical virus.

I guess God is fair...where the evil minded are always stupid enough to leave their footprints behind
for the arm of the whatever law there is to grab them by the neck to beat the crap shit out of them...

And soon we'll see...

Now it's Office in Hydrabad!
yet another directorship to head for over there...
goodness...I think I'm gona be freaking ass busy my head off with everything going on like that.

I've also double confirmed my stand on the market requirement for a certain service...
that will be kinda labour intensive at first, but I guess we could make a fight with proper joint ventures
and partnership and soon to head off the IR business...

Shit my mental squirrel cage is ever turning and refusing to stop for awhile to rest....which means I might just KO
with all the thinking and thinking...

Yesterday I just dozed off beside my com while sitting upright on a cusioned BMW sports rim without back rest.
weird....like meditating monk. But ass now hurts....lol....walk also like cartoon....

Have been all busy aiming for my next hit of 20k in profit....how's that sounding to you?.... hahaha....sound good eh...
but it's a huge risk to take dealing with some China business man....
Actually I can't believe I'm actually trading in chinese....I'm doing business in chinese....blah blah blah...
fighting in the china market and stuff like that... and the funny thing is that my mandrin is still as usual purely like shit.
sorry correction.....it's purely shit....with no 'like' in ther description. hahahaa....

These days...one by one, people are trying to introduce some prospective partners to me... like their friend or their friend's friend....or some friend they think somehow in their head might just match me... whatever...
aye...are my white hair really showing that obvious that you all think I'm getting real old and need to hitch up quick?....
uh...oh....maybe....
spotted quite a few springing up already....damn.

But anyway...my next target stepping stone is a big showcase seminar in Sabah to whack the 'ancient' old Singapore market
there... what can't be sold in Singapore will be sold in Sabah...coz they haven't reached up the class where people are
just so picky and want things for big name sake....so alot of rubbish can me sold there actually....GOOD!

that's the hit for november!...
But I WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAY!!! I NEED A BREAK!!!!!

lol....

Sometimes I pause and ask myself...
"is it all worth it?"
Well actually, the answers were long ago set within me.
I already know the answer to my very question.

The trouble is...I always weigh the consequences over the effort.
And if I see that I've that appetite for the risk...
It's always worth it.
From there I move forward...
The next step in life breaks through though it's a fork road.
A small deviation will get me to another path...
Well, it's not like I can jump over the right way again....just takes alittle more time.

recently I shifted my perspectives... I saw a different way in handling what hits me...
I'd simple throw back the question at anyone...."...it's important, I believe so, but is it urgent?"
This somehow got me some breathing space along the way...
those above me have begun to know my strengths and get the picture of how overworked I've been and
now have left me to set my decision on the various pace...
esp when I've already set my own vision in helping to expand the empire.

And the whole deal goes on...today....tomorrow...the next day...and the next....and the following...and the days beyond...

=)

Took a short nap...
with many things in mind just running through my head...
seems like there are some things I'm just putting off with my busy schedule and lack of time...
Have been on-going taking up so manything things...
learning so much at an accelerated pace.
Now there is even a branch office of the company with director title to my name...
where the start up and operation comes all in my hands.
If things flop, I'd be in the ditch together with it...yet if things rises, I'd rise with it...
From being just a mere asst manager to the Singpore office, I'm now the regional technical/marketing manager.
Some times it's not how high you climb...
it's how much time you've gotten left for yourself...
Life ain't about climbing up there...
It's who you can share the feeling with and not being just alone...

The accidental Prophecy

2 out of 5 came true so far...
What comes next I don't know...
What he calls the HMS...
Health Money Success...

I'll see...I'll see...
but there many things to the whole thing...I'm literally growing white hair at work...
Soon I'll be golden headed...

SIX solid days at work in foreign lands...

Woke up in the wee hours of the morning...actually practically not sleeping at all,
just to hit the roads at 5.30am to make my way to the airport on the 5th...
headed to Sabah Kota Kinabalu.

All set to carry on my quest to settle a whole load of stuff. Like a man on a mission.
I needed to start up the business there. A new distrubution office, warehouse and operation flow.
The new shareholder had totally no idea on business, while his partner has abit of marketing idea...
the rest...would be pure crap and bull.

Had alot to work to get started on...
Anyway... suddenly, I came to realise that somehow along the way I was put set to be one of the Directors
of this Sabah Branch...somewhat fufilled the first prophecy of the hypnotic indian man who foretold my coocoo
future.

Anyway...managed to settle lotsa stuff and now a container is being arranged to set sail from Singapore, with all
the goods and office ware support for the new office.
Left me with a little time to take walk around the place...
Went to the kelong side about 1hr away from my hotel...had great seafood there...all life! super fresh.
Prawns, fish and shellfish...the whole lot...was like practically digging into them right after I caught them.

Weird names they give their noodles though... 'Tua Lan' mee...
Was thinking...what the hell kinda noodles is that?....so vulgar....hahaha

The flea market is rather interesting...they sell anything...dogs, cats, fish, tortoise, little pigs....like some farm.
And the tribal head hunters kinda ornaments and traditional stuff too...
apart from the norm pasar malam stuff in Singapore...
Over all I must say that Sabah is quite a clean place...the toilets are even better than Singapore's.

Philippines...the weird bunch of people...where the guys have got no pride....relying on the girls to work
and feed them....slack to the max and also are humping machines....leaving the ladies dealing with the kids and
slogging like mad...and they...either slack or have someone else some where else in the country....
Well that's as far as I know...
The well known Balut...is their natural Viagra taken with red bull....that's why it's only sold evening onwards...
maybe that's the reason for the moment of passion...leading to them having the award of MBA....
Married By Accident....lol...

But I must say...the food and service there...is the top....fabulous!...
loves it!
hahaha...just a rough country with lasy, driveless people and wanting to seem very much like America....
just cannot make it..so making them look like a merge of a third world country and america fusion....

Oh well...got lotsa stuff to write about this trip...lotsa stuff I did...but too damn freaking tired to say too much...
maybe next time....Maybe...

I hope at the end of the month will be a proof of something meaningful.
Beginning of the week was bad...real bad...so much headache...so pushy...with everything so piled up
...all bottle necked up until I blew my top.
Had enough of the overload...
Only then they felt that it's time they cut me some slack...
but then again...before anything else can be done...
I'm in for yet another trip...

and tomorrow I'm off...in the wee hours of the morning...
to Sabah, brunei and manila I go..

hope I set the places up well and over some great deals.

tata!

When one is tipping off boiling point...
seriously...treading on such waters is asking for trouble...

Don't play with fire....

Argh!!!! ARgh!!!!!! argh!!!
@#$$%#$%@@#$ damn F*** ARGH!!!!!!!!

I'm totally not NOT NOT in the fucking mood to bother shit about many things right now!

How is it that I'm able to come up with figures when I've no freaking understanding of the break down?

Not like I don't want to find out...
It's hidden...and unexplained...no I should say unwanted to explain.
Totally crap!

I'm got something in mind today...on a business plan....
anyone daring enough to head it on with me?

hahaha...

C'mon....who got the balls to just be their own boss and their own worker?....
unfortunately...very little people...

sigh...

Slept for a good 24hrs straight...
in for exhausion...strengthless...mental drain...
took the whole day to recharge the biobattery....hahaha

But my head is still swirling...

Anyway...the ending feeling of the week...
was good.
satisfaction.
proven my abilities...and time effectiveness.
Now the topic on the weird indian man that told of my future has become the topic
to talk about between my parents and their friends...

realised also that I've got white hair growin' on my head already...
OMG...

Phew!!
What a week...seriously what a week it's been...
totally drained by work and the loads of responsibilities.
Suddenly I realised that I'm above all branch geneal managers and directors...
squeezing sales figures out of them...
teaching them the art of technical sales...
teaching them technical handling...
teaching them technical analysis of systemic faults or designs...
goodness!
And it's a whole week of hardcore extra stuff besides my daily work...
trying to force in the entire industrial products and commercial products info in just a week...
I think they all are also overloaded by the info....hahaha...

And even after that...have got so much to catch on my loaded work due to the times I'm not in office...

Oh the rush....esp when having to multi task the whole day through at a 12hr routine.

Fortunately though...at least I've got this weekend to take a day's breather... no more insomnia to back me up on time.

Today...a strange man came up to me to prove his supernatural abilities...
being able to tell my past....my character...my numbers in family size like how many brothers and sisters....
how the sequence is like....my birthday....my religion...what I've been feeling about work and life...
This is crazy....I never believed in fortune tellers...but this....this really shocked the hell out of me.
he could pre-write something out....crushed it in a piece of paper and then talked to me about it and after which
asked me to open the paper to double comfirm his findings after looking at me.

And then he went on telling me about what's like for in the future....together with some caution...
Totally too shocking for me to just remain alert for that moment...

And the best part...he wanted nothing from me... I just offered him a drink....that was purely it.

gave me a stone to keep...
something that is of special usage along my life....

Goodness me....don't know what's all these for...

still trying to figure out...
and awaiting to see the truth in his words of things being predestined for me at the end of this year...
and how things will be on a rise from this november on....

aiyoh...can this be real?....hahahaa...