Injured...
Pain...wrapped up...
aches and swells...
blood and pus...
the mind all in a swirl...
So in a swirl...
migrains...
Back to haunt...
a combinational package
raging to kills me...
slowly....inside.
What is it?... Can't really tell...
One day I might just go...
Go away...to a land afar...
disappear into nothingness....
and swift off with the sound of the wind...

My return...
back to home...
the comfort of everything else around me.
Tired from all the works.
Yet today was enriching.
Talking to kids about creativity and innovation
can be just so funny...
had to try hard to keep all the laughter.
Kids say the darnest things...really...
And it was odd having to come to terms with them calling me Mr Chan...
Suddenly felt my age....hahahaaa....
And walking in the school I saw a darn hot teacher...couldn't imagine my eyes...
But she had the looks of those pornstar wannabes...
Argh...got the very very bitchy look...
This kinda....think better not get too close...trouble is just around her.

Now seated in view of the wonderful sunset...
Mexico that is...
mind relieving...
soothing the soul...
And how walking through the alley in the city
you suddenly find something so close to home...
so familiar...
the 7-11....wahahahaaa....

The wonderful structures
sculptured patterns of barcelona,
the night view by the waters
and the beautiful docking area
which I used to call my 2nd home...

Ok...sorry for the delay for the BBQ compilation pics...
have been busy and stuff...
lack of ideas on how the background should be....but now...
it's done boyz and girlz...
but these are the toned down ones... can't load too big files on the net...
Hope you like these.
Cheers!

My project of a computer magazine cover is done...
ready for handing in!...
all put into an actual magazine product... here's how it's supposed to look like
for the front and the back...

Emptiness...
A void left inside...
Of a day so normal
there's nothing much inside.
Vexed...

~A world challenged
limits we are bound
take a step beyond
breathe the difference
that the countless
unending we find
an arena uncontrolled
benefits we reap
the quickness of reaction
brings the impact escalation
that life ain't that simple afterall.
Take a walk down the road
today's steps are tomorrow's old
what can't you see is what you want to clear
what you can see you already know
but yet not hearing or fear
The moment's safety is yet the second's danger
where there is vastness
there is multitude or variations
thus comes the infinity of results.
We never know what's tomorrow like
yet tomorrow will come
sit and hope with actions unacted
we stand at a point where we become dails
things changes around us
but position is a ritual til eternal dust...~

well of coz...not forgetting
this little one....swimming in the open
that caught my sight as a little dot from afar
and then....as it drew nearer...
the cute little thing.

Imagine yourself in a spanish arena
not in the midst of concrete again...
with me, you always get near to waters...
There you see the beauty of every simple thing.
How backward things may look
but yet to many it could just be paradise.
all at the back of where you reside for the few days...
And then next to mexico...a walk amongst ruins
yet so beautiful....
so eye catching...seated at Quintana Roo

And for the once I face a decline
for such issues in my life...
That somehow I see no energy in me to pursue further.
Drained...
Today I smile and the next moment faint
A face of courage and endurance of pain
physical energy but mental zonked
...
Whatever...
Just ...
Drained...

Staring blankly
with strums of slow spanish romance
racing runs after runs
but reality bites
and reality scars
feelings of yesterday just watered
and what doors were left
turned stone cold...
shivers returns with the emptiness
what realisation I held inside
forced to fade into nothingness
yet it can't be instant
it's process can't be quicken
oh Lord how I wished things were otherwise
but as it's not...
I'm still around for
and be standing by
But now...I'm here...
just right here...
for you...

lacerated and down I am

~|Cold cool air
heal my wounds
and every deep cuts'n tear

Heal scrapes of mine
my bruises
and harness focus of my mind

Heal me and make me whole
heal my heart
and heal my soul

Heal me from the grind I tried
heal my body
and heal my pride that's left of me...|~

~A return of a gift
brings pain to the heart...
What does that mean?
or is it that ne'er can it start?
I'd rather it's being kept...
away from me
even if it's negative you see.
At least spare me...
please...
To see things given returned to me
is like taking what I've offered
and slapping me with it.
The pain...
Oh damn I'm in pain...
like a wall just placed before me
with no knowing why...
I'm returning to black hole all with a sigh~

I came upon a pic I once edited...
the place I worked for a short while...very nice...
relaxed...
Well as the Bartender...
A totally spanish Bar setting serving Tapas...
Well actually Tapas are small quantities of food...
aka. appetizers in Spanish cuisine.
It's something that is given to accompany a drink before
a main meal...well that's in Spain...not in Singapore.
Here, you just gotta pay to sit in there with a drink.

In the past, this place was called 'The Tapas' with
an octopus in the logo...now it's called
'La Viva'

"I've nothing, but an empty space...
To be filled and warmth will sip in
And love flows in the blood"

I close my eyes...
wondering what I could see beyond the physical world...
Like I've been able to see those things they say aren't human
I only heard voices surrounding me...
filling my ears through and through...
I only saw myself taking on challenges after challenges...
one after another...
had a whole lot of comments rushing in today...
Went to a house where there was a fortune teller from thailand...
Just there to look at the group of people at cost already dealt with...
And he saw me as he person who goes from challenges after challenges...
With people, against people, against myself...
Very much like I had in mind earlier...
darn shocking...
And that there will be a point soon where I will hit growing point in career
ain't just that...
Someone whom I'd stay with will soon come my way...
lol...damn....this is madness....
Think about it....
Don't know if it's actually true....hahaaa

~|I ought to be workin' but I can't concentrate
I ought to be sleeping but I stayed up real late
When I ought to be doing the things I should do...
I think about you....
I ought to be writing, but I can't find a song...
Stand her drifting, drifting along...
When I ought to be doing the things I should do...
I think about you....
I could go crusin' but I've had enough
I could go drinkin' but I can't stand the stuff
Just don't do it like it used to do
I'd rather think about you...|~

~You come and go like the wind...
Everytime I think about you, baby I see something new...
That takes me higher than before
And makes me want you more...
I wish I don't have to go...
don't wanna leave alone...
Coz' leaving means being further from you.
oh and I'd be missing you so...~

Day's ending...
felt my age already...
with one by one my young little cousins grow up....
all big...and having the experience of their own.

one by one handling BGR issues...still hangin' in the teenage stage...
yet childish 'political' issues.

and small ones that are at least 20yrs my junior...
running about and looking up to me as like some towering monster
able to carry the whole lot of them at one sweep...

hahaaa...

Played with them like mad.
All very cute...
some still at their shy stage...some so young yet already so vocal.

Oh the adorable little things all of them.
Feels like just yesterday they were just either babies or toddlers running around giving me the blur face.