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Silence across...
the emptiness.
Feelings of hollow
deep under the flesh...
the zest...oh yes the zest...
it's somewhere...
under the pillow.
I found a night...
me dreaming.
So real...so very real...
where you from?...
will you visit me again?
...perhaps perhaps...
'til I find... someone like you...
I now have some clear vision...

"It's beauty that capture my attention. Personality captures my heart."
But....

Like some may say... the way to a men's heart...
his tummy....

hahahaaa!!!

I'm just turning crazy...

gained 5kg in 2 weeks!
Lost 3 in a day....
with 2hrs of rock climbing (bouldering), 26 laps of swimming, 8km run,
wieghts circuit training and a big big jub of water for the day....

lol....and now my body is just burning...from the heat produced from all the day's workout...

isolation in progress... studies studies....it's the final burst...
But I'm real tired...
like swimming in a swimming pool of mud...
like running with a ball weight chained behind...
like cycling with a parachute attached...
since the recovery...
seems like coffee doesn't work much...
and redbull doesn't give me wings...

HELP!!!

I think things in my body is are starting to set right...
with the great fatigue...I'm starting to take naps...
but to gain much more energy I eat much more!!!
OMG...

Gained a freaking 4kg is 2 weeks! hahaaa....madness

gona be a rolling ball soon!

~Come to me and hold me
And you will see
The love i give
For you still hold the key
I'll never go far away from you
Even the sky will tell you
That i need you so
For this is all i know
I'll never go far away from you~

Long hours of briefings
long but enriching moments of dealing with people...
exercising the soft skills once more.

All of a sudden I found myself with a title...
An Asst.Manager of Industrial Products Division...
Good enough to stand in the crowd of Singapore's official launch
Fuel Cell Community.

The Goal of Clean Energy.

The whole thing sounds real interesting...
the future of big cash flow...
My future in the business...
but it's yet a small portion of what I'm gona be dealing with...

So little time...so much to think... so much to do...

A winner is a title for the self fulfilled...
victory felt is what defines you...
Anything else external,
is pure ego

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I feel your imprint on my thumbs...
Your defenses highlight my weaknesses now ...
And everywhere I go I hear you in the words that I use...
And the light in my red mood...

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"Her ghost hides
In my mind
In the night
In a way she’s haunting me
I’m wanting her still
Through rose colored skies
Or blue, blue moonlight
There’s miracles on high
She’s walking by
When I look at you I’ve got a 2nd chance
Really need to have you now
One by one they fall it always breaks me down

The quiet
Cuts me thru
The candle burnt
The knife has turned
The pain withers
Alive I know deep inside
When I look at you I’ve got a second chance
Really need to take it now
One by one they fall it always breaks me down

Her ghost hides
In my eyes
In the night
In a way she’s haunting me
I’m wanting her still
Through rose colored skies
Or blue, blue moonlight
There’s miracles on high
She’s walking by"

Maybe it's...

today I just got hit by the worst wave of migraine I've every gotten!!!
ARGH!!!! totally feels like I should just pry open the skull of mine!

Maybe it's the amount of knocks I got on the thursday...
Maybe it's the total amount of combat collisions...
Maybe it's the work stress that is building up...
Maybe it's the end of it all...

Oh well... Maybe it's just pure horrible migraine...

The weird outcome of my check up...
after multiple knee jabs, my ribs which I felt the crack from...
showed no signs of internal injuries...
no signs of hair line facture...

while I gave a dislocation of jaw...hanging with a jaw lock...
and a fractured collar bone...

Something is wrong somewhere...

Maybe it's the madness all contained in the ring...
Maybe the whole survival mentality locked on once a jab at my face just forcefully punched in...
Maybe it's the rush of adrenaline altogether and heightened the extra strength...
Maybe it's just some fire deep inside that isn't extinguished...
Maybe it's just pure defence for myself when confronted by highly offensive opponent...

Oh well... Maybe it's just good training and endurance put to good use...

Whatever it is... pressure heating and rising...
I can feel it... temper not to be trifled with...

Eyes are in flames...
yet the tiresome body wishes for rest
But the mind is a running squirrel cage...
with a stupid energizer rodent...

Sometimes I wonder why
The fields of love seems like a game
where I a walking piece
at a lost on what I am to find
how is it that I always end up with a sigh
while up there the one most high
just playfully throw the die for the daily moments to take place...
some steps I find one awaiting
some steps I find I'm awaiting
yet some I see myself eager to take the very next
while I see the the person on the next moving off soon...
out of my reach...
the hurting madness of the whole cycle...
I should just stick a blade into myself and end the game
and call it quits...
but yet damn it...
it isn't me...

If I had castles built on high...

"If I had castles built on high
I'd find a million ways
to write your name against the sky
Just to let you know
you've caught my eye...
And if I had more than wealth could buy,
I'd sell it all and start again
Just for a chance with you...
I'd build my world around you,
Just to show you...
How you take my breath away..."

with a short hr after the over drive installation on a fairly new WRX
of 2yrs old...
the joy ride turned to a drag race.

Smashin' gas with so much torque...
just when I was done with the machine and system studies on mechanical torque
theories and now I'm pushin' that over the limits!...OMG...

GRrrrrrrrrrr.......running the fierce engines all ready to blow...

A good distance from Emergency runway to where reservoir was located,
the stench of burnt rubber just filled the air together with the power combustion of Fuel...
rocketing the WRX forward at the fastest speed I could handle...

snapping a shot at a corner with a good 10mega pixel SLR...I must say she is damn good...
of coz...with abit of touching up.

Rock on! the every saturday's workout!

"This time...
all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place...
This time...
You burn me with your eyes
in my heart I look past all
my hurt pain and lies
you take it all away...
I've seen you in days and all
it was never enough
and it keeps leaving me needing you...

You swept me
and took my breathe away..."

For the moments...
suddenly, I yearned the touch...
I missed the time of warmth...
not with any is specific...
just the feeling...
and I now fear the effect on my reaction to those around...
treading on boats could be disastrous
even if it was just mere seconds...

There are many things up on my mind...
all at a go...
Can't exactly tell what and which to listen to...
plain "Rojak"

The world is small...
Connections I find from one to another...
one by one...
all in just a few days...
People I thought I lost...
found...
people that could spark up other memories...
fires...


I'm now officially a rep of Rotina Internation Pte Ltd...
in the new up and coming
Fuel Cell techno start up kinda of biz in Singapore by Temesak Group...
And yet I'm still studying and slogging as a student...
imagine that...
Sigh....the thought of school

seeing you again...
it does put a different spark into my daily life
esp when it's your smile I'm thinking about

Funny how easy it seems to be able to make issues blow
by just sparking a fire to what they sow...
just like frying up a disk....
sprinkle the oil
a dash of spices
and all you do next is just pure stirring...
and see what happens...
it starts to boil....bubble up...and things from the inside just unfold...

It's burning....stress stress!!! Pressure...all in the outside world!...what the future brings!

Suddenly in this phase of my life...
I feel great pressure...
Imagine having rejected a number of high paying jobs
for the reason of future prospects...
I've chanced myself upon another one that will probably bring me to greater heights...
but at a probably also ridiculous rate....
with madness burning of brain juice...

Shunt away $5k paying kinda job for your information....
and ended up with this...
This kinda bright future...
but could probably get me into working ....
very much like a workaholic...

Anyway...
Saturday afternoon,
met up with my future boss to talk about issues after my graduations...
I came to know of my final destination in this company....
which was very much to become a director in one of the divisions he is going to set in
time to come....which is probably in a couple of months...especially after I'm set and going.

The new office would be ready in june and I'm already to sit in to talk about how I'd like my office to be like...
How my department will be like...it's my planning already.

And more to come...

Was asked... what do I see myself as in 3yrs time?....or...correction...at the age of 30?
Hmmm....I said...I ain't too sure, but I'm sure I'd love to settle down...and attain some personal settlements....
get a house, a car...(damn I'm thinking of RX8... only young once for a selfish car....wahahaha)
with everything almost fully paid for and less loans to deal with.
And the next would be having a strong and stable job...I'll last me a long way....hmm well seems to me...
this could very well be it. Coz...in time, once taken over a division and being a senior board of managers...
I'm actually running the division like my own biz and just giving him a royalty of the profits while he
does other stuff....in his life....and cash...

having said all that...
there are things I've to be well equiped in....
and I was told that probably the norm of a person would need to take at least a yr to get in tuned with the facts and to
learn all the specifications in hand and in manuals...
but he is gona give me just 6mths...
and in just a split...he says, he's got the confidence I can do it in 3months....OMG!
keep halfing the amount, I'd see myself having to be good to go by today!

and once I'm ready I'll be like the boss on the technical specifications and all enquiries dealing with
Motors, pumps, blowers... the expert of the company....all ready to make the money roll and
be in marketing and design of industrial solutions to the region...and for some areas...to the world.

It's like rightfully taking over almost quarter of the enterprise...and with a share holding of it.

A small guy like me suddenly hit off like that?...

OK ok....stressed...
I didn't know what to think when comparying my past experiences in work and abilities and expertise to what I'm
gona be hitting off with....wow...totally off the charts...totally off course....
Why do I like to SM myself?....madness....

And so...Boss wanted to give me a huge start off...considering Google and yahoo offers...not forgetting credit suisse too
But looking at the learning phase I'd wanna give myself and not to be overly loaded with the pay I'm getitng and
the things I've to hold on to....
I said...I guess I'd better get some starting norm for probation first... that way...people won't be talking...or even thinking
I'm heading into something impossible...
Ok now...having said that...I got myself a reasonable 2.85 a month...and also, company provides me a car at the luxury for my own use...
and besides that...with this probation...every 4months I'm getting a review for increment...and the ups and not small...
probably a huge fold...
and with that...
He just smiled at me saying...head off well with the first 6months...fire off in a year...and whatever I'd think of having for my goals at the age of 30...
I' probably already have gotten it...no sweat!

Damn...should I even believe myself?...
luck?...or just a slap on my face to wake up?....

Kenneth Chan....future Boss...
creating his own regional empire with the initial aid of an experienced and well rounded business man...
who climbed out of 2 bankruptcies and now a millionaire...owning 3 mercedes 1 BMW 1 skoda 3 vans and an upcoming
lamborgini/ferrari/maserati... He calls himself a car collector...just buys them....maintains them and not drive...just park them in his big house of swarovski lightings and 3 BMW sound systems and 4 ultra flat at least 40inch LCD screens...
well guarded by 2 huskies and 2 beagals...

Does that sound good enough for confidence in such a boss?....
Damn I like to think so!....

Weekends....weeekends....
was cool having another 2 new friends joining in the
rocking of walls...at yishun safra...
glad they enjoyed it too...
and I guess I conquered anything that was for horizontal bouldering in the
rock gym....now it's gona be time for hitting off for new routes...

But somehow...the fatigue of my body is setting in....too long no sleep....it's going to kill me soon...
and today my migraines are back with fury....
argh!....
But still Dinner at Ikoi....damn shiok! all the Jap food...all the protein load for sashimi and stuff...
WoooHooo!!!!

My lack of sleep is getting to me....argh....bad bad....
this is really bad...
sigh....

memories suddenly waved back...

I dreamt of the moment...
"I was made to love you" streaming at the background...
heated up body I was...
weak and sick...
But there dried ice I had flowing out...
like rushing bora waves...
filling up the room and sipping out of the door under...
A melted heart made of ice I regret disappeared
and made a puddle of cold water...

Wata heck....I'm just a melted puddle of cold water anyway...

Don't need a lot of things
Can get by with nothing...
And of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something,
But I've got all I want.
When it comes to loving...
Oh you're like my only reason...
My truth I see.

Like water
Like breath
Like rain
you're needed...
like mercy from heaven's gate above...
Freedom is felt in your arms
and it can carry me through
each and everyday...
The hope that moves me
and courage, again and again...
The very spark that can rescue me
from the raging cold winds
and the thunderous days...
it's amazing
that's how you are...
but you didn't know...
you couldn't see...

Oh where do I begin I look for a way
to tell you and there's so much to say
just look at me and say you wanna know
for my hear is real and here to stay...
Countless moments I tried to find you
told myself and reminded me that it's all true
If you wonder about my love from end to start...
come see it...
just come over and see it...
through the window of my heart...

Seated...
dreamy... and missing...
like on a cool early morning
with banana pancakes
and cuppa bailey's 'n latte
but yet all fulfilled...

like a day, bed and breakfast
with sex and candy
all line up in abundance
but yet unsatisfied...

Colour Everywhere

used to seeing black and white
never really in between
waiting for the love of my life
to come into my dreams
everything is shades of gray
never really blues or green

needed someone else to turn to
someone who could help me learn to see
all the beauty that was waiting for me

you, you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and now there's colour everywhere
everywhere

my life is so predictale
never any mystery
but ever since you shined the light
all of that was history
now i have a hand to hold
and a reason to believe
there's someone in my worth living for
i was hanging around just wishing on a star
to put the happines back in my heart and...

you, you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and now there's colour everywhere
oh yeah...

you care and now there's colour everywhere

left those hazy days behind me
never to return again
now they're just a fading memory
coz baby it's all so clear to see
the beauty that is waiting there for me

you, you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and now there's colour everywhere
a silver lining in my prayers
and now there's colour everywhere

you came along to show you care

Banging on the trance music...
like sometimes you'd just want all the energy out
totally transferred....
then comes the rock music mixed in
R&B with hip hop...
and soon leading to soul and acoustics...
Just days when you just throw your handphone...
be uncontactable...get out of the messenger life
and just blast!...
Don't have to bother who thinks what about you...
don't have to care how people look at you as...
Or anything of that matter...
views will be just views...
their emotions will be just their emotions...
feel pissed, feel anger... feel frustrated...
oh that's their problem...
but feel happy and stuff... oh you wanna share,
just bring it on if not... feel free to buzz of either way...

those self righteous people who takes all to judge...
to get pissed easily...you can carry on...
just carry on...
at the end of the day you find yourself being filled with the unhappiness...
not me...
you wanna crash and burn...fine by me... none of me biz...
This time....
this moment...it's just me...
that's the way it's gona be...

I've been to many places...
I've met difference races...
I've seen so many faces...
But it's you I can't forget...

I've been through high and low...
Til I got nowhere to go...
I got this funny feeling...
That it's you I'm still missin'...

The weekends....
cool....good climbs...had fun...
with my 3 buds....
Getting them into the sport...
great workout....
exercise of determination...
and really something that really is calorie burning...
But this time round, most of the time trying to conquer over hangs...and those upside down routes...
Thinking if I should make it some weekly thing...
hahahaaa....Hmmmm....

Soon enough I hope the next step with them would be....
On natural rocks! Rock On!!!
wwahaahahaa....

Whatever,
however...
Don't give a shit much...
you can think all you want
curse all you want
the shit
go fall in the pit
I'm freakin' SICK OF IT
not even missin' it
damn it pissin' it
crappin' shit on it...
put your eyes away if you don't like it
I'm not gona fight it
Just let it be...
the way that I see
Gee Wee...I'm happy you see
Oh just let it be...

In time I stall and wonder
how some things come around
fear and troubles hit like rolling thunder
missing and yearning for
but yet on looking I'm losing more

Sometimes I ask myself
is being honest worthwhile?
is being true gona bring me a further mile?
Today I slept with thoughts
clouding in my head...
Sleep sleep...the body rests
but the mind stays in constant reflection...

A very warm welcome
My African Frontosa!

~There's nothing i won't try
Just to make you mine
To get a little closer
Would be so divine
And everytime i see you
You make me come undone
I always watch you near me
In you i found the one
Oh why don't you smile my only star
Shine on baby
Smile my only star
With you by my side
baby it feels so right
And now that i'm close to you
I could stay all night
No matter where i go
No matter what i do
In the end your smile
Brings me back to you
You shine so true
I can't believe you're mine
And everything may change
But to me you'll always shine~

See what happens when you've got the darn weather keeping you indoors...
totally wet....and heavy to the max... cold...
with a very very badly beatened brain
filled with all the work all the strains and hassle...

A time when having proper meals outside becomes a problem...
it all becomes a question...
And so, you bring out whatever possible stock you have in store...
in the little cubic white cooler, and make fire like in 'cast away'...
After that it's all about burning and let the smoke rise to the senses of everybody...
that hey... we're sharin' some BBQ iin the midst of the this cold weather at the....
erhmm....I won't say comfort but simplicity of the staircase and the convenience of near vacinity of our rooms...

Way out of the norms from cooking the noodles, frying of canned food, stirring up pasta carbonara or basil and olive oil or even
whipping up some ham and mushroom cheese omelette... maybe topped with some nice pancakes and fruits like kiwi, grapes, banana and blue berries if it's int he morning...

But it's all do-able and the difference would be made with sharin' the time with some neighbours...

Strangely anyway, these days I've been very much heated on with chile wine especially Cabernet Sauvignon range of reds...
If needed to for beer, it would be the same Boddington and Kilkenny, some Oaky tasting draught all in a can...

My fridge is loaded!
anyway... it's good.
But once back to the rooms...life turns back to the norms and the work goes on...
the brain wreckage continues...

It's already half way through the heavy so called "recess week" of the term...
and the shit will start flowing through once 5th of March sets in...

Way to go....just way to go...
There's only one way actually...

Was trying to practice vector conversion from photo...
after a long night of thinking and penning down stuff for my FYP report...
I got so mentally drained that I started doing graphics....hahahaa

excuses!....
but anyway....couldn't think for the report already so...might as well do something constructive right?....hahaa

here it is!...
just randomly picked the first picture my cursor was on and worked on it....

Not that good at it yet....YET....
will work more on it in future....hmmmmm.....

got a long way for that!

Work work work....simply flowing in...
so much work
so much stress
so many deadlines...
all unending...
Calls after calls of biz too...
not sure for some if I should even take them...
not sure for some if I'm up to it...
coz sometimes, people tend to be over ambitious...
They all want the world for a cheap price...
while I set a cost by the effort and time invested in the work...
sometimes when it comes to dealing with friends....
it becomes harder...
so much harder...
you want to give them the best price, yet...
based on the time and workdone for it... it becomes totally crazy...
totally madness to even take it in the first place.
I'm a free lancer...
a self taught graphics designer and flash animator...
the abilities...are all up to my expectations...
sometimes...there are things which are overwhelming...
good for the pocket...but might not be good for the brain...
coz my mind has already been mistreated...
excuse me now... while I just try my best,
to just give myself a rest...
before my whole starts to degrade exponentially...

still in wonder....
still in thought...
of the moment I saw it appear in my room...
And courage I sought...
Communication i bridge.
The split of freakiness
sipped in...there my shivers in seconds.
Reality sat in and everything was just alright.
But unhideaous she was...
pretty was the less than opaque visual
yet weary I was...
but less afraid i became...

Injured...
Pain...wrapped up...
aches and swells...
blood and pus...
the mind all in a swirl...
So in a swirl...
migrains...
Back to haunt...
a combinational package
raging to kills me...
slowly....inside.
What is it?... Can't really tell...
One day I might just go...
Go away...to a land afar...
disappear into nothingness....
and swift off with the sound of the wind...

My return...
back to home...
the comfort of everything else around me.
Tired from all the works.
Yet today was enriching.
Talking to kids about creativity and innovation
can be just so funny...
had to try hard to keep all the laughter.
Kids say the darnest things...really...
And it was odd having to come to terms with them calling me Mr Chan...
Suddenly felt my age....hahahaaa....
And walking in the school I saw a darn hot teacher...couldn't imagine my eyes...
But she had the looks of those pornstar wannabes...
Argh...got the very very bitchy look...
This kinda....think better not get too close...trouble is just around her.

Now seated in view of the wonderful sunset...
Mexico that is...
mind relieving...
soothing the soul...
And how walking through the alley in the city
you suddenly find something so close to home...
so familiar...
the 7-11....wahahahaaa....

The wonderful structures
sculptured patterns of barcelona,
the night view by the waters
and the beautiful docking area
which I used to call my 2nd home...

Ok...sorry for the delay for the BBQ compilation pics...
have been busy and stuff...
lack of ideas on how the background should be....but now...
it's done boyz and girlz...
but these are the toned down ones... can't load too big files on the net...
Hope you like these.
Cheers!

My project of a computer magazine cover is done...
ready for handing in!...
all put into an actual magazine product... here's how it's supposed to look like
for the front and the back...

Emptiness...
A void left inside...
Of a day so normal
there's nothing much inside.
Vexed...

~A world challenged
limits we are bound
take a step beyond
breathe the difference
that the countless
unending we find
an arena uncontrolled
benefits we reap
the quickness of reaction
brings the impact escalation
that life ain't that simple afterall.
Take a walk down the road
today's steps are tomorrow's old
what can't you see is what you want to clear
what you can see you already know
but yet not hearing or fear
The moment's safety is yet the second's danger
where there is vastness
there is multitude or variations
thus comes the infinity of results.
We never know what's tomorrow like
yet tomorrow will come
sit and hope with actions unacted
we stand at a point where we become dails
things changes around us
but position is a ritual til eternal dust...~

well of coz...not forgetting
this little one....swimming in the open
that caught my sight as a little dot from afar
and then....as it drew nearer...
the cute little thing.

Imagine yourself in a spanish arena
not in the midst of concrete again...
with me, you always get near to waters...
There you see the beauty of every simple thing.
How backward things may look
but yet to many it could just be paradise.
all at the back of where you reside for the few days...
And then next to mexico...a walk amongst ruins
yet so beautiful....
so eye catching...seated at Quintana Roo

And for the once I face a decline
for such issues in my life...
That somehow I see no energy in me to pursue further.
Drained...
Today I smile and the next moment faint
A face of courage and endurance of pain
physical energy but mental zonked
...
Whatever...
Just ...
Drained...

Staring blankly
with strums of slow spanish romance
racing runs after runs
but reality bites
and reality scars
feelings of yesterday just watered
and what doors were left
turned stone cold...
shivers returns with the emptiness
what realisation I held inside
forced to fade into nothingness
yet it can't be instant
it's process can't be quicken
oh Lord how I wished things were otherwise
but as it's not...
I'm still around for
and be standing by
But now...I'm here...
just right here...
for you...

lacerated and down I am

~|Cold cool air
heal my wounds
and every deep cuts'n tear

Heal scrapes of mine
my bruises
and harness focus of my mind

Heal me and make me whole
heal my heart
and heal my soul

Heal me from the grind I tried
heal my body
and heal my pride that's left of me...|~

~A return of a gift
brings pain to the heart...
What does that mean?
or is it that ne'er can it start?
I'd rather it's being kept...
away from me
even if it's negative you see.
At least spare me...
please...
To see things given returned to me
is like taking what I've offered
and slapping me with it.
The pain...
Oh damn I'm in pain...
like a wall just placed before me
with no knowing why...
I'm returning to black hole all with a sigh~

I came upon a pic I once edited...
the place I worked for a short while...very nice...
relaxed...
Well as the Bartender...
A totally spanish Bar setting serving Tapas...
Well actually Tapas are small quantities of food...
aka. appetizers in Spanish cuisine.
It's something that is given to accompany a drink before
a main meal...well that's in Spain...not in Singapore.
Here, you just gotta pay to sit in there with a drink.

In the past, this place was called 'The Tapas' with
an octopus in the logo...now it's called
'La Viva'

"I've nothing, but an empty space...
To be filled and warmth will sip in
And love flows in the blood"

I close my eyes...
wondering what I could see beyond the physical world...
Like I've been able to see those things they say aren't human
I only heard voices surrounding me...
filling my ears through and through...
I only saw myself taking on challenges after challenges...
one after another...
had a whole lot of comments rushing in today...
Went to a house where there was a fortune teller from thailand...
Just there to look at the group of people at cost already dealt with...
And he saw me as he person who goes from challenges after challenges...
With people, against people, against myself...
Very much like I had in mind earlier...
darn shocking...
And that there will be a point soon where I will hit growing point in career
ain't just that...
Someone whom I'd stay with will soon come my way...
lol...damn....this is madness....
Think about it....
Don't know if it's actually true....hahaaa

~|I ought to be workin' but I can't concentrate
I ought to be sleeping but I stayed up real late
When I ought to be doing the things I should do...
I think about you....
I ought to be writing, but I can't find a song...
Stand her drifting, drifting along...
When I ought to be doing the things I should do...
I think about you....
I could go crusin' but I've had enough
I could go drinkin' but I can't stand the stuff
Just don't do it like it used to do
I'd rather think about you...|~

~You come and go like the wind...
Everytime I think about you, baby I see something new...
That takes me higher than before
And makes me want you more...
I wish I don't have to go...
don't wanna leave alone...
Coz' leaving means being further from you.
oh and I'd be missing you so...~

Day's ending...
felt my age already...
with one by one my young little cousins grow up....
all big...and having the experience of their own.

one by one handling BGR issues...still hangin' in the teenage stage...
yet childish 'political' issues.

and small ones that are at least 20yrs my junior...
running about and looking up to me as like some towering monster
able to carry the whole lot of them at one sweep...

hahaaa...

Played with them like mad.
All very cute...
some still at their shy stage...some so young yet already so vocal.

Oh the adorable little things all of them.
Feels like just yesterday they were just either babies or toddlers running around giving me the blur face.

2nd day of the lunar new year...
drained....tired. HohOHo... all the helping out and stuff...
did some reading til almost 7am this morning... and redid my resume assignment...
Well hope that works well enough for me to score somewhere.

After working was good...burning all the CNY poison...cuttlefish, cookies and other junk food
that came along the way.

Guess all's good...all's just good...relax the day away and evening the entire group of relatives are flooding my house and
I'll be getting real busy. Actually thought of getting friends over but with the crowd...It's gona be hard for me to even
be a good host to them. I'm gona be kitchen man...and Mum's runner.

On another mini part of me for the day... the words "Let money work hard for you, work too hard for money and you'll die" just rings in my head for no reason at all...lol...
A sign?...well Don't know....don't really know if I should even bother about such signs...hahahaaa

And now... For the new year...
A Blue Lagoon...
No no No....not the freaking show
idiot!
not even the place!
The drink!

- 1 part of blue curacao
- 1 part of gin
- 1 part of lemon juice
- ice cubes

Put the whole lot in the shaker...
shake some booty and strain the mix
into a tall glass...
garnish with a slice of lime, lemon and a cherry..
Pop the goodie down for cool and refreshing feeling!

Ladies and Gentlemen....
Anyone care for a new shot of
Flaming Lamborghini?

- 1 part of coffee liqueur
- 1 part of cointreau
- 1 part of white sambucca
- 1 dash of cream

Add the first 3 in a shot
light the freakin' booze...
Whack in the cream on top and
down it goes!

In the midst of postal code
139212...
we find beauty and comfort
for total relaxation...
for chilling out...
free your mind away on glasses of martinis
and seated in repose
out of the rat race and quick pace of life...

Would you have ever believed me if I told you that
these are taken in our local lands, Singapore?...
Well, you can be damn sure it is in Singapore!
hahahaaa....

Today I chanced upon a Business model to make money big time!!!
Imagine with a initial capital of USD$1000, in the 7th month of investment,
you would have gained 95% of your intial capital and the rest of the remainding 8 months
period towards full muturity is plainly Dividend...aka. Profits!
OMG! and the total profit from what I calculated would be about 200%!

Damn shit...madness but...gona go more into this and whack for a test drive!
feeling like some risk these days...
erhmm...since when I wasn't....? hmmm...

~I have not shine, shivering
not opened my mind, clearly seeing
I have ignored every blessing
But now this time is for confessing...
That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can’t hide
Here's my confession
I have been strong without you
Away from you now, I miss you
For so long
Nothing could move me
But I realised
Now you could change me
Now I feel myself in shivers
Each time I miss your face
I am captured by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
Girl, I can’t hide
Here's my confession~

~You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this~

Oh yes the wonderful you...
Just as I managed to sleep...
that there you were in my dreams...
holding on to my hands asking me for a walk with you...
Delighted and I wished I didn't wake up...
but I'd say then...this sleep was a gift...
so wonderful feeling it gave ...felt so real...
that I didn't wanna wake to reality
to where I'm standing.
Anyway,
In appreciation I thank God for that still...
It was heart warming enough...
just for those moments...

Friday...
Some asked me which are the most
beautiful beaches I've been...
well I'd say Grand Cayman island or
The island of Tahiti...
Well Heard of Bora Bora?...
It's in French Polynesia though...
I couldn't really find my photos
of Cayman so... let me show you
Tahiti...Bora Bora (First born)...
The language there pronounce it as
'Pora Pora'...
You'll often find yourself directly over
waters...even during your stay in
luxury accomodations...
and sometimes you may even find the
only mode of transport to get stuff
would be a row boat...hahaa...
Of the pictures...you'll see just one
not of tahiti but of hawaii...
its just some addition to bring you
Waimea canyon. Inspite of the sign...
We climbed...hahaa....well those days...
Daredevils.. Death defying creature I was.

And then off to Japan I went! Fukuoka!
Many places I went...the wind was so strong
I could hardly open my eyes...Cold!!
Especially going to Asia's Biggest Ferris Wheel!