Seated...
dreamy... and missing...
like on a cool early morning
with banana pancakes
and cuppa bailey's 'n latte
but yet all fulfilled...

like a day, bed and breakfast
with sex and candy
all line up in abundance
but yet unsatisfied...

Colour Everywhere

used to seeing black and white
never really in between
waiting for the love of my life
to come into my dreams
everything is shades of gray
never really blues or green

needed someone else to turn to
someone who could help me learn to see
all the beauty that was waiting for me

you, you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and now there's colour everywhere
everywhere

my life is so predictale
never any mystery
but ever since you shined the light
all of that was history
now i have a hand to hold
and a reason to believe
there's someone in my worth living for
i was hanging around just wishing on a star
to put the happines back in my heart and...

you, you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and now there's colour everywhere
oh yeah...

you care and now there's colour everywhere

left those hazy days behind me
never to return again
now they're just a fading memory
coz baby it's all so clear to see
the beauty that is waiting there for me

you, you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and now there's colour everywhere
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you came along to show you care

Banging on the trance music...
like sometimes you'd just want all the energy out
totally transferred....
then comes the rock music mixed in
R&B with hip hop...
and soon leading to soul and acoustics...
Just days when you just throw your handphone...
be uncontactable...get out of the messenger life
and just blast!...
Don't have to bother who thinks what about you...
don't have to care how people look at you as...
Or anything of that matter...
views will be just views...
their emotions will be just their emotions...
feel pissed, feel anger... feel frustrated...
oh that's their problem...
but feel happy and stuff... oh you wanna share,
just bring it on if not... feel free to buzz of either way...

those self righteous people who takes all to judge...
to get pissed easily...you can carry on...
just carry on...
at the end of the day you find yourself being filled with the unhappiness...
not me...
you wanna crash and burn...fine by me... none of me biz...
This time....
this moment...it's just me...
that's the way it's gona be...

I've been to many places...
I've met difference races...
I've seen so many faces...
But it's you I can't forget...

I've been through high and low...
Til I got nowhere to go...
I got this funny feeling...
That it's you I'm still missin'...

The weekends....
cool....good climbs...had fun...
with my 3 buds....
Getting them into the sport...
great workout....
exercise of determination...
and really something that really is calorie burning...
But this time round, most of the time trying to conquer over hangs...and those upside down routes...
Thinking if I should make it some weekly thing...
hahahaaa....Hmmmm....

Soon enough I hope the next step with them would be....
On natural rocks! Rock On!!!
wwahaahahaa....

Whatever,
however...
Don't give a shit much...
you can think all you want
curse all you want
the shit
go fall in the pit
I'm freakin' SICK OF IT
not even missin' it
damn it pissin' it
crappin' shit on it...
put your eyes away if you don't like it
I'm not gona fight it
Just let it be...
the way that I see
Gee Wee...I'm happy you see
Oh just let it be...

In time I stall and wonder
how some things come around
fear and troubles hit like rolling thunder
missing and yearning for
but yet on looking I'm losing more

Sometimes I ask myself
is being honest worthwhile?
is being true gona bring me a further mile?
Today I slept with thoughts
clouding in my head...
Sleep sleep...the body rests
but the mind stays in constant reflection...

A very warm welcome
My African Frontosa!

~There's nothing i won't try
Just to make you mine
To get a little closer
Would be so divine
And everytime i see you
You make me come undone
I always watch you near me
In you i found the one
Oh why don't you smile my only star
Shine on baby
Smile my only star
With you by my side
baby it feels so right
And now that i'm close to you
I could stay all night
No matter where i go
No matter what i do
In the end your smile
Brings me back to you
You shine so true
I can't believe you're mine
And everything may change
But to me you'll always shine~

See what happens when you've got the darn weather keeping you indoors...
totally wet....and heavy to the max... cold...
with a very very badly beatened brain
filled with all the work all the strains and hassle...

A time when having proper meals outside becomes a problem...
it all becomes a question...
And so, you bring out whatever possible stock you have in store...
in the little cubic white cooler, and make fire like in 'cast away'...
After that it's all about burning and let the smoke rise to the senses of everybody...
that hey... we're sharin' some BBQ iin the midst of the this cold weather at the....
erhmm....I won't say comfort but simplicity of the staircase and the convenience of near vacinity of our rooms...

Way out of the norms from cooking the noodles, frying of canned food, stirring up pasta carbonara or basil and olive oil or even
whipping up some ham and mushroom cheese omelette... maybe topped with some nice pancakes and fruits like kiwi, grapes, banana and blue berries if it's int he morning...

But it's all do-able and the difference would be made with sharin' the time with some neighbours...

Strangely anyway, these days I've been very much heated on with chile wine especially Cabernet Sauvignon range of reds...
If needed to for beer, it would be the same Boddington and Kilkenny, some Oaky tasting draught all in a can...

My fridge is loaded!
anyway... it's good.
But once back to the rooms...life turns back to the norms and the work goes on...
the brain wreckage continues...

It's already half way through the heavy so called "recess week" of the term...
and the shit will start flowing through once 5th of March sets in...

Way to go....just way to go...
There's only one way actually...

Was trying to practice vector conversion from photo...
after a long night of thinking and penning down stuff for my FYP report...
I got so mentally drained that I started doing graphics....hahahaa

excuses!....
but anyway....couldn't think for the report already so...might as well do something constructive right?....hahaa

here it is!...
just randomly picked the first picture my cursor was on and worked on it....

Not that good at it yet....YET....
will work more on it in future....hmmmmm.....

got a long way for that!

Work work work....simply flowing in...
so much work
so much stress
so many deadlines...
all unending...
Calls after calls of biz too...
not sure for some if I should even take them...
not sure for some if I'm up to it...
coz sometimes, people tend to be over ambitious...
They all want the world for a cheap price...
while I set a cost by the effort and time invested in the work...
sometimes when it comes to dealing with friends....
it becomes harder...
so much harder...
you want to give them the best price, yet...
based on the time and workdone for it... it becomes totally crazy...
totally madness to even take it in the first place.
I'm a free lancer...
a self taught graphics designer and flash animator...
the abilities...are all up to my expectations...
sometimes...there are things which are overwhelming...
good for the pocket...but might not be good for the brain...
coz my mind has already been mistreated...
excuse me now... while I just try my best,
to just give myself a rest...
before my whole starts to degrade exponentially...

still in wonder....
still in thought...
of the moment I saw it appear in my room...
And courage I sought...
Communication i bridge.
The split of freakiness
sipped in...there my shivers in seconds.
Reality sat in and everything was just alright.
But unhideaous she was...
pretty was the less than opaque visual
yet weary I was...
but less afraid i became...

Injured...
Pain...wrapped up...
aches and swells...
blood and pus...
the mind all in a swirl...
So in a swirl...
migrains...
Back to haunt...
a combinational package
raging to kills me...
slowly....inside.
What is it?... Can't really tell...
One day I might just go...
Go away...to a land afar...
disappear into nothingness....
and swift off with the sound of the wind...

My return...
back to home...
the comfort of everything else around me.
Tired from all the works.
Yet today was enriching.
Talking to kids about creativity and innovation
can be just so funny...
had to try hard to keep all the laughter.
Kids say the darnest things...really...
And it was odd having to come to terms with them calling me Mr Chan...
Suddenly felt my age....hahahaaa....
And walking in the school I saw a darn hot teacher...couldn't imagine my eyes...
But she had the looks of those pornstar wannabes...
Argh...got the very very bitchy look...
This kinda....think better not get too close...trouble is just around her.

Now seated in view of the wonderful sunset...
Mexico that is...
mind relieving...
soothing the soul...
And how walking through the alley in the city
you suddenly find something so close to home...
so familiar...
the 7-11....wahahahaaa....

The wonderful structures
sculptured patterns of barcelona,
the night view by the waters
and the beautiful docking area
which I used to call my 2nd home...

Ok...sorry for the delay for the BBQ compilation pics...
have been busy and stuff...
lack of ideas on how the background should be....but now...
it's done boyz and girlz...
but these are the toned down ones... can't load too big files on the net...
Hope you like these.
Cheers!

My project of a computer magazine cover is done...
ready for handing in!...
all put into an actual magazine product... here's how it's supposed to look like
for the front and the back...

Emptiness...
A void left inside...
Of a day so normal
there's nothing much inside.
Vexed...